Hello little ones.
If you still remember who I am, you probably noticed that my activity in recent years has dramatically decreased. Although being 'quite' alive on Tumblr
and sometimes Facebook
, I gradually withdrew (is that the right word?) myself from online communities due to lack of submissions and stuff to update in general. Real life struggles and tremendous amount of work took away both my time and will to sit focused during free evenings and create for myself. Doing freelance for living is satisfying, but in the long term becomes a killer for creativity, energy and social life. Especially when you're assigned to three big projects at the same time and suddenly you have no idea where the last five months have gone. O_O (happening to me atm)
But enough of that. Today I realised it'll soon be NINE years since I joined dA. Not only do I feel old (
), but somehow... proud? Well, I didn't accomplish a lot, especially considering my goals from that time (ya know, being extremely popular, likable, having lots of popular friends, etc - the regular teenage dreams xD), but being aware that I've been part of the biggest art community for almost a decade is... very pleasing. I sometimes like to look back at my beginnings and see how I and the site changed. And I somehow miss those times when everything was new and I was just at the start of my online artistic journey.
During that journey I discovered hundreds of amazing artists who gave me inspiration and motivation to improve. I was a gallery moderator, I organised contests, events, gave first Daily Deviations (when they were still a huge exposure) to people who later evolved into fantastic artists (with Charlie-Bowater
among them, whose careers I was lucky to observe almost from the beginning), etc. I got five Daily Deviations myself and got chances to appear on the front page three times or so. I've also had wonderful watchers who've been there with me for most of the time, some for almost as many years as I, which is even more amazing.
Nowadays hardly anyone visits my page anymore, almost half of my watchers is inactive/left dA, I have no time to keep my profile updated and no new stuff to submit anyway, so no wonder I'm being forgotten. It doesn't bother me that much anymore, but remembering how obsessed I used to be with popularity makes me a little sad. xD And you know what? I wish I could start anew with a fresh account, ereasing my whole dA history from the web. To again have that feeling of a start and refreshed motivation. I know I can create a new account, but there's no point in reuploading my pictures somewhere else if they're already everywhere in internet under my current nickname. And I don't want to get rid of 'anako' either. So I'll just sitck to my old account, but for now... will clear it.
You can still find my pictures in my portfolio
. But I'll put my whole dA on hiatus until I'm ready and free to create for myself again. I'm planning to finish my current jobs until the start of July
, so it's not that long from now. Either way... I still don't know if I bring the old deviations back. I'm kind of sick of looking at them when I'm not able to draw in my style and improve. Bleh.
Thank you for still being with me, sweeties.
Have a little bonus from 2005:
OTHER PLACES WHERE YOU CAN FIND ME [link]~~