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Resting in Peace

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Published: March 28, 2014
I’m tired of being ignored.



I’m tired of being jealous.



I’m tired of being lazy.



I’m tired of being useless.



I’m tired of wanting to be someone else.



I’m tired of being a burden to other people.



I’m tired of being dumb.



I’m tired of having no future.



I’m tired of being unimportant.



I’m tired of wasting my effort.



I’m tired of thinking too much about everything.



If I’m so tired, why don’t I just go to sleep?



It may take a long time to reach dreamland, but once I do, I will be engulfed into a warm, comforting blanket of stillness where I won’t have to do anything.



I won’t have to think of anything.








It’s weird.



Even though I’m not there with anyone, I feel warm when I’m sleeping by myself.



It’s such a bother to wake up every day to my loud alarm clock and noisy mom. My dad even threatens to pour water on me in order to wake me up.



But I don’t want to.








Whenever I leave my bed, I suddenly don’t feel so warm anymore.



My hands are always cold if I’m somewhere away from it.



I’m tired of being awake.



I want to go to sleep.
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TheBrokenKnight's avatar
Is everything alright? 
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
For now. :)
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well, just to let you know. There is an /entire/ world out there that you've never experienced. Filled with all sorts of thing good and bad.  What you're going through right now, I promise you, one day you will look back and miss all these things.
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
Well, since I've never seen them, I probably don't really care.

After all, stuff like "going to Japan" is a "want" in life, and not a "need". 


 if i want to do that

then i have to be reasonable

make reasonable money

then i have to be a doctor

and study poop

and be something i don't want to be

but i have to

because all of my classmates are moving ahead of me in grades

they're becoming good at all of the things i was only good at
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Hey, sorry for not replying for a long time. Hope you're still doing okay.
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Kara-chann's avatar
Are you okay, Ami-chan? ; u ;
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
yesshu ; v ;

i'm okay for now
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Kara-chann's avatar
Good ; u ;

If you eva need someone to talk to, know that I'm here ~
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BlazingSapphireCat|Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, are you ok? I'm here if you need to talk about something. 
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
Yeah... I'm fine now. :)

No worries.

No poop.
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BlazingSapphireCat|Hobbyist General Artist
Ok. That's good. ;u;
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HYBRiD-eMPReSS|Hobbyist General Artist
Honey... Do you want to talk about something...?
~Rose
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
Sorry for being inactive...

I'm alive now XDDD

it's summer

I think I'm okay. I don't have anyone to envy right now, so I don't have to be hard on myself.
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HYBRiD-eMPReSS|Hobbyist General Artist
OMFD YAY MY AMI'S BACK :'D I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH DX
~Rose
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
I've missed you too! ; v ; hjsdgjsdjkkhsgdkfgh

I've got to get cleaning with dem messages.

And the wave of fanfics that you sent me. XDDDDD
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Zatsune-sama's avatar
are you ok ;3; ?
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
yeah

a little better now :)
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Zatsune-sama's avatar
good then ;v;
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ievawolfgirl|Student General Artist
honey dew, who did this to you? );
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
Yeah, kinda myself and my jealousy fighting with each other... :)
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ievawolfgirl|Student General Artist
Are you still bummed? 
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PinkOtakuGirl's avatar
Are you okay? Please don't think about yourself this way, if you need someone to talk, you have me. I'm open for discussion <3 I know life is hard, trust me, I used to take out all my troubles on myself, but then I realized that doesn't do anything but cause more pain. I'm not saying you hurt yourself, but even if things are difficult, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. 

Even if you feel you need to sleep, You need to wake up because in the end- you are the warrior fighting to dominate your will.

"No matter how messed up things get, you can always figure out the best solution." -Eren Jager (I picked this quote because it gives me a slap to the face on how true it is :3) Please feel better and come talk to me~~ luv u <333
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AmiMeito-chan|Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for your support. I'm really sorry for not replying all this time...

Warrior? Eren Jager? ooh wow - this comment gives me the strength of a titan XDDD

Yeah... School is bringing me down a lot... I keep getting jealous of everyone around me...
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It's okay! I was actually very concerned when you didn't reply. ; 3 ;

Haha~ yus, be strong as a titan : D Whenever you feel weak, look at Eren Jaeger quotes. It may sound silly, but really what he says is highly inspiring and it really helps in real life c:

You're not the only one who feels this way about school. It really is an annoying thing that I feel needs to be removed from our lives. Please stay strong and try to distract yourself by doing the things you love or hanging out with people who make you feel good about yourself (Very important!!) Go shopping, go to the park with your brother (I believe you mentioned you had one c: ) anything really. Just remember I have been where you have and every now and then I go back, but I have to stay strong and lift myself back up even if no one is there to help me. If you ever want to talk, then just message me and I'll be more than happy to help c: If I can make it, so can you ^ ^~ Please feel better and I hope things work out in the end~ <333 
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