Here is shot (upon many), that I took on Wednesday, Day 2 officially for the Stop Motion Master Class at Animae Caribe 2018, with Paul Harrod and Brad Schiff. (It's day 3 for those who came the Tuesday to help finish up.)
This was in the afternoon where, we had transferred everything that was built, back into building with the glass panel class rooms. One of the rooms was converted into a Green Room.
In this shot, Brad is trying to set up his Tripod & Cam, and fix the puppet and Barah Box to adjust for framing before animating. Paul and my team mate (Stanley), were setting up the background we worked on (with Paul as our guide), so that we could animate the BG. We were gonna animate the BG first and then animate the puppet, and merge the two together during post production, with sound.
Continuation of my AC2018 Experiences. This is Day 3.
Below is Day 1:
And Day 2:
So it's Wednesday and I found myself walking into the Art Room/Workshop, feeling upset/angry and unhappy - (cuz I was an entire hour late from the original time - 9am.
I honestly never understood why even after 3 yrs, POS, STILL had fucking traffic issues during the morning. It's expensive to travel there these days, yet the road conditions hadn't changed much -.- Aaaaaarrrgggghhhh!)
The room was busy and crowded with lots of new faces. The first person I met at the Canvas Table where my BG team was at on day one, was Stanley - an elderly gentleman who was in the BG Team. He noticed I was upset and questioned it, so I had to explain. At some point I was looking down at the BG Canvas that Paul had helped worked on for the last 2 days and for some reason, the feeling of being completely useless seeped in. I then tried to locate my Food Props, only to find that they were missing, so I walked around the room, and found them completely dismantled and being remade over, by a bunch of skinny, overly talkative, east indian girls - (newbies).
Internally, I got even more upset and thought that maybe they were asked to remake them over because they weren't good enough to Paul and Brad's standards....
And instead of trying to cause any uproar/drama due to not knowing the full story of why this was happening, I chose to hide my feelings/ remain composed/professional, and returned to stand next to Stanley. Unfortunately my sour feelings got worse when Brad stepped in, saw me, and was like "Good Job on the Props you did. I liked them." (I think Paul also agreed with this too.)
I felt instant hate towards Brad - because I thought he was being pretentious/fake. All I kept getting from the two of them was a bunch of praises, that eventually I started getting fed up of it.
By the time the Live Action Reference walked in (which was a Double Vendor), set up his stall and started making Doubles so Brad could film him, while people all over the Campus block poured in, made orders and ate, my feelings became too much to bear.
I took my phone, went outside, tried to listen to some music in an attempt to "calm down", but instead I was chatting with Joel via my mobile in text, crying my eyes out - because I got bitterly angry, since some old wounds from my past, got re-opened. Not only that, but I thought Brad was a dick.
After 5 mins, I couldn't take it anymore, so I composured myself again, and made a choice - either suck it up and go after Brad - (since I had a few bones to pick with him too), OR, take my bag and leave/not return to the Festival - ever. I chose the first option out of civility & rationality.
I got up, walked back into to the room, put my phone back into my bag, ignored poor old Stanley for a moment (cuz he was talking to me but I didn't pay attention T.T) and walked straight up to Brad at the other end of the room- (who was kneeling on the floor, trying to connect his laptop to a TV Monitor and get it working, in preparation for a short lecture on LAVs he gonna give later.) Despite having some slight fear of the man, I stared him dead in the eyes, and the first thing that came out of my mouth (from what I can remember at moment, a month later), was ' Sorry to bother you, but why do you keep hugging me? Am I the only person you hug?" (because it's starting to bother me alot.)
His response was "I hug people I like" and "No, I hug other people too." Despite being disappointed with his response - (because I don't think he understood what I meant by my second question - assuming he had a wifey and kids, and I met excluding them ) - for some reason I started to calm down alittle - mostly cuz his eyes seemed calm and sincere - (and weren't creepy glowing like last time.) He then proceeds to say that he realizes that (the hugging) is making me very uncomfortable and that if I wanted, he would stop.
For no logical reason, I decided to continue analyzing him (like I'd been doing since he started questionably hugging me) and again, I thought about his feelings if I were to be in his shoes - (like I did on Monday at the Cocktail event.) The impression I got, was if I had agreed to his offer, he would get upset/unhappy - so I replied "No it's ok, I just wanted to know (understand) why, but you can go ahead".
Aaaannnnddddd then that stupid dejavu feeling started comming back again.... and I accidentally but softly said "you make me feel better" (because I started feeling calm and at peace for no reason, while standing next to him) - followed instant regret
, because I realized how super creepy that sounded. Like I was never ok with when guys tell me that or anything similar if they liked me, and here I was being a hypocrite infront of Brad....
(what an embarrassment I must be lol.)
