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My Nana passed away Wednesday. 
Yellow roses are her favorite flower. I thought making something like this would help to cope but I think I felt even more sad after making it and I can't bring myself to finish it or make it detailed. I'm so heartbroken. The funeral is Saturday and I have no idea how I'm going to get through it. Wednesday was horrible. I don't think I've ever cried so much in my whole life. Yesterday was better because I stayed busy and distracted at her house with family and playing with my baby cousins. But when we left and my papa was standing on the porch by himself waving bye, I broke down because no matter how bad she was hurting, nana would always come outside to wave at us with him or wave from the window if she was unable to come outside. I've been crying on and off for the past few hours looking at photos of her. She had a lot of health issues, so at least I know she's not hurting now and I know she's in a better place. I just don't know how I'm going to make it without her.

Update: Hurricane Florence

Journal Entry: Tue Sep 11, 2018, 11:05 PM
UPDATE: It's been raining most of today and wind is picking up, and the power at our house went out about an hour ago because a tree fell on some power lines. But thank God the power company had it fixed within 30 minutes. But the worst hasn't hit us yet, they're saying heavier rain will come tomorrow on Sunday. I've seen different reports on how many inches we'll get, so who knows. But yeah, still a threat of high winds, and possible flooding in the mountains. I live in the foothills, so hopefully nothing too serious. Just worried about the wind and trees falling hehe. But thanks for the well wishes and prayers :heart:

Hey, guys! :wave: Just thought I would make a general post since a few people have asked me about it.

You've probably heard about Hurricane Florence getting ready to hit the Carolinas. People on the coast have already evacuated, but I live far enough inland that we shouldn't be hit by the worst of it. I live in the long, skinny part of North Carolina that's towards Tennessee. I live about an hour away from Asheville, so we didn't have to evacuate, thank God.

So from what I've heard, my area is expected to get tons of rain that could lead to flooding in some areas and maybe high winds. It looks like it's going to be scattered thunderstorms the rest of the week. We already had one Tuesday, and I'm sitting here now wide awake because it's lightning again. But nothing too bad yet.

The only thing I'm a little concerned about is that I live close to where they're holding the World Equestrian Games, which starts in the morning. We're a small town of about 20,000 people, and they're expecting up to 500,000 to attend these games. I don't know how in the world they're going to cram that many people in our little county. Traffic is already so bad it's affecting kids getting on the buses to school. That combined with bad weather just seems like a horrible combo. I don't know why they didn't postpone these games. Don't know how they'll perform in the rain anyway, especially when this hurricane hits land! :roll:

Anyway, thank you to the ones who have asked about my safety. So far, so good. Worst that could happen at my house is a tree or 2 falls, or power goes out. Some of y'all might have seen photos of my house on instagram or Facebook where our yard is covered in pine trees. In the 20-something years I've lived here, we've had a lot of trees fall, but all of them have fallen away from the house. So I'm hoping and praying if it does happen, they fall away from the house this time too.

But if anything changes or if I hear of anything worse that should happen, I'll update you guys soon as I can. It really just looks like scattered storms, but we're all just sort of waiting to see what happens when Florence hits land. I heard it's 500 miles wide, and South Carolina is only 200-something wide, so that's sort of freaking everyone out.

But yeah. I'm safe for now, and should be throughout this unless things are much worse than they expect. But thanks for the well wishes! :heart:

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Special Bust Commissions

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 26, 2018, 2:49 PM
EDIT: Putting this on hold until I get caught up with other big commissions. Sorry ^^;

Hey guys! :wave:

I've been thinking about this for a while, and a couple people suggested to go ahead and go through with it, so I think I'm going to give it a try.

I'm going to open a bust type of commission. They'll look like this:
Cameo: Amber by ALS123

And they'll only be $5! (through paypal)
The reason why I waited so long was because I struggled with determining a price. But they're pretty easy and quick to make, and I'm going to use this frame for all of them, so it will save time by not having to draw an intricate frame for every single piece.

