As of this post, it has been almost an entire week since school first began. I've honestly been nervous this entire week because, for those unaware, I am a senior. This is the year where I should be relaxed and calm right?
Nope. This I the yes where I have to step up my game in order to he ready for college, to which I have little knowledge over. I was super nervous yesterday because of it, at least into I had an inspiring conversation with my boys. They've helped me realize that I shouldn't worry so much since I'm practically one of the smartest kids in our class.
However, it's also been, at the time of this post, August 25, 2016, a week and a half since my official break up of my first real relationship. My Goddess Aplis and I decided it would be best to take a break until we both felt ready.
Honestly, we progressed too fast throughout our time as a couple, where we would recently have nothing to take about due to our plentiful Skype calls during our summer after Sophomore year, and throughout Junior year.
It's awkward for me because she's the one who decided to bring the idea up, but I can understand because she was not only super stressed, but emotionally stressed, and overall, she stated that she "wasnt ready." However, poor communication, or in this case, lack of communication, led to the decision because we no longer had the time to Skype each day of summer like we once could. The reason? Well, my Goddess got a job about a month before summer was over, and she had to take priority. She was worried that we'd slip apart due to her neglect towards me due to said job, and she was right, partially, since we both kept in contact with each other. I will admit I was a bit upset at the fact that she had to neglect me because of her job, but for the most part, I was okay with it because I've been neglected for a lot of my life, as well as throughout this past summer.
We all have things to do, and I understood that well. However, I feel awakward around her now, at least a bit, because I was really excited to physically see her again once we returned to school because we've been hyping up the opportunity to hug and cuddle, among other PDA, for such a long time, but we both decided to "take a break" literally a week before school began.
At that time, I was busy with duties and chores, but later that night, I had a small breakdown and I wasn't myself so much for the majority of the week, until, we both decided to talk about some things regarding college, including life after high school, and some things we had to clear up this past Saturday. It was great! I no longer felt as bad, and looking back, I'm glad we had that talk because it reassured me that I'd still be considered a close friend, a best friend really, and I'd still be able to get her support. Likewise to her, as I'll always respect her. We both agreed that we were glad we were each other's first, and that we made the expectation for any other relationships partners pretty hard to top.
Honestly, I'm glad I'm still doing okay, and that I still have my Goddess, even if we aren't saying anymore. But the best part, is when she said that we could one day come back to each other to begin our relationship once more, whenever we are ready. It gives me hope and inspiration for great things to come.
Anyways, for those reading this, I wish you all the best of luck on your journeys. May you all have a great life and may you all have a great night of rest.
Oh, and Liset, do know that I'll always love you more than anyone, even when we aren't together. A simple smile and huh from you is all I need. Take care. Mario1AndSonic2 AngelofGoddessAplis