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    I quietly listened to "Once Upon a Me" in the room, softly crying while reading the small, white subtitles at the bottom of the video. Miku's sweet, nurturing voice rang throughout my ears as she stated her troubles, as well as her happiness after solving them. It was a beautiful song.

    "Only you would understand, wouldn't you?" And I dabbed away my silent drops of sadness and understanding with my wrist.

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    I've always been waiting for a chance to write something about this, and decided that it was too important to make it a journal.

    Why am I so anti-social?

    Why am I so secretive?

    Why am I so... selfish?

    Vocaloid has been a very big part of my life every since I entered the anime fandom, and that was only 2 years ago. Because of my tedious parents and their guidance, I could only learn "so much" about the outside world and its products. They have loosened up over time though, and I have plenty of internet breaks. I just wonder why I've never really cared for other parts of Asia except China, like Japan, until now...

    Every time I find out about a new group, or cartoon series, I tend to keep silent about it and not tell anyone about my new happiness. I'm not sure whether to count it as a bad thing or a good thing. There's always a selfish feeling lurking around me, wanting to keep it all to myself. Pet peeves, like copy-cats, really get on my nerves, because of their lack of creativity and stealing of certain ideas. I've always wanted to be original, and draw or know something that a regular person in society wouldn't know. That being said, there's another reason to the other part of emotions I have for Vocaloid.

    I've never really been very popular, except for one point in my life. Sometimes, I feel like my friends don't understand or agree with me. I can tell them about my problems, like my really weird one-sided love or awkward moments, but they just listen. Those people don't really relate to me in any way. They probably have other conflict to keep their minds busy, and that probably makes my troubles insignificant. I'm never really listened to in school. Most of the time, I feel like that one left out girl, with no group of friends to surround her with laughter and friendship... But once I get home and turn on the computer, red, orange, yellow, green, teal, blue, purple, and pink colors show smiling faces towards my direction. They reach their hands out to me and pull me to their melodic world, which I claim as mine too. Those beloved people can sing anything, and I can always find a song that my feelings are exactly expressing.

    These emotions also give me a protective side, worrying that outsiders will insult my tastes, as well as the product. Keeping my secret hobbies a mystery is very important to me because of my lack of social activity. After all, I wouldn't want anyone making fun of my precious "friends".

--ERMAHGERD DAD SHUDDAP. I'M NOT DONE TYPING OUT MY FEELINGS--

I'LL FINISH THIS LATER~ XDDD
NOT DONE!! DON'T READ IT YET!! :icontinoplz:
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:icononly-one-name:
Only-one-name Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

I'LL LISTEN TO YOUR FEELINGS!!!

 

 

But I may just laugh if you tell me that you're not done typing out your feelings though... Sorry. It's just so random, and in caps... so... XD

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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
IKR?!? :iconawesomefaceplz:

MY dad is a sunuva.
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:icononly-one-name:
Only-one-name Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*enter swear word here* Hmm?
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You sir.

Have correctly finished the sentence!

idon'teventhinkyou'reasirlol
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:icononly-one-name:
Only-one-name Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hahahahahaha. XP
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:iconjenifaritsukiwa:
JenifaRitsukiwa Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist

--ERMAHGERD DAD SHUDDAP. I'M NOT DONE TYPING OUT MY FEELINGS--

 

 

XDDDDDDDD

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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
SHHHHHHHHHHH--
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:iconjenifaritsukiwa:
JenifaRitsukiwa Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Nani? Watashi wa senpai is such a delicate tomodachi that the jenfer needs to hold on to~
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Well... I'll finish it when I feel like it...
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:iconjenifaritsukiwa:
JenifaRitsukiwa Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
-_____-"
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
ha
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:iconjenifaritsukiwa:
JenifaRitsukiwa Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist

;w; Such beautiful thoughts~

 

You really are a Sawako! Not a "Sadako."

 

 

 

Sawako = graceful, cheerful child

 

 

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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
;w;

It's not finished yet~
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:iconjenifaritsukiwa:
JenifaRitsukiwa Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
;w; Well then finish it. Anata wa feelings are so precious to your gohai
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Kohai.

Bichuchuchu.
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:iconjenifaritsukiwa:
JenifaRitsukiwa Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
>:(
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
>: D
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:icondetectiveorenji:
DetectiveOrenji Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2013  Student
Do t worry I know that feeling :(
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
That protected feeling that no one is there, except the music.
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:icondetectiveorenji:
DetectiveOrenji Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Student
Yeah I've felt that before too
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
It's weird, but you feel that Miku, or another vocaloid understands you.
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:icondetectiveorenji:
DetectiveOrenji Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student
Ikr?!
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
asdfghjkl; ROBOTS ARE OUR FRIENDS. xDDDD
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:icondetectiveorenji:
DetectiveOrenji Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student
YESH!!!!
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
;w; World peace for the living and half-living!
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:iconxxsouleatingartistxx:
xXSoulEatingArtistXx Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
*pats your back*
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
;W; VOCALOIDS ARE MAI BEST BESTEST FRIENDS.
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HYBRiD-eMPReSS Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, Ami :noes: I kinda know how you feel, or i used to, before I found otaku friends XD But remember, you also have your other online friends, like Ranger, Kazuki and I :huggle: This is a beautiful article, so far! I can't wait to see it finished :D
~Rose
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
:D

Thanks for the friendly support!
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:iconhybrid-empress:
HYBRiD-eMPReSS Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No prob :hug:
~Rose
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:iconchibiclover-chan:
ChibiClover-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
*sobs* I-I---F-fuuuu...YOUR FRAGILE FEELINGGSSUU. :iconsoemotionalplz:

Then wild words appear:

--ERMAHGERD DAD SHUDDAP. I'M NOT DONE TYPING OUT MY FEELINGS--

....PFFFFF----HAHHAHAAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA:iconyukkoroflniplz:---WAT.
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
TT u TT Yeah... I find it reaaaaaaally weird when the boys at my school talk about my favorite singers.

XDDD My other friend was like WTF when she saw that too.
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ChibiClover-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Hmmmmm...Boys..Have some kind of advantage too.

xDDD TROLOLOLOLOLO--
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
It's really awkward though!! ;v; I'm afraid they will make fun of my precious Miku. Recently, those three sunuvas found out about vocaloid all in front of my eyes.
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ChibiClover-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
W-well.Yeah. TRY TO PREVENT THAT.

..Is that a good thing?
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
No.

NOT. AT ALL.

And one of the boys is really arrogant know-it-all and stuck-up. I have a feeling he doesn't really care about music at all! Vocaloid should not be allowed to enter the minds of people with such critical thinking, and not much care for arts! XDDD

says Vocaloid Commander Ami
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:iconchibiclover-chan:
ChibiClover-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
*Salutes* I'M SPEESHLESS, COMMANDER! xDD
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner May 8, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
ALL IN FAVOR OF ERASING HIS MEMORY, SAY "MIKAITO"!
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EnderqueenShado Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
--ERMAHGERD DAD SHUDDAP. I'M NOT DONE TYPING OUT MY FEELINGS--

LOLOLOLOLOL
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:iconamimeito-chan:
AmiMeito-chan Featured By Owner May 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
XDDD

WELL I HAVE TO FINISH IT!!

DERP HIM FOR BEING SO ANGRY!!
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