I will also be using this simple shading and colored line art technique. I just think it looks nice.

I just wanted to open a commission type that's quick and easy to make while still looking nice and not too sloppy and lazy lol. You will get to chose all the details for your character such as jewelry and clothing. For male characters that don't wear jewelry, I might make extra detailing or patterns on the clothes to make it not look so plain.

Anyway, TL;DR: These are new bust commission I'm going to offer for $5.00 :XD:

(no limit for spots available, just let me know so I can add you to the list!

EDIT: I forgot to mention, the character doesn't have to be a mouse :XD: I can do other anthros, and I would be willing to try humans too :la:

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Art Reposting Website Thing

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 15, 2018, 10:54 PM
I'm sharing this from :iconsterlingkato:  Another one of THOSE websites (STEALING STUFF)
Apparently this site allows people to upload transparent .PNG images from various places (including dA) and posts them up for use and downloads as if they are clipart for free use. 

This wouldn't be an issue if it wasn't offering up free unlimited downloads of images that aren't even credited OR linked properly. Most, if not all, don't even have an original link to them to where the image came from OR who even did the artwork. They're just posted up with some random ass tags attached for ultimate luring into downloading them. 
Some have 'Deviantart' as a tag but that's about it. No one's username is posted as a tag most of the time. 
I've got several reports in on my images which have been posted -- ALL of them commissions, mind you -- so if you don't want your work up there put up for free unlimited downloads -- I suggest you find and report them. 
Many of the uploads don't have usernames attached to

I honestly wasn't expecting to find any of my stuff on here, but low and behold, I did find a few. If you type "Great Mouse Detective" in the search bar, there's a lot of stuff I recognize from others of you in the GMD fandom. So just sharing if you want to head over there and check it out. I'm going to report the stuff I find of mine to see what happens. This kind of thing just irritates me. It's always my GMD stuff that I find on sites like this. I don't really mind reposting, just give credit to the original artist -.-

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Journal Entry: Tue Aug 14, 2018, 6:10 PM
Just wanted to give a heads up here to anyone who has like my 2 Facebook pages "ALS123: GMD Art" (which I had to rename "Amber's GMD Art" in order for all this to work) and "Fane cel Rau." I have another page called "Amber's Art" that I created for family and friends to see, but very very rarely posted anthro stuff. But I really want to condense all my art on Facebook to 1 page instead of 3. It's just confusing and aggravating. The reason why I haven't merged them already is because I was embarrassed for family and friends I know irl to see my anthro stuff (mostly because I get embarrassed when people start the "why do you only draw mice?" thing.) But I've gotten to the point where I don't really care and want to feel comfortable posting whatever I want to.

So what's going to happen is that I'm going to be merging my GMD art and Fane page with Amber's Art. What that means is that all the likes from those 2 pages will be transfered over to Amber's Art. The only thing is, all the posts and photos from those 2 pages will be deleted...

But! I will simply reupload the works I want to share. Honestly, I probably won't post much GMD there (I'm still a little embarrassed to... don't ask me to explain, I just am.) But I will post some commissions I've done along with maybe a few things featuring Fane and maybe some other ocs if I get brave enough. 

Anyway. You can read more about the change here on Facebook--> [link]

Thank you so much to everyone here on dA who has given my pages love over on Facebook over the years. Your support means the world to me! :heart:

PS. This doesn't mean I'm moving ONLY to Facebook lol. I'll still be here and other places. Although I think I'm probably going to be the most active here on dA and Instagram.

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Art/Life Updates

Tue Jun 12, 2018, 10:55 PM
I've been putting writing a new journal entry off for months now, but I gotta bump that old one out of the way ^^; Although... I'm not real sure what to talk about. It's why I've been putting it off so long :XD: 

Um, so I guess I'll start with art stuff first. I'm still working on the art challenge with MimmiMeArt I'm just super slow at it and need to stop waiting til the last couple days in the month to work on it. That's actually a huge thing I'm having a problem with, making a schedule and sticking to it. Since I don't work a regular 9-5ish job anymore, every day is different depending on how much work is available at my current job. It's transcription work, and the workload from day to day is very unpredictable. And not knowing how much I'll be working each day kind of throws things off. 

