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Just

Look at me... I can't hold myself... I can't help myself... Everytime I think of you I fall in tears... For what I've had... For what I've done... For what I've lost... Just for loving you... I'm so afraid you won't ever forgive me... I never meant to do you any harm... And now you are so sad... And now I want to die... And now nothing matters to me... Because you want to forget me... And want me to forget you... I feel so dead inside... I'm just a shadow of what I used to be... Just because I love you...
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The new morning...

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The new morning...

I live... At least for now... I feel so much pain... I miss what I can't have... I look at the walls and keep like that, waiting for that very moment when they start moving towards me, just to crush me... But they are aware, they will not move unless I start screaming, try to run away or move just a bit... I won't... I'm keeping my cool... As if I was already dead, even though facing the walls... I notice they can't check my eyes moving, which is the only thing I do right now... My legs start to get weird... They try to move... I resist... I can't move... My eyes blinked... The walls noticed it! They start moving! I get up...
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Realimare

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Realimare

Life Meaningless Senseless Hateful Awful Worthless Damned Cursed Betrayed Dead Ruined Reaching the boundaries of hell am I Sweeping the floor with my skin Ripping my flesh apart Showing my bones watching them being sewed by those little devils around me looking at the worms eating my flesh trying to scream feeling the mouth full of dirt and worms puking it all as more and more come out I can see Who for me has been expecting so long and there It was Death throws me to It's feet It stares at me like a child at an abomination and starts cutting me into pieces I can see It holding my heart still beating drinking
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The fight against your sadness

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The fight against your sadness

Damned one who did this to you... Eternal pain wrapped upon him... Sky falling for what he's done... A Knight that comes back to honour your existence, Just to avenge the sadness in you, Just to get you smilling again, Just to be near you... A sword on his hands Darkness instead of face A black armour wrapped in him Running in a high pace Then you see what cannot be Shadows move where light should be An army of darkness With the Knight Just to fight against your sadness...
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unnamed poetry

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unnamed poetry

What a heavy burden I am All I say, all I do It's always so wrong I keep thinking I keep believing I keep calling I keep dreaming I pick myself off the bed I can't realize where I belong I look at the mirror and realize I'm not there I'm just a fading shadow In this world of sorrow Not believing in a better tomorrow Tomorrow will never come I'm living day by day Hour by hour Minute by minute Second by second Nothing normal All unusual
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My Bio
Current Residence: In a hole...
Favourite genre of music: Almost any...
Favourite photographer: Gerd Ludwig
Operating System: Ubuntu 11.04 / Windows XP/7
MP3 player of choice: foobar
Shell of choice: Not quite a shell... It's a window manager for Linux: Fluxbox
Favourite cartoon character: Calvin from Calvin & Hobbes
Personal Quote: Sou um ser que nada ser...

Favourite Visual Artist
Gaudí, Da Vinci
Favourite Movies
Vanishing Point - 2001: A Space Odissey - The Matrix
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Deftones,Mudvayne,Metallica,SOAD,Slipknot,Guano Apes,Disturbed,Green Day,Portishead,Massive Attack
Favourite Writers
Luís Vaz de Camões, Fernando Pessoa, William Blake, Phillip K. Dick, Ian Fleming
Favourite Games
F1 Challenge '99-'02 (RH2006 mod) / XBill / MG:S / NOLF2 / LEGO / Diablo II / C&C
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC
Tools of the Trade
pencils/HyperPen6000U/The GIMP/Inkscape
Other Interests
programming, taking photos, listening to music, reading, writing, drawing

Small update after a decade...

Small update after a decade...

Oh hi! Been doing some cleanup on my gallery. So much changed in the decade after the last journal... New country, new experiences, new ideas. Having had the chance to learn new stuff and improve myself as a human I'm considering getting back into art as a hobby. A serious one though.
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Woot!

Woot!

I'm alive!
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The return of the Jedi

The return of the Jedi

Howdy, I'm writing this journal just for you to know that I'm officially back. After a few months working out some database and programming issues (which also made me start a new project) on the Green Day fan site and some hard study on General Chemistry on which I kind of always messed up with reduction-oxidation and solubility problems, but I need it for volumetric analysis in Analytic Chemistry. Soon you'll get the new theme on my blog and a true front page on my website. There's also the addition of a new engine running on Green Day Portugal fan site and maybe a new theme too. I'm going back now, Lt. Ripley is waiting for me on Aliens
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