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Selfish beingYou need to be needed.
You need to be wanted.
Telling yourself it isn’t selfish.
To constantly desire another’s warmth.
But you know it’s just hollow.
You can’t live alone.
You need, and need.
So you take.
Without any remorse for what you leave behind.
But in the night, that guilt creeps up upon you.
The guilt you tried to push down.
It looms above you like a noose.
Whispering words of hate.
Words you tried to pretend don't exist.
“Look at what you did to them”
“Look at how selfish you are.”
“Nobody really needs you.”
Those words crawl into the cracks on your skin.
Consuming your very being.
Owning every last bit of your soul.
You need to be loved.
Even if it’s by someone who will eventually forget you.
Even if it’s broken, toxic, and manipulative.
You need, and need.
Because you’re a selfish being.
In Vino Veritas - 25. Cloaked in mystery
Denis came awake to the rhythmic sensation of his head banging against a sturdy back and the smell of tobacco and unwashed man. He was being carried somewhere! Then it all came back to him, how he had been brought down in the narrow alley by a group of Russians. Russians, who had been talking about Kalugin, and Denis memory coughed up a name - Ludwig 'Lykos' Kalugin. How the hell had that miserable existence come back to haunt him? Or was it just a coincidence, the same surname. However, he didn't gain anything by comparing names, he would have to act. Like now!
The man carrying him had a holstered gun on his left side. If Denis only... They'd probably expected him to be out long enough for them to carry him into some kind of holding cell, thus they hadn't even bothered with tying him up. Well, their loss, they were all regulars while he was enhanced. Carefully he lifted his fingers, making sure to move with the walking man's flow, trusting that the darkness would h