This is about humility.
I spent so many years, since I found the art in the web
with trying to please the watchers and friends, losing my
very own way and what made doing art so important for me.
I wanted to exite and be a great artist at the very instant.
I wanted Daily Deviantions and Picks of the day on Elfwood.
Now I finally see I am not devoted, not patient, not serene enough.
Always fast and both eyes on a superb outcome that never came.
So I went away from everlasting sparkly fame and pushing my ego.
Beeing here cap in hand.
I am going to learn to draw - to draw with my spirit.
This will be a long way. I started looking back into my past and the pics that
I really wanted to make, first a small child, and I saw I never ever had patience
for that, for anything, maybe for life itself. I did not do the things I really
wanted because of fear - be it drawing or living my wishes.
As I don`t want to die with this in my mind, when I look back at my life;
here is the crossroads where I decide for the other way than at any time before.
Hoping I can grow and make art an exercise for life, taking time for creating not