Anyway, I'm working on making myself stick to a schedule. My body's internal clock is so screwed up that my days and nights are flipped, so I've got to force myself to fix that too. I want to start getting as much work done in the mornings as I can and dedicating the afternoon to art stuff. Then if I have time in the evenings, I'll transcribe some more because there's usually a little more to do at night than in the morning. 

So besides the monthly art challenge, I have one commission to finish (newboldworld I'm so sorry for your wait. You have the patience of a saint :heart: ).
I also have a new series I want to try based on this  Cameo: Amber by ALS123 that I plan to experiment with my own OCs. I'm also considering opening a special type of commission for this, but I'm not totally decided yet. I need to finish some other things first ^^; 

After watching the new trailers for Kingdom Hearts 3 (we FINALLY have a release date of January 19, 2019!!!! :squee: ), I really REALLY want to make fanart for it. Especially of Sora in his new outfit for the Pirates of the Caribbean world :la: 

And I should really make some art for :iconprehistoria-arpg: I actually own a worg but have never even made any art for him besides 2 tiny sketches. But this is him:  Takoda by ALS123 His name is Takoda, and his handler will be... Fane. Yeah :XD: Gonna be very interesting to see him in a completely different world, but I'm excited to play with the idea :aww:

And for some reason, I really want to vamp up my YouTube channel and start making some sort of art vlog thing. I gotta confess, TerriTheSketcher is a huge inspiration for me wanting to try that ^^; I'm honestly not sure I can do well in front of a camera. I tried it one day to test where and how I would do it, and just totally froze. I know I talk during livestreams, but those are a little different... for... some... reason. Don't ask me to explain, it just is :XD: 

I think that's about it as far as art stuff goes. For real life stuff, as I said, I'm still working full time with the transcription company. I was a little disappointed earlier this year because I wasn't making nearly as much money as I needed or wanted to be, but it looks like things are picking up for the company, and it seems like we're getting more work. So I just hope the workload continues to improve, because I've heard from other workers that summer is pretty slow :ohnoes:

One thing about this job is that I literally sit in front of the computer for hours on end typing. So as a result, I've gained a bit of weight. That and a pretty hard breakup in February I think have contributed to that along with horrible eating habits. Doritos are my comfort food. My mom likes to walk a couple miles a few days a week and is losing a lot of weight from that, so I'm trying to start doing that with her more often. And last week I bought some new tires and tubes for my bicycle that I've had since I was a teenager, because the tires were pretty much rotten because it has been sitting in a shed for like 10 years at least. I'm surprised the thing is still in this good of shape. It's rusty in some places, but the gears still work great, even if the brakes squeak very loudly :XD: I was doing really good riding the bike a few days last week trying to build up some endurance...

Until Saturday. One of my little cousin's had his 2-year-old birthday party at an indoor playground, and he was scared to climb and slide by himself the first time, so I went with him. When we came down the slide, I had him sitting on my lap since he was nervous. There's about a 2 foot or so drop at the bottom of the slide, so when we got to the bottom, I naturally tried to stand up. But the playground rules are no shoes allowed, so I was only wearing socks, so my feet slid right out from under me. And even though there was a mat down at the bottom, it is totally flat (I mean, the place is so old that me and my older cousins had birthday parties at this place when we were little).

