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honesty and its fellows
As these tears, drizzle down my cheeks.. as similar to, the clotted pallor of ever whitening wrists. I feel, just numb, nothing was worth it. sorry, wasnt worth it, the love, wasnt worth it, and most of all I wasnt worthy of you, as you had another. I wished good things for the two of you, though I played piggy in the middle on those night, those nights, you cried, he cried, and I, well, I cried myself to sleep. however, it wasnt worth it. sorry, wasnt worth it, the love, wasnt worth it, and most of all I wasnt worthy of you, as you had another. I feel like a betrayer, knowing my feelings for you both, yet not
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Proof
Oh the things we do for love, the way we feel, that tingle, that drag, so happy, so sad, confusion setting in, that want, to please the other, not in the way most first jump to, but the way that shows they mean something, and something dear. the 'bans', light hearted jokes, that turn, turn into evil plots, stroking, kissing, touching hold off.. just let it wait, to try, get through one time, just that one, without letting them surface, easier said than done. the pretending hurts, feels odd, and manipulating, gives us tight stomach, seemingly lurching from fear, reality bites, it really does, truth, lies, love.
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familiar ruts
familiar ruts falling, oh-so-sweetly deep down, into those familiar ruts comforting lying in this dirt, which used to cake me, which now seeps back onto me, making me back into filth, layering me down, dragging me to its depths it's honestly not you, all i want is you, you do not do this to me having the ties, strangled and bound, keeping me in this filth, an unthinking, deglorifying and putrid way to live i hate it it keeps me here, locked in my own mind, terrifying me, losing me all my loved ones, except those, those who i hide it from it doesnt scare them but, those i care enough to tell, they run, frightene
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take it, leave it, you get me
Those sunshine rays, beating through your window, soft pallor of your face. the kissed tone of your skin, the way our looks catch eachother, that feeling deep within. our faces changing, becoming flushed, those flutter emotions, ranging. Want, Need, Love. Its you I think about, each and every day, that look, a slight sly scout. No need to talk, just look at me like you do, lets go for a walk. We need not words, we do just know, sky high like birds. Think, Breathe, Touch. the distance, our fear, though deep in thought, our love right here, deep in our heart(s). all new to me, the wonderful freshness of you, this stunn
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Breast Cancer awareness
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ROSE GLASSES
If only I could see as they see, those rose tints, making things bearable, making love possible. God lost my order the trivial little things i lack, given to others, just to flaunt, to flaunt in my face. He lost my order once more I got some glasses, but mine are different, not rose colored, just pure white Fucking messed up orders Why bother caring, my tinit is broken, along with spirit, so kill me my order was fucked stupid frivolity, my losses, no love, just hate, living? no. my order was misread Do i look like others, do i get their physique? no, just this, stupid and ever-so-bleak why did my order get lost?
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COMBO
Nothing told, nor repeated, noone cares, whether I'm bleeded, my life worth just nothing, noone to care, I must be skanky ho, to have noone here, noone to look after me, shelter me from pain, you know who I'm attacking, if you don't, use your brain, I'm not good enough, to do the job, I guess being tough, just doesn't rack, I'm sick of this, the sharp pain in my back, the work of backstabbers, going all behind you, not a care in the world, just to annoy you, WELL, ITS WORKED, people won't see me anymore, as noone wants me, no point to coming, or going, no point to be, I'm useless Useless me.
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Explosion
explosion, implosion, words of attack, fire, dire, hatred and back, always this way, each, every day, I want it to stop, to just fall, drop, why does he hate me, why dont thing just work, to stop and to hear, he doesnt even care, i try tell him my view, he says "SCREW YOU", nothing, tactics tried, my eyes cried, it still doesnt work, am i the jerk, too nosey it seems, hatred in rheems, close family, no way, no reason to stay, I should just leave, it would be much better, to talk with them, via letter, they blame it on one thing, but in truth its another, all this damned conflict, oh brother, I want to get along,
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Today
i woke up ready for your call i waited and then realised i was to fall you said 10.30 and i agreed we met, talked, chatted had our coffe and cake it then got confusing and i reacted i thought i would spend this day with you your friend and mum shopping laughing being true you said you're sorry we'll catch up sometime but i wanted now and forever to be mine i guess i was too hard to hear need my own voice and not to glare i didnt want to have a fight i didnt, i'm here begginning to write today is today and your friend does leave us to go back and persue our weave i must say i'm hurt but only by you i wanted some
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Am i a stupid bitchy idiot
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  • Yes
  • No
  • Yes, you broke my heart you cold cold bitch
  • Yes, you broke my heart
  • do i even know you?
  • Sometimes
  • Maybe
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Back from the dead ha ha ha!
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Hi there, I saw you were from New Zealand so I thought I would just pimp out this New Zealand club to you. [link]
You should come and check it out!