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tidbit #11
sleep - the anxiety
before your heart beats
eternally worrying
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tidbit #10
everything has already been said
but not by everybody yet
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tidbit #9
you cannot save what
wants to break-
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Vom Leid der Menschen
Ich finde nichts am Treiben auf den Straßen,
Den Parolen, Propaganda, wehend Fahnen.
Ich bin glücklich hier so lang es geht,
Und wach ich auf, ist es mein Herz das weht-
Denn dort droben überm Wolkenmeer,
Wo Götter trohnen zwischen Trümmerbergen
Aus Gas und Licht, dem Himmel leer
Und wo aus großen Städten Miniaturen werden,
Da schlag ich auf mein Zelt im Traum.
Ungestört, in lufter Höh, zieh ich meine Bahnen;
Genieße geistig Freiheit Frieden Raum
Wo Epen, überlebensgroß, ihren Ursprung nahmen.
Was hat das Leben, das es hier nicht gibt?
Es gibt Regen, freilich, doch steh ich drüber
Und blick ihm nach, bis auch er versiegt -
Sein Schatten macht hier nur die Erde trüber.
Ob es stürmt bekümmert mich nicht:
Treibe schwerelos über der Wolkenpracht,
Badend, labend, in nocturnem Licht
Einer auch mondlos hellen Nacht.
Wieso gibt es ihn nicht, den guten Mensch?
Gott erschuf ihn doch nach seinem Bild!
Er eilt so
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tidbit #8
the world moves on so fast
with every step, we
outpace the past-
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tidbit #7 (German)
können nicht fliegen
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tidbit #6
donuts are like wedding rings-
only without the proposing.
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I named you Iustitia.
I see you every morning;
me, on my way to work, and
you, on your bench
near the train station.
Your name is Iustitia,
but you do not quite look like her.
Instead of sword and scale
you carry cigarettes and cheap wine-
you smell of it.
Every morning I see you perched
on the same old bench, always
looking worse
than the day before.
And daily, on my way to work,
I watch you fade, ever so slowly,
fade away.
Never taking notice, you consider me
just another passerby.
And you will sit on your bench
when I come back from work.
Your once red rain coat on,
the bottle of wine will be gone.
The feeling of remorse, though
will haunt you long.
Hope has left you on shivery legs.
Your once red rain coat does not warm you,
but you will wear it until the end.
Only waiting for it
to come.
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leaving home
silently, I go, tip-toe
every step
a whisper
no sound shall dare disturb
you in your
no rattling and no battling
of keys resisting
toes tripping, they keep tossing
space by space
between you and me
reaching out for places far
woe by woe
I leave behind
unbent, unspent
I leave with nothing
but good memories.
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tidbit #5
life is simple-
mankind found its purpose
making things complicated.
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tidbit #4
i need a hug-
e bottle of wine
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tidbit #3
I feel so splendid,
I take your money
and then I spend it
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tidbit #2
don't smile -
it exposes your skeleton
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Senryu #30
your face a void
I draw a smile on it
label you happy
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tidbit #1
I pulled my emotional plug -
I was not aware
void could leak
out of my 
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moribund, yet writing
the oldest of clichés, and timeless,
is emotion, and though moribund's the writer
that faces faces contempt has filled,
what hurt has urged your pen to write
what words of grief haved marked your craft,
what air that's not pregnant with its stain?
it matters not - lest to say:
draw inspiration from your misery;
write and write and never stop
until you're deeply satisfied.
the wheels of time will keep on milling,
forgotten will be your enemies.
they weren't meant to stay forever,
enjoyed all that rosy time.
in poems, in books, in notes, you wrote,
in everything that escaped your throat,
your memory will last eternally.
and if it doesn't, then at least
your mind can rest at peace.
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6 Months
You know, our 6 Month is coming up.
We've been through quite a lot, or so I believe.
You've helped me up when I was down,
Gave me ideas for my future,
Promised me riches and whatever else I could want.
But that all changed as soon as you saw something you wanted,
Something more important than me,
It was a person that said they would help me in life.
Just like you said it, though they made me believe it.
However, they ended up back stabbing me.
And now, it seems like you will do the same.
You spend all your time with them,
You don't answer me when I talk to you,
You've pretty much abandoned me.
But you know I won't let that defeat me,
I kind of think you planned this, like you WANT me to be jealous.
It's almost like you're hoping it gives me some motivation.
Some sort of drive that will get me out of this slump in life,
Only too bad you're the one that caused it.
I still have really great ideas for our future, but you're with him.
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Innocence Lost
I'm sitting in the passenger's seat in your car.
You're looking very handsome but i wont tell you that; i am tired of giving all the compliments.
You don't take my hand because we've been dating for 6 months and it's not so exciting for you anymore.
And besides, my parents aren't here.
I put on my seat belt and draw in my legs.
You're still singing the music you have playing. It's your own recording of you and the guys.
While turning the car around, you ask me where i want to go.
I take a while to answer because i wish you had just said "hello,"
After i pretend that serene dialogue took place, a smile at you and say "where do you feel like going?"
I speak up, "Would you like to grab your favourite dessert?"
You turn to me then, glad at my answer. I'm supposed to know what you want to do but not make you feel guilty of ruining your diet.
You take my hand. I love you. I do.
"Ok," you say with a smile "We'll go,"
We're on the road.
I'm getting messages on my phone and let go of you
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i hear shuffling.
My eyes roll around under my lids.
A flash of all the faces i know run through my mind.
I can't think of any that would be here now.
I swallow and feel my dry tongue rub against the roof of my mouth.
I open my eyes.
No one is there.
An empty grey corner where i expected you to be.
Yes, that's right.
I expected you to stand there looking down at me.
Maybe even reaching for my hand with tears in your eyes.
You're sorry right?
You miss me, right?
You love me right?
My fingers gently grip the blanket as i feel my own emotions trample over my heart.
I hear the beeping sounds all around me.
The room gets bigger.
How stupid of me to think you'd be here.
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15 too early
When I was 15,
I'd squint one eye to practice being behind a Hollywood camera lens.
When I was 15,
I'd finished my third book.
When I was 15,
I painted when I was angry.
When I was 15,
I drove a razor blade into my left bicep.
When I was 15,
I was accepted into the New York Film Academy.
When I was 15,
The world was going to be mine once I got the keys to my car.
I squint to see the street lines through my tears.
I read cheap love novels.
I smoke a pack of cigarettes when i'm angry.
I skip my medication.
I wait to graduate from college almost a year and a half too late.
My world feels like it's ending.
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the man listened to the noise of
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When he thought of it,
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together they hurt his weathered ears.
The scrape of shoes on chipped tile,
The whispers of agitated visitors,
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and the subtle humming of machines,
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The man noticed a couple approach
a door just opposite him
and stop,
whispering, and he wondered why,
why they were there.
As they entered the room,
still whispering, an attendant left,
eyes downcast,
and soon was heard shouting,
shouting, strangely in place in that setting.
Soon one of them stormed out
followed shortly by the other
crying, and stopping,
yelling out unintelligible obscenities,
obscenities that no one bothered to hear
As an attendant escorted
the remaining visitor back to
the room,
the man sat and wondered why,
why they were there.
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Book recommendation: Lilith

