blur your vision
Now you own the sleepless snatching thin skin seas
saving money mode
- Listening to: at the base of the giants throat
- Reading: breakfast of champions
wraiths and straysSo it's been a few months since I last wrote anything here, and it turned out to be the translated lyrics of a song. I guess I don't feel like this is a personal place where I can write about myself much. A lot has changed, and happened, but none of that actually matters. We're all living creatures standing on a blue ball in the middle of nothing, and we're all going to die sooner or later. HAH.
Life is coming back to normal for a lot of people, and those are their lives and it's okay, and I have doubts about everything and that's just what normal people do and have.
I know I'm not the only one thinking the way I think about things, but sometimes it's like perceiving an entirely different dimension some people have no idea it's even there. And they are stuck and there's nothing to do about it I'm not into drugs and being an alcoholic.
Grouper is coming to play here this year, which sort of completes the list of everything I needed to see live. Maybe I won't be so obsessed with [her] mu
a good beginningthe heart pounds
but this time out of rhythm with time
lost and forgotten at home
going to explode through my nose
turn myself to the sweaty covers
stare at the rust growing on me
it eats into the shell
i stand up, i'm dizzy
i'm crumbling away
walking past myself
clothe myself naked
and then strip
woken up but put to sleep
can't sleep a wink
i speak aloud and travel inside myself searching
i search for life
for a while i stood in place
with hope as my friend i make up some time
i look for a good beginning
but i becomes a disappointment
the heart stops
i insert a pacemaker (which i swallow and hide)
i find a jumper cable (and turn myself on)
see everything double (double back)
system failure (the brain refuses)
i continue my search
i have to feed (feed myself)
turnI'm all that empty
A hole burning like the sun
Space is all so clear now
And fate won't come alone
this is where i write the titlethis is the opening sentence to the text, something cryptic or maybe a verse from a poem or lyrics to the song i'm listening to
this is where i express my inability to write, by telling you, the reader, that i am unable to write. i will not apologize.
this is when i write something that makes me think but doesn't really go anywhere.
now i apologize and finish it off with a random suggestion or opinion of a random current event or cultural reference.
and the real thing can be summed up in a simple sentence:
bleeding orange answersthere is still the question why
i was gonna write something here but i got nothing worth reading.
so not gonna. anymore.
false horizonfalse horizon
towing me out
to the place
where the sun goes down
to the place
where this wreck will go down
where the waters make their sound
Tie me up
Try me out
Take this blood
and put it down
to the ground
where the bodies go down
grouper is in new york tonight
that's the closest I'll ever get to it
New commission journal OPENOPEN
So a bit time ago, I asked in a poll what people would be interested in and listed price for each option. And it seems like almost all of the options got votes. So what better than to just open everything at once? = v =
Also sorry this might be a bit messy, DO's and DON't's are at the end as well as a form to fill out.
!! I can decline your commission if I feel like I can't do it! !!
!! complex characters may cost extra! (by complex, I mean characters that I see as complex for my skill level) !!
Few quick rules/terms of service
UPDATED: custom villagers! (closed) NOTICE: JAN. 29TH
after the last custom is finished we'll be taking a small break before accepting more forms!
other important updates:
1. we're going to drop the whole neopet paint brush theme and
just allow you to pick whatever themes you'd like your villager to be instead.
you can still base your villager on neopets paint brushes!)
2. we've edited the form as well so many of you who have already submitted
a custom form may want to go in and edit it! (there's a new comment to reply to)
3. the base price has been upped since these take a lot more time than expected!
animal crossing villager customs!
How to link deviants, deviations, or websites!I am using deviant arts own help topic found here http://help.deviantart.com/81/. I will be expanding upon what they have with examples, to make it easier to understand. Just so you know I am using their outline and explanation, if you would like to know which parts were mine and which are theirs just go to the site above
How can I create links to other deviants, deviations, or websites?
There are a few formats you can use, either a link of the users name, displaying the members avatar, or by linking with a personal description.
:iconusername: will display the member's or group's avatar as a link to their page. Remember, however, that the limit for posting blocks of avatars is sixty four per post, and this will not work in signatures.
This seems easy enough, here I will use my own name. :iconamarantheans: will give you :iconamarantheans:
○ Current Status: semi open○
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. What I want:
Commission ListFirst of all, the best way to commission me is via sending me a note. Just say what you want and keep it short at first, because in the end matters mostly how your character looks (so add the Ref Sheet too) and what kind of drawing you want, details can come later. Since who knows if I will even accept your Commission.
What I am willing to draw: Canines, the rest you better ask but mostly is the reason that I am not good in drawing other stuff, though asking never hurts.
I live in Europe, so it is EURO, so the prices here will stand in € and all happens via Paypal. If you want to pay in USD, you probably have to pay more.
It would be best if you send me the money, works the easiest for me with paypal. I always demand full payment before, I can assure you though that I am a fast worker and will send you wips if you wish it. BTW, make sure to select: no delivery address needed. Update: I prefer invoices now.
I really do
closed | Chibi CommissionSketch Chibi
1 for 4200 or $42 usd
(+500/$5 if complicated design)
Style : Sketch Chibi
Points or Paypal : ( Points / Paypal )
Email ( if paying by Paypal ) :
*slightly experimental, examples new to old, chibi size ~800x800*
ICON COMMISSIONS JOURNAL
Look at my page for my TDL!
(if you're on there, I'm currently working on your commission. if
Coat colors♦ General info
Minimal white & black
Eyes and mouth
Horns, ears and feathers
Ruffles and tails
Variation 11. Introduction
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
10. Breathe Again
22. Mother Nature
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
30. Under the Rain
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
42. Standing Still
44. Two Roads
50. Breaking the Rules
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
56. Danger Ahead
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
61. Fairy Tale
63. Do Not Disturb
67. Playing the Melody
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't