So I fell flat on my tailbone. HARD. Like to the point where I was literally breathless for a few seconds. I managed to get up with some help and limped around for a while, and the pain finally dulled a little. But then another little boy at the party was also scared to go through the playground by himself, and no one would go with him. For some reason he came to me, even though we've never even met. So I hated to say no to the poor guy. It made me feel good that he trusted me that much... but it was a big mistake partly because since I'm not a little kid anymore, those tunnels seem super tiny now, and I had to scoot on my butt to get through. Should have crawled on my hands and knees, but that was hard because I had on shorts and so no protection on my knees. By the time we got out, I was in so much pain I was almost crying and actually felt nauseous and faint like I might pass out. Several people offered to take me to the doctor or hospital, but I insisted I was fine. Yeah, I probably should have gone, but there's really not much they could do anyway about a busted tailbone.

So here I am 4 days later, and I still can't sit down. I have to lay on my side. And a huge bruise is forming. Yesterday, my mom actually got one of those donut hole seat things that takes pressure off your tailbone, so I was able to at least sit up long enough to get some work done. But I can't long at all. I'm sitting on it now while I type, but still in a lot of pain. It's so embarrassing. Of all the things I could have injured, it had to be my freaking butt :XD: 

So. That was my adventerous weekend :rofl: I've been in the house for 4 days, I'm going crazy. And I'm wasting so much time. I should be doing stuff. I should be socializing. 

That's another thing actually. For some reason, here lately I feel like I'm reverting back to my high school days where I rarely talk. In school, I literally would not talk unless I had to. I don't know why. I think it's an anxiety thing. In high school I was literally afraid to talk to people. And for some reason, I feel a little bit of that creeping back up on me. I've been having a bad problem with anxiety the past year or so, but I thought it was mostly due to my pharmacy job. I've found out now that's not the case and it's not as simple to get rid of as I thought. I mean, I'm so happy with this new job, but I've been anxious all year about if I'm making enough money or if I should get a second part time job because I want to move out soon. It's embarrassing to me to be a 27 year old and have to tell people you still live at home with your parents. I see the looks people give, or the tone when they say "Oh, ok." Maybe I read too much into it, I don't know. 

Also, tryinng to decide if I want an apartment or a house is worrying me to death. Apartments here are $800+, most above $1000. The cheap apartments are in very bad neighborhoods where I hear in the news of people getting shot or stabbed all the time, or there's drug dealers all around. So I'm thinking a house may be the way to go. There's not much around here that I can afford because everyone that owns a house around here inherited it and the 40+ acres of land around it. The only people who can afford that are the horse people moving here from up north because land is cheaper for them here. But I can't afford multi-million dollar houses with land. Everything else is mostly in the $200,000 and up range, unless you want a fixer upper.

But, I have found 3 that were under $100,000 that I had set my heart on, and 2 of them are gone now. So I'm hoping that by the time I can afford to, that that house will still be on the market. Only thing is, I'm not sure about getting approved for a loan because I have no credit history. I only just recently acquired a credit card, and I haven't even used it yet. But who knows how long it will take to build up some good credit.

Anyway... I'm just rambling now, sorry. Needed to get some of this off of my chest I guess ^^; 

So to any watchers that are still following me, thanks for sticking around. I'm sorry for not replying to comments much anymore. Part of that social anxiety thing I guess. But I need to stop making excuses. I will try to do better. I have friendships and family relationships I need to repair, and that scares me too. But I need to get my butt into gear and fix some things.

But yeah, thanks for sticking around. I'll work on getting a better schedule and trying to update more here and on other social media :heart:

PS. Do you guys find more traffic for your art on other sites? I've heard dA is "dying" and I've noticed a lot of the more popular artists are going to other platforms like Instagram and Twitter. Do any of those work better for you than dA? I'm just curious. I've not had much luck on other sites, but that's because I don't post often as most do I think ^^; 

So guess who's having computer problems again? This gal! I really think all technology has some kind of issue with me. I have the worst luck with electronics.

There's too many issues to list and I'm sure you don't want the boring details, but basically my laptop is functioning so bad it makes any type of work impossible, my real job and art and commissions included.

