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Second chances
Take my handI promise I take care of youTake my heartI promise I'll be there for youGive your allAnd I do the same for youTake a chanceI promise I won't screw it upCome on and danceLet your hair down and just live it upMake this momentThe start of your new lifeI take your handPromise you take care of meI take your heartPromise to be there for meI give my allAnd you do the same for meWe've been hurtWe've been burnedBut maybe it's time to start overMaybe it's time to give life another chanceI'm not afraid when you're here with meSo let's dance
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Only the small things
If only the small things matter,Just the little things you can barely seeIf then you and I were together,We would be happy, but we wouldn't be freeIf only the little things are relevantIf all that's big and great is not good enoughThen one thing becomes eminentWe might be missing out on the good stuffThe big travels, the great memories,The enormous buildings from overseasThe paths we take, the trails we hikeThe roads we walk, the mountains we bikeOnly the small things matterNo matter what those small things areYour smile, your eyes, your embraceWith that in my mind, I can come very farI can overcome my depressionMy anxieties, and my fearsI can overcome anythingIf only you were hereIt's true that only the small things matter,But the big things shouldn't be left outFor if the big things were forgotten,We'd forget what life is all about.
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Mature content
Finally older :iconaltheatoasty:AltheaToasty 4 4
Anyway hi
I'm alone in my room
Wondering what to do
Feeling stressed, suppressed
by the thoughts in my mind
Thoughts of not coming back
I'm going to fall
I'm not afraid of losing my mind
I'm afraid of losing it all
It's so hard for me to just make a call
To talk
To the people that I love and care about
To walk 
Them through my thoughts
Through what happens in my head
So instead of doing that
I disappear
It's become clear
That that's not a healthy solution
But the healthy solution is scary
Everyone is so caring
But didn't I go too far by going away for so long?
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Daily reminders
Breathe in
Breathe out
Let go of all your troubles and doubts
Shoulders down
Chin up
Stay hydrated, put water in your cup
Hang on
Stay safe
You'll thank yourself later today
Breathe out
Breathe in
Take it easy, it's never too late to begin
You'll get out of the hell and the torment
And I'll be here if you need to vent
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Feeling small
I want to talk
I want to die
I don't want to talk
But I still want to die.
Thoughts like this roam my mind
It's thoughts like this that make me feel like
I'm insignificant
I'm nothing
I'm just a bitch who worries too much
I'm just a person who wants people to know she cares
I feel so small
I feel like I'm of so little value
I want to shout into the world that I'm worthy
But it feels like I'm lying
What's the point?
We're all dying
We're all circling around
Being the prey of feelings
In a life we never chose for.
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No one cares
You know the feeling?
The feeling of feeling icky
The feeling of wanting to shout?
But at the same time
You feel like you’re not valid
Your worries are not worth it
No one cares
You know the feeling?
The feeling of feeling tired
The feeling of just wanting to sleep
But at the same time
You feel like you are lazy
You are not worth it
No one cares
I’m tired of feeling these things
I’m tired of being this way
I know I have to accept it and
I know it is okay
There’s nothing more to say
No one cares
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One of those nights
The night falls
Just like me
The day breaks
I am already broken
Every day
It's the same routine
Every night
I fall apart
I'm trying to relax
I'm trying to float
It has no use
It is to no avail
I choose to let go
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I turned the lights off
Just before I kissed you
Turned them back on
And now I miss you
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Dreaming of the day
It's going to be okay
It's going to go my way
One day
Now everything seems hopeless
There is no light
Everything is hopeless
Hope is out of sight
It will work out fine
My life will be mine
And I will be back
One day
It's going to go my way
It's going to be okay 
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The act of estimating something to be worthless
You and me were real
You and me felt like we could chase the world
We were together and it never felt so good.
You were my big deal
I never thought you could turn so cold
Like snow you fell on my sunny beach
And you turned the tides like you never should
You were my everything and I thought we belonged
I thought we were of worth
I really believed that it was just you and me against this Earth
But that is where I was wrong.
I was only fixating the relation
Making the prices drop
And in the end it turned out to be floccinaucinihilipilification
With a little cherry on top
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The 'lies' you tell me
It is going to be okay
Or so you say
I’ll be fine
That’s what you keep telling me
I want to believe you
Don’t get me wrong
I really want to believe what you say
But I can’t.
No matter how hard I try
I can’t.
I feel like I’m not in the mood
I’m not doing well, I’m not doing good
I’m not okay
It’s not going to be okay
Not yet.
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Guess who resurfaced from the void just to tell you guys that I finally graduated my studies?? This bitch!! :party::boogie::boogie:
Torn between needing to work harder and needing to take a break.. :sigh: 
I am going to visit my uncle in like 45 minutes and can't wait to tell them that I spend my day doing absolutely nothing when they ask about it #lazyday
I need some cheering up.. I didn't graduate :/ Fuck
So hi guys. It's been a while due to the fact that I haven't been able to write for like ages. 
I wasn't in the right place for it both mentally as physically. Not that I feel up for it now. It's like I can't think of shit to write about? So if you have an idea, tell me! I'd love to get creative! :D A poem, a story, anything.

I've been busy the last couple weeks/months (oh damn, it's 2019! Happy new year everyone!) with my job at Flying Tiger. Some of you might be familiar with the retail store that sells all kinds of products nobody really needs but desperately wants because it's so cute looking.
My mental health is also keeping me busy (I think it always will) and honestly, I already feel a lot better than I did last year. There's still a lot of work to do, and I have to start accepting that it will be a forever work in progress but I'm appreciating the little things again and started to become more curious and enthusiastic, two things that I never really was before my therapy. I started talking more with my offline friends about my troubles and doubts and they did in return. In the 7 years that I know them I never felt closer to them than I do now. I feel grateful. 
But, as I already mentioned, it's still a work in progress and it always will be. And that's okay. I have more tools to cope when I have a bad episode of anxiety.