To counter so he wouldn't get a chance to respond, I immediately changed topic and questioned him on his "compliment" - because I confessed that it seemed fake to me. He then said that he was being genuine, to which I responded "If that's how you feel, then why is are they (the props) being re-done (more like destroyed) over?" At that point I think he got alittle alarmed at that, cuz he immediately rose... I directed him where, to the table with the newbie girls doing over the food props. Having seen what was going on (which I kinda think he didn't expect), he asked why they were being done over and one of the girls tells him "they just weren't working for us and there were spaces in it" (muffled voices) and I was like oh and I walked off, returning to my original work area, in the BG dept with Stanley.
I was still bitter, though - mostly cuz 1) I worked on those things alone, where here there were 4 of them together (ie they had help lol).... 2) I made spaces between the plaster scene, to give the illusion that each cup was full - despite limited resources - (hey you gotta work with what you got. I didn't have a choice lol. Plus Brad did something for one of his films. If he could get away with it, why couldn't I?) As long as the top looked good and Brad could dip the laddle deep enough (at the top) to scrape what he needed for the puppet animation, it was fine and 3) I was just trying to follow Brad and Paul's instructions, on what they had requested lol.
In the end, I just had to let it go - though occasionally I would hover by and check on their progress (cuz we really needed those props for later that day - given that Wednesday was the last "official" day for the Workshop and all. So yes, I was alittle worried. I did like their Channa prop though. It was way better than mine, but I was extremely happy that they didn't touch my Cucumber Prop
I loved that Prop like it was my own kid
(despite the fact that I don't have kids nor want any.)
Once again I stood by Stanley - feeling better cuz of Brad, but then feeling useless again, until we (Stanley, Paul and I), had to try to make the wave element, animate-able for the Sea aspect for the project. I think by accident, I spoke out about how useless I felt
cuz Paul had asked us to do something else and I was happy about it - lol. He also wanted us to paint the Sky Prop - since he had finished re-enforcing it, and was teaching people how to, then allowed it to dry. So he asked if I could mix some blue paint (now that they got good blue and white acrylics to use). The newbie (who I liked and got into our Bg team that day), wanted to mix paint cuz she wanted to help in some way, but then kinda backed out cuz she wasn't confident in mixing paint. I wasn't either, but it had to be done, so I poured in some dark blue and white acrylic paints, and water into a plastic cup and mixed it, then we asked Paul if the colour I got was ok. He took it and started painting with it with the newbie girl.
For some reason I was like...."are you sure that isn't too dark?"
"I thought a sky was supposed to be in a gradient?"
Paul > "No it's fine." (happily paints away.)
In the end though, after I had taken this photo > www.deviantart.com/anisa-mazak…
and turned around, I saw the prop and just went "
holy fuck!" - simply cuz the thing matched Brad's damn T-shirt. I tried to pursued Paul to add something eles to the colour, but (shrugs.)
During all that, I met about 3 new people & had conversations with them
I can't remember their names atm, but I remember their faces - especially this one guy with a parasol on his back like a sword - (Paul noticed it too), who kept on insisting that, I looked like I was into Cosplay or that I should do it - while my response was always, Cosplay wasn't my thing.
> (Truth be told, I'm not really a huge fan of Cosplay, especially female Cosplay - because most of the people who do it, are unoriginal and uncreative, in the sense that they will see a character from a show and try to dress exactly like the character, which for some, includes characters that are scantly and or "male fantasy" clad like in Kill la Kill etc. Personally I prefer seeing people's twist ideas on other people's characters, like how artists make unique Sailor Moon Fan Art in their own style or even like how Pokemon Gijinkas are, away from the norm/standard. With Cosplay you can do the same, but not alot of people do it.... I mean, if you gonna spend all that money for a Costume, might as well go the extra mile and add your own thing to it, you know.)
Anyway, there were camera people around, taking pics, the place was even busier, cuz people were comming and going/visiting, my entire team showed up and we made clouds out of Cotton - we even had a couple newbies help us out ^.^ - it was great.
The UTT Student's team also showed up, but they appeared to not seem to like his umbrella prop and they started criticizing it. I saw that/heard that and spoke loudly "Well I like it" - in attempt to re-enforce some confidence in the group. (I think too much of Brad and Paul started rubbing off on me lol.) It was a pretty good prop, especially since I don't have the engineering capabilities to make what that boy worked on all day - by himself - (cuz nobody from his team showed up on Tuesday - which in my opinion gave them no rights to complain about the project.)
By lunch, the Workshop room had started emptying out cuz people needed to go eat etc. I realized it was 1pm, so I decided that I should go eat to prevent myself from getting another headache. Last I remembered, the Cafe run time for lunch was from 11:30 to 12:30. After that, your options were limited to pies, fries, junk food and paste sandwiches. I was lucky enough to get a beef and chicken pies. I never had them before from my Uni's cafe. They were pretty good. The beef tasted the way that it should. I had missed that flavor
, as it had been about 10 yrs since I had consumed beef with a rich profile.