It's still under earranty, so I submitted a claim a week ago from today. I Had to send a copy of my receipt and wait for it to be approved. It's been so long since I heard back that I was finally able to get ahold of someone in the chatroom who said the receipt had been in process but they approved it right then for me, and then had someone from claims call me and finish approving the claim. This second person told me within the next 2 days, they would be sending me a shipping label and box to send the laptop to them, and that once they received it, it would take 2-5 business days for them to repair it. I forgot to ask on the phone, but the warranty itself says if the machine is beyond repair that they will refund me what I paid for it. Honestly I would rather have the money back because I do not like this laptop anyway and have found another newer nicer one for just a little bit more money that would rather have.

So. I'm glad to finally have some progress on the situation. This has been tearing my nerves up for the last 7 days not being able to work. I can't go another week without pay, so I'm probably going to be making some trips to the library to borrow their computers. Which i hate for several reasons but I'm going to have to just put up with it if I want to get paid at all ^^;

Anyway. I had sent some notes to the couple commissioners I owe stuff to a few days ago, but just wanted to let you all know the situation.

This along with some personal family issues and a stomach virus or something that I can't seem to shake has my nerves totally shot :faint:


Mon Jan 1, 2018, 11:03 PM
After months and months of debating, I finally decided to take the plunge and give Redbubble a try! 
So if you want to get your hands on some merchandise of my works like art prints, coffee mugs, t-shirts, notebooks, and more, come check me out!…

(NOTE: I am totally new to this kind of thing so please be patient with me and let me know if I should fix anything ^^; )

Life Updates and More

Mon Dec 18, 2017, 10:37 PM
Hey guys! Hope everyone is doing well and having a good holiday season so far :aww: I still have lots of Christmas shopping to do and gifts to make, and Christmas is less than one week away! By the way, where the heck did 2017 go?! :faint:

Anyway, just wanted to share some personal stuff and get some thoughts out of my head. Last week in particular was a bad week for me, and writing stuff down helps me get a clearer head and gather my frantic thoughts into one place. So feel free to ignore this as it's probably going to be boring and turn out pretty long :XD: 

So yeah, last week was bad. This year has been difficult really as far as my mental health goes. I have some pretty bad anxiety issues that I'm trying to understand and learn how to cope with, and to be honest I mostly fail at it. That's actually the reason why I'm not as socially active here anymore. Whenever I have a particularly bad day (which seems to be happening more often lately), I tend to exile myself and run away from everyone. And I'm starting to realize that it makes me come off as rude or stuck up or not caring about anyone but myself. Family relationships, my relationship with my boyfriend, and my best friendships are suffering from it. I've neglected a lot of people, and I feel horrible for it. I've let my inbox get so full without replying to anything that sometimes it takes me a few days to clean it out. So if I have ever made you feel that your comments were worthless or that I was ignoring you or came off as too stuck up to reply, I deeply apologize. Your comments and notes mean the world to me, and I appreciate every single watch and fave and comment :heart:

But, especially with the new year coming up, I am resolving to work better on things like this. I haven't done it since 2012 I think, but I'm going to sit down one day and make a list of things that I need to or want to improve over the next year. And one of those things is repairing some friendships that I feel have suffered lately, and making new ones if possible and becoming more involved with the art community here and other places. I've never been good at socializing, but it's something I feel I need to improve on. 

So anyway!

My new transcription job is going good so far. I'm a little disappointed lately because I'm not making quite as much money from it as I'd like to. I started out making as much as I did at the pharmacy job, but there hasn't been much work available the last couple weeks. I don't know if it's because of Christmas coming up or what. So what I did was I actually applied to another company that I had previously been rejected from a few months ago because I failed their transcription test. Since I've been working for a couple months with this other company and have some experience in that field now, I tried the test again and actually passed! So now I actually work for 2 different transcription companies :D Only problem is that they seem to be even less busy than the other place, but at least I have multiple sources of income for now. If one's not busy, then I check the other one. If neither are busy, then I'm just out of luck heh heh ^^; 

But that actually makes me very thankful that commissions seem to be coming in pretty consistently. I may not be making quite as money as I'd expected from 2 jobs plus commission work, but I'm thankful that the work environment is so much less stressful and I have more time to actually make art. Only problem with making less money is that I'm hoping to move out on my own soon, and I need to make a steady enough stream of income to afford rent or a house payment. That's a whole other issue as I can't find anything cheap enough around here, plus I have absolutely no credit at all. So one thing at the top of my to-do list is to go to my bank one day and apply for a credit card so I can work on building some credit up over the next year so I will be able to get an apartment or loan for a house.

