Since I have time, I shall write what I wanted to...!
Okay, so the thing is I want to get married I want to have a kid or two (I used to want four but now I only want one and if I want another ill probs just adopt one) but then I don't because love is just so hard--in more than one way, pun not intended but it is now--and it's complicated, it hurts, which makes me just want to be alone. And love today is basically just completely wrong, people don't take it seriously, they throw the word around like toys that kids don't want anymore. Yes, they have their good and bad times, it's all apart of life and experience and the memories you have but it just hurts and I don't want to ever experience that. Because as I say, I'd rather wait for an impossible dream rather than stand next to a beautiful lie. This is why I don't want to love.
As for kids, if I can't love, I can't have any but if I could, I don't wanna go through all that pregnancy stuff.
But dude, it's not too hard, I used to plan out my future and how I think my kids would be like with my last crush. xD
Now it's all different... I still have the names I want to name my children though.