I haven't been able to write because all my shit as well. Nothing seemed good enough to post. I read some of my poems back a little while ago and they all looked like shit. Anyway, I'll be back with new things soon (maybe, don't trust these words too much ;))

Also I want to address that even though I haven't said anything, I still check Deviantart almost daily to see if someone sent me a note or a comment or something. I'm here for you guys. So if you need someone to shout at, someone to cry on or someone to talk to about anything, hit me up.

But also important to mention: If you need to talk to someone, but you feel like you're just bothering people with it, I suggest talking to a psychologist or therapist. They get paid to be 'bothered' by your stories. Win-win! On the serious note: find help if you need it. You don't have to go through everything alone and it shows that you have a strong character when you reach out. Trust me.

Anyway, hi.

Over all, I grew. I grew as a person, as a applied psychologist (because yess I can call myself that now) and as a friend.

Love you guys! See you soon (again, 'soon' can mean many things ^^;) bye :wave:

ps. I'm going to a concert of Dodie tonight #yay 
I like this one and have something to say about it as well

Girl side
[ ] You wear lip gloss
[] You love to shop 
[] You wear eyeliner
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors
[x] You wear the color pink
[ ] Go to your mom for advice
[x] You consider cheer-leading a sport 
[ ] You hate wearing the color black
[] You like hanging out at the mall
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] You like wearing jewelry 
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[] You don't like the movie Star Wars (I mean, I'm sure that there guys too that don't like Star Wars but eh sure)
[ ] You are/were in cheer-leading, gymnastics or dance 
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed,/ and put on make-up and accessories
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] You care about what you look like
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can 
[] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored (I know some guys who do this too so why is this here? I mean ugh wtf stereotypes?)

Girl personality 7/24

Your Guy Side

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans. 
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[] It's hilarious when people get hurt. 
[] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[x] Shopping is torture. 
[ ] Sad movies suck. 
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid. 
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.  (Okay, how and why is this a 'guy' thing)
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. (And this too? There were female Power Rangers you know wtf)
[] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool. 
[ ] You go to your dad for advice. 
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps. 
[] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear. 
[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. 
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. 
[] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. 
[] Sports are fun
[] Talk with food in your mouth (that's ... just gross)

Guy side: 10/24

Okay, so I have a little more of a 'guy' personality than a 'girls' personality what actually I already knew. But damn this thing is full with stereotypes (what I already expected) that aren't even true that much.
And in the end gender doesn't even matter. I feel like there is too much emphasis on what's a 'guy'thing to do or what girls shouldn't or should do. Stop pressing these things on people.
yes, I filled this in myself too but only because I knew that the scores wouldn't differentiate that much to get my point across.
Anyway, hi
I don't usually do this, but I saw Priswolf doing this and it looked fun and since I'm also a girl and all 

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
Why should I?

2. Do you enjoy drama?
Depends. Usually I do, to a certain degree 

3. Are you a girly girl?
I mean, I like wearing dresses but don't wear make-up.. So.. I think I'm not? What is a girly girl anyway?

4. Who was the last person you hugged?
My mom I think. I'm a hugging person

5. Small or large purses?
I don't really like purses.. but I have this cute orange flowery one.

6. Are you short?
I don't think I am. I'm 1m76, so depends on which country I think. For a Dutch girl, I'm pretty average.

8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
Smack their face

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Nope not at all. I do care if my socks are coollooking. I have socks with popsicles, watermelons, flamingos, cherries.. you name it, I have it Sunglasses are good 

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?
I don't celebrate Halloween, so.. no? I do go to fantasy fairs (which are fairs on which you go fantasy it's in the name really and I do dress up for that! My favourite is my princess Jasmine cosplay my sister made.

11. Are you double jointed?
-google translates double jointed- oh no, no no, I am not flexible at all my friend

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Can't remember

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?

14. Is there a rumor going around about you?
Oh yes probably

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Why would I when they have a first name?

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions?":
How am I supposed to know?

17. What color is your bra that your wearing?
I like how this question assumes that I'm wearing one right now (also, it's *you're)

18. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Don't care (perks of being pansexual)

19. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?

20. Do you have a best friend(s)?:
Yes, but I don't like the tag 'best friend'. I'm scared that it isn't mutual

21. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Sadly, yes

22. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?

23. Do you like your life?
When did this questions get deep? But no

24. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
I like how this question assumes I ever had a boyfriend

25. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
yes, during a swimclass in primary school

26. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
More girls.

27. How long have you had Facebook or Myspace?
MySpace? Ha! What year is this? (I never had it) Facebook I have for almost 6 years now. Never use it though. Not to post that is

28. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
No. That's rude.

29. What are your biggest fears?
Again with the deep questions. My biggest fears are being ignored, failing in life and the darkness. Oh, and barrel organs

30. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Sadly, I have

31. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yes, but who hasn't?

32. Do you believe in the saying "Once a cheater, always a cheater"?
Depends. Context and all

33. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Yes, but the good feeling rarely comes true

34. Do you ever wish you were famous?
yes actually

35. Are you currently missing someone?
Is my bed a person? Then no (but actually, now that I think about it: yes, I am missing someone)


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Hey guys!
I'm Jasmine, and I am into poems and currently writing a book (or, you know, trying to)
I also love reading, watching series and music. Anyway, hi! :aww:


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