So... My mother died last wensday.
it dint come as suprise, but still way too soon. She had als and she didnt have much time anymore. Right now i'm going with mixed feelings, crying and...some positive. I'm happy that mom died at home, not in a hosbital..but still. My dad died when i was 1 and now my mom. Even though it dosent seem like it, i'm a mom's princess. Always been. Cleaning her apartment and finding old stuff that i didt even remember is hard. Right now i'm not crying, or feel that sad. I know how hard she had, she could not even speak in months..or move barely by herself. I will miss her forever. And i will always remember as Miyazaki character. I dont wanna remember how she looked when she was sick, i want to remember her goofy laugh and smile. Many my friends told me she relly looks like one of the Miyazaki's characters. Witch/old woman, who i relly like. If only i could draw her like that, but my skills are pointless. I dont know what to feel now.
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