I thought the Art/Workshop room was empty, so I had lunch there. Paul and Brad had gone upstairs to have their lunch as well (I assumed.), but then somehow out pops in Brad, walking in to get something, and then he realizes that I'm in the room but got confused as to what I was eating, he turns and asks me "What are you eating??"
Hello awkward feeling, my old friend.
Welcome back yuh bastard!
- was my thought at Brad's question. I really don't understand why, but I always feel awkward and blush shyly alot whenever Brad interacts with me. I've found that this bothers me alot, since I don't react the same with Paul or anybody else o.o)
Now I get confused and I'm staring at him, and he repeats the question XD, so I had to explain in some detail, what I was trying to eat, where I got it and why two of them
(And then for some reason, I got a strong urge to go buy him a pie so he could try it for himself. But then I had to stop myself to be considerate further, because I realized I didn't know if he was vegan, had a sensitive diet or what.)
Satisfied with my response, he continues down the room, grabs what he needed and slips out the room again XD After he disappeared, I had conversations with a few passers by.
Eventually the session resumed, and I got confused to where the "green room" was located, so I as usual I tagged along with someone who knew where to go - in the sense that I had to help Paul carry the clouds and sky board prop over. Everybody eles brought in the other props too. I almost tripped over the dang floor board at the door/entrance to the room, despite Paul telling me to watch my step. I didn't understand what he meant before walking forward, so I mis calculated my step o.o
(Well I guess things are back to normal, since I was constantly feeling awkward so often again
At this point, Brad, Paul, Remy, Stanley, and few volunteers from the crowd and myself, started setting up the Set, Puppet, Lighting etc in the room. They had bought in a Canvas Art Board to use as a Table - (it was what was available to use as the time.)
Paul, Stanley and I had to stick the cotton clouds onto the sky prop and then Stanley and I had to wrap, Cling Wrap around a couple thick wires and had to use that to animate the waves on the shore line - under Paul's guidance.
I wasn't paying much attention - cuz I started reflecting on the days of my old Stop Motion Classes from Uni, and then Paul announces to the crowd of onlookers, and volunteers etc in the room, what was going to happen/what they were planning to do with the BG and that Stan and I were going to be the volunteer animators for the BG.
I snapped out of my thoughts and exclaimed - "Did you just Omar Lewis me!?" (my mind was on my old tutor for my Stop Motion Classes and because I wasn't paying attention, I let that slip out. People in the room didn't understand the reference, but they giggled
at my sudden exclamation - which ironically, made me feel better
Paul > "Yyyeeeessss, you're gonna be the animators cuz it's your project you worked on."
Me > (silently accepts - cuz he had a point...)
So we took our positions, Brad checked his framing/composition, cuz he was gonna vid record the Bg Animating separately and Stan and I tried twisting the rods via both Paul and Brad's instructions. It was alot harder that I thought it would be, cuz my fingers started hurting trying to twist the wires. They seemed to stop feel super flexible and became rigid for some reason. While we were doing that, Paul was behind me, while a volunteer from the crowd was on the other side, behind Stan, and they were gently brushing the cling wrap covering the sea - trying to give the illusion of water movement. I actually liked Paul's Idea and animating more than mine, lol.
Once that was a wrap, Brad decided that he wanted to hot glue everything down - from the table, to the lights themselves XD, to his own Tripod XD LOL and set up the puppet etc and glue that down too, cuz he claimed that sometimes when he was animating, he would get clumsy and knock over things sometimes, or shift the puppet out of place accidentally XD. I have no idea if it worked though. He needed a Hobby Knife and we didn't bring any, so I volunteered to go get it from the Art/Workshop Room. Usually it was Rem or Paul, but I decided to take the initiative for once o.o I did find one, but then I started looking for the extra blades, cuz I wasn't sure if he wanted those too. I was about to head back to the Green Room, when this weird thought popped into my head - asking "what would happen if Brad just happened to walk in?" 2 seconds after, guess who literally walks in <.<
LOL - Sometimes I hate my brain when it does that shit. Surprised I exclaimed "How did I know you were gonna show up?"
to which he replied that he was looking for a black casing with a bunch of tools and knifes in it, cuz he couldn't find it in the Green Room. (He was looking for a poker tool, to adjust the puppet's eyes, since those where animate-able too.)