Sat Jan 9, 2016, 3:58 PM

Hey guys, long time no see. :)

I'm here to talk about a book that I just finished reading yesterday, and since none of my friends or family are interested in literature, and especially not if it's not German, I decided to take it here. :P

Part of my father's heritage are his books, many of which are fantasy novels, but also lots of philosophy. Since I am a huge fan of such stories, my mood brightened a lot when my eyes fell upon old copies of George MacDonald's work. Now, I hadn't read any of his books yet, but indeed, I had heard a lot about him before. He inspired the likes of Auden, Lewis and Tolkien, and made adult fantasy a thing. 

Lilith is by all means not a book for a casual reader who is used to reading light fare. The style it was written in is dated, as it was published more than a hundred years ago. Part horror, part romance, part fantasy, part theological treatise, and part philosophical musing, Lilith has to be experienced for any true fantasy connoisseur. I won't guarantee that you'll like it, but I guarantee there are shining jewels in it that'll make you think or, at the least, make you uneasy. Just let me show you a few gems:


"Strange dim memories, which will not abide identification, often, through the misty windows of the past, look out upon me in the broad daylight, but I never dream now. It may be, notwithstanding, that, when most awake, I am only dreaming the more! But when I wake at last into that life which, as a mother her child, carries this life in its bosom, I shall know that I wake, and shall doubt no more."

"Our life is no dream, but it should and will perhaps become one."


The last quote originally belongs to Novalis, a German philosopher. It somehow can be described as the main motif of the book, although there is a lot more to it. I don't want to lose words on the plot either, as that can be done easily by opening the Wikipedia article to this book. What I wanted to express was that never before have I read a book like this, and frankly, I do not believe there's another like it. It made me think and question what I perceived to know about life, death, and spirituality, and no book has done this before - not like this. I'd rate this 4.9/5, as the plot has some shortcomings in some places. But overall, Lilith truly is a masterpiece!

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Hello fellow deviants,

I am not going to lose an exasperating amount of words on how I 'need poetry to breathe' or 'to feel alive', but it indeed is my biggest passion and follows me everywhere.

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slenderblade Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2018
Happy belated birthday
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Happy Birthday :heart:
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Hope you're doing well and still creating :)
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Happy birthday
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hey matt! haven't seen you in awhile now, how have you been?
ArtCrusade Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Heya Josh! Been a while, huh? Lots of twists and turns in my life recently, and I'm kinda struggling to make a living besides my studies. But there's some light out there, so no need to worry. :P Wish I had more time to devote to art and / or poetry, but right now my two jobs eat all my time. How's it been going for ya?
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Ghoulish Thanks!

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Happy birthday
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Hey! Thanks for the good wishes! Had a great day with all my special people. :) 
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You're welcome 
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Happy birthday and enjoy a wonderful day :heart:
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Just checked back on my account. So happy you're remembering me. :heart: Hope to see you around here more often
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Yes, of course, I remember you. We have been working side by side at DailyLitRecognition :)
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