arsenic-butterfly

7 years.Broken mirrors. But no more bad luck.The edges have softened and the anger subsided. I am so different now than I used to be.  I love myself. I love others. I forgot how to be vulnerable for a time after my frog was boiled for a while. But I have seen the water around me and I realized I could still breathe. And I self-preserved.And I survived.And I promise myself I will Live. I will Love. I will Share. I will Try.Everything is always as it should be, and if you look close enough, there is always love.

Now that my life has cycled through another year... I feel very blasted away and worn out. A lot has happened, some things more dramatic than others and some sad, but I've kept the best thing I've ever gotten for a whole year almost. I can't wait to see how long I can keep it because it makes me so happy. I've tried to live without it but i've come to find that I cannot.   I've perfected skills, expanded on them and make some great artistic pieces. I am back in school once more now so I am producing art on a very frequent basis. I have lost my internet access so that is why I haven't posted, but that will change now that I'm in school agai...

After almost losing the love of my life I have returned to DA... That was something I'd never want. I would never be happy like I am with him if he was not in my life...I know what I prefer for the degree with which he is in my life, but I have realized that I will take any situation that allows me to keep him. I love him dearly... he is my best friend... my secret keeper... my key holder to my tightly locked heart to which only I keep the other key... my lover... my inspiration... my reason to wake up with zeal... I need him. The meaning of my life is to love... without love surely comes death, either self-inflicted or from the heart's in...