So, I decided to help him look for it. Since we couldn't locate the case nor the tool he wanted, we decided to return to the Green Room - me trailing behind him with a hobby knife in my hand. He returned to the puppet and I gave him the knife, which he thanked me for > www.deviantart.com/anisa-mazak…
I accidentally looked into the lights twice, looked away only to see everything black, and exclaimed to myself - "Oh, I'm blind now..." (great)
To my surprise, I hear soft spokenly, Brad going > 'Yeah I know, cuz I looked at them too" When I got my sight back, I realized he was standing next to me
smiling quite a bit. (He seemed to be in a really happy mood all day, which I found kinda amusing tbh) I then moved towards the crowd and continued taking Photos of him while he made adjustments and preps to the set before animating. After this, we decided that people should take turns animating two or 3 frames at a time, until we made like 10 seconds of puppet animation, using Brad's Camera, Laptop and his Frame Capture software.
Eventually I realized that the soles of my feet were killing me. I stopped paying attention to Brad for a minute - (which I think he noticed, cuz for some reason, he kept looking into the crowd occasionally, smiling alot, and doing some light, happy, head noddings - which was weird for me, cuz I'd only seen 1 guy I know from 5 yrs ago who behaved the same way to demonstrate that high level of confidence and happiness they had. At one point, whilst observing Brad, I asked myself - "....what kind of mess up bs happened to him in the past, that now results in him being the way that he is today??" - 3 weeks later, I found out, but anyway...) For some reason, I applied light pressure on my right knee and found that I was in alot of pain
. I kept touching it, thinking, "yeah - this shit is really hurting....AaaaaLOT... why????" - (because I was surprised that I didn't feel anything before
As a result, I temporarily stole Paul's stool, when he stepped out. I asked him if he wanted it back when he returned and stared at me, which he said yes to, and then he tried to explain why. (I didn't exactly need the explanation, cuz on Tuesday, he didn't notice that I was watching him and found he was limping. I had meant to ask him about his injury back then, but I forgot.)
So now I'm standing and I'm think, "ok, I gotta go to one of the classrooms and grab a chair", but before I could move, out of nowhere Brad gives me his stool.
I stared at it like this
and felt my heart "melt" for some reason. I realized I was staring in disbelief, so to hide my expression, I just sat down, next to Paul and looked on as people animated the puppet with Brad. I was about to worry about Brad, until I started seeing him happily kneeling or sitting on his shins on the floor, next to his laptop, whenever someone had to shoot frames o.o (What strange dude...)
Once my feet rested up, I started to take more photos again - this time trying to avoid getting blinded by the lights again - (Seeing all black is no fun folks, and I'm already half blind, lol) I got a shot from behind him. I was originally aiming for that, "Host addressing the audience" feel for the photo, like they take of celebs on stage. So he's talking to them/giving them a lecture, and I'm sneaking off quietly behind him to get the shot. For some reason he became aware, turns around - mid speech and I lightly smile and wave at him with my mobile cam held up. The crowd giggles at this
(It wasn't intentional, but it made me feel better
We only had like a couple hours to do some animating, so we decided to re-schedule one final day (Day 4 - Thursday), to get the animation done. People were welcome to come back
After that, we had to leave the Green Room. But before we did, I wanted to take a photo with Remy and Brad, since we all came for 3 days straight, to work on the Stop Motion Project. I was looking for someone left in the room to take the photo via my mobile, and a Committee Staffer volunteered, but then when she returned my mobile, I didn't like the photo cuz it came out badly - which translated into my facial expression. Brad also looked at it at the same time, and before I could say anything, he spoke to the Staffer, the exact thought I was thinking - "Hey can you re-take this photo?"
I was alittle shocked at him tbh (because that's the fourth time he seemed to read my mind for the week AND act on it before I could say or do anything to cause him to act) - , but the Staffer decided that she was gonna take the pic with her phone instead and then send it to me (or Brad) when she got a chance. I was about to protest, - (because I had learnt from the past about other Trinis when it came to asking them to take photos of me in anything - they don't fucking keep their word - ever - and even if you ask for the photos (because you value them to an extent more than them), they make excuses) - but Brad was already posing next to me, so I just went with the flow, lol.
Upon exiting the Room, Brad made arrangements to have the room locked and schedule for the next day (Thrusday) at 9am. Some guy was talking to him alot, about Stop Motion. Brad gives him his Insta account, which I took note of mentally for later. At the end, he was giving people high fives, hand shakes and hugs. When it came to me, he didn't know how to respond, cuz of the discussion we had earlier, so he held his hand in the air to try to give me a high five.
I figured that this time, he earned his right to hug me - (all because of the one act of kindness he did earlier) - so I responded "I prefer hugs" - thus he gave one. For some reason, some people saw this and reacted with "Awww" I lightly freaked out at that, lol. And well....this is how we (Brad and I) became friends - cuz I started messaging him often after that evening....and I added him via LinkedIn, and Facebook as well. Paul too, cuz he I had chatted with him quite a bit during the stop motion animating session, and for some reason, he gave me a hug too, before he took off.