a simple Yanlen pic

o.o really, not only was my laziness at an all time high, ._. but my mental health was (and still is) at an all time low, from feeling severely unappreciated (still am) to a sudden rat infestation (i evidently have musophobia. that's a fear of the little bastards) that spiked up my stress levels to the point where i coughed blood and lost 10 lbs from it (from the stress itself, not the blood) ... felt worthless over such a stupid fear and even lost some valuable old treasures due to the shoeboxes containing them being good hiding places. had to throw em out ... o3o;; and then there was an ungodly stressful trip i took to Guatemala last month (grandma turned 100. this is proof god's a prick) that had me lose an extra 7 lbs from a combo of stress (so much went wrong, including the loss of a laptop screen, so i had no access. it got fixed halfway through this month, though) and horrific diarrhea (some cooking could've been better. also, never drink coffee at a Panama airport). it's a miracle i didn't attempt suicide again, but i very desperately wanted to end it all ... <_<;; and frankly, i still do. i just hate being alive so much ...

 

i don't own Pokemon or The Nuzlocke Challenge