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Blues for Mama

It’s almost impossible to put my feeling into words on another Mothers Day without her, my mom passed away in my arms August 31, 2006

I will miss this very “look” the look that confirmed she was very proud of my artistic achievements but more than that, she was proud of the man I’ve become. I will miss, the love she had for my little boy Ean, he was so special to her and gave her a chance to see life again from the eyes of a child, where all things are possible and fantasies become real once more. I will miss the special relationship that can only be achieved between a son and his mother, the trust and un-judgmental faith we had in each other. I will miss her gentle nature, a kind, positive woman who lived by the basic code of loving her fellow humans.

About the drawing:

Three weeks after her death I started this drawing; it’s been an emotional roller coaster of unimagined lows and highs. When her first eye was completed I felt her presence, when the face was finished it almost knocked me over with grief and yet there was the reassurance of her watching over me, sitting on my shoulder. The background was unyielding in its symbolism and intensity, the flowers that she always wanted me to draw but never got around to, patterns her blouse. The rose silhouettes carved in the aging stonewall, speak of a commemorative wall of ageless markings, and finally the moon filled with personal symbolism addressing amongst other things birth, life, death…and rebirth. My hope that this drawing would be cathartic was not to be, but now that this is completed maybe I will attain some inner peace, after all she still sits on that shoulder.

Happy Mother’s day Dear Lady and Gods Speed.

30” x 40” Graphite drawing on Acid Free Illustration Board on left on my page

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AnaMariaMaxim Featured By Owner May 10, 2011  Professional Traditional Artist
My God rest her soul in heaven, and give you the comfort your heart needs... always filled with love.
Darkmir Featured By Owner May 9, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
My mother died of lung cancer at age 54, in 1996.

At some point, we are compelled to rely on memories. Not because this is how we would have it be, but because memories are all we are left with.

I am grateful mine are good.
somniacscaper Featured By Owner May 9, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel for you. You never really get over it do you. You learn to live without them.
The things you had to do for them seem so little once they are gone.
alivethroughart Featured By Owner May 8, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
Armin - Thanks for sharing these very beautiful heartfelt words for your much-loved Mother - I know she felt the same love and pride for you. Every time my son and daughter produce a work of art, since they were 2 years old! my heart has stirred - :iconjoyplz: - incredible drawing and thoughtful symbolism - Judy
AishaBaden Featured By Owner May 8, 2011
I'm sorry for your loss. :(
pbird12 Featured By Owner May 8, 2011  Professional Traditional Artist
Such beautiful words and a beautiful artwork, I'm sure she's is so very proud.

I lost my dad in very cruel circumstances and feel your pain every day of my life also. Though I dont have the courage to pay tribute in such a lovely manner, your an inspiration as always :heart:

AspendingKills Featured By Owner May 8, 2011  Student General Artist
Armin, you're an amazing person. I can't say I know much about you, but what I know seems to be so.. so grown-up? I can't think of a good word for it.
I'm sorry for your loss, I really am
And this story makes it clear for me, that I have to show more love to my parents, because I sortof never do.. :/
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