Not sure what to call this, not sure where to start, not sure what to say. I'm going to try typing some thoughts out since it's more than sitting here looking at a blank screen for hours.
As you all can tell i've let most of my accounts rot over the past few months which is really unfair to those who have enjoyed my work and who ever is left following. I haven't lost any passion for art, and school hasn't taken up so much time that I can't still provide art. If anything I need to put more time towards school...
I've hit such a hard low if that makes any sense. I dont like what i've made and life has left me feeling isolated enough to let those thoughts fester. I still love making art but my willpower to do so has been a bit drained. Selling my art at cons has only felt like a chore in which I fall short on every time... as for every major project I have has been given up on because it never felt like what I was doing mattered
My irl life has only been going down, after awhile everyone I met while being here stopped being around. They each moved on to do their own things while I fell down and became stagnant. Figured after moving i'd feel a little better, but nothing. Now im failing at what I came here to do, being the same old mess. I really want to stop this domino effect and if any one can provide some insight on how it would be a blessing.
Granted there's not much context im giving, but my intention is not to gather sympathy but at least send something out there about how things have been. I know close friends and some family will stumble across this and be surprised a little... sorry for not being so open.
For now i'll release old art I have kinda finished, at this point I don't care for it. You all might like it at least, so it's only fair I send it out there. Some of it is very old.
Thank you to those who read this and took the time for something that, unlike my other journals isn't too motivational... It's hard being positive with how things have been. I'm hoping my next update or whatever I plan to do will be a brighter outlook than this.
through and through, I hope you all have been taking care of yourselves. Talk to you soon.