hey yall. i don't really draw anymore - i make characters constantly, but ive pretty much lost the will to except for exceedingly rare occasions like tonight. when i do, i realize time and time again that it's physically draining to me, even though my mind is teeming with ideas. bummer, right?
i'll upload what i doodled tonight, but it's pretty meh. maybe its the tablet im using, since its so small, but in order to upload my big one's driver i'd have to hook up my dinosaur desktop that i took out of commission once i moved upstairs. my monitor is now back to being a tv, and i just havent felt like dealing with it. im not quitting art, as it was an integral piece of my life growing up, but uploads are going to be few and far between. ; ( i've been so busy dealing with life that i've let my entire online personality slip away from me. i work very long shifts, and though i'm up pretty much all night every night, i don't quite feel the urge to draw like i used to. i doubt it'll come back until i can afford a new gaming computer - holy balls do i miss gaming.
what else is new.. uh. ally moved in, not sure if that was ever announced or not. it's been great. stressful, money is tight, but it's been great. we adopted a kitten, pazuzu. she's naturally itty bitty, and has everything black, save for one little white whisker aaaand a tiny bit of white on her belly. she is my daughter and i fucking love her.
i had to put my oldest cat down, pouncer. something.. wrong, was happening in his stomach, and he was deaf, and just.. fading. it was the hardest decision ive ever made, and i watched it happen, because i had to be there when he died. i owed him that, and it took all i had not to jab the vet in the eye with that needle. i lost a piece of my heart that day. worse, the second oldest had to be put down a week later for a sudden onset of cancer. hemorrhaging is awful. her blood tests earlier that month were almost perfect, so what the fuck.
i regained weight after my weight loss surgery. i fell off the wagon hard and restarted my diet today. ive been cooking like a mad scientist in the crock pot. let me tell you, i can make a pretty good sauce. hawaiian bbq sauce, garlic, butter, water and cinnamon. you're welcome.
that's it i guess. i still play pokemon go, that's a thing. trainer code: saygatan 1287 8201 0464
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