Speaking of next year, I have some other resolutions to make about my art as well. I want to do so much next year. I want to learn how to shade and make lighting more accurately, I want to make more realistic anatomy, I want to make more backgrounds from scratch, I want to learn how to draw humans, I want to try animation... So much stuff :XD: I also want to get serious about Fane's story, whether that's making a graphic novel or written novel. I'm pretty sure I want it to be totally separate from the anthro GMD universe Echoes series. If I ever do get the chance to publish it, it needs to be totally original. Which means I'm going to have to change A LOT of major plot points, such as the whole doppelganger thing with Adrianna and Amber as that's something that was originally inspired by the Vampire Diaries as I want to avoid copyright issues :XD: 

So... that's pretty much it I guess. I have 3 or 4 commissions I need to finish and some personal pieces I'd like to get done soon, and a crap ton of fanfics to update, so hopefully can get some stuff accomplished in the next few weeks. As always, thanks so much guys for all your support. Don't know what I'd do without it :huggle:

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Hey guys, just wanted to let y'all know that I have been sick the past few days so commission production is at a temporary standstill. I don't know for sure but I think it night be flu.  Feels a lot like it :c I felt slightly better today but I may go to the doctor in the morning if there's no improvement.  

I just wanted to give a heads up to my watchers, especially  htose of you who have commissioned me recently or have expressed interest in them. I plan to get back to work soon though so don't think I've forgotten you. Thanks for understanding! :heart:

Art Raffle Winner

Tue Oct 31, 2017, 9:20 PM

400 Watchers + Art Raffle!

Tue Oct 17, 2017, 6:04 PM
Omg 400 watchers! :wow:
Thank you guys so freaking much :tighthug:

As a thank you and to celebrate the occasion, I will hold an art raffle where you have a chance to win a piece of art from me!
It will be something similar to these (minus the thick black outlines, unless you want it):

GMD OCs: Dominique by ALS123

GMD OCs: Inspector Thomas Grayson by ALS123
Life Blood by ALS123

Ghosts of the Past by ALS123

Half-Body (From the waist or knees up)
With Background
Limit of 2 characters

-You MUST be a watcher of mine as of October 17, 2017. If you watch me just to try to win it doesn't count >:C
-Leave a comment (anything at all) on this journal and I will comment assigning you a number
-If you share this journal in a status or journal post you will get 2 extra points, and I will assign you 3 numbers instead of 1. Tripling your chance at winning!
-Winner will be chosen via a random number generator, and will be announced on November 1, 2017. 

If these instructions don't make sense just ask to clarify, this is my first time holding an art raffle and I suck at explaining things :nuu:

:heart::heart::heart:Thanks again for all your support! :heart::heart::heart:

Sorry if this is spam to you. Feel free to ignore ^^;

But just wanted to share that my last day working in pharmacy is October 27! :happybounce: My new job is doing transcription work from home, so I will hopefully have much less stress and some more free time on my hands to work on art :aww: 

When I hit 400 watchers (I'm at 398 so only 2 left people, come on! :XD: ) I will be doing an art raffle, where I will give away one free digital piece to a randomly selected watcher! I'm not sure what type yet but I'm thinking half-body, fully shaded with background.

But if you don't want to wait for the raffle and want to grab a commission from me, here are the different types and some more info:
Commissions (OPEN) by ALS123 Commissions (Open)EDIT 06/18/2017: Comissions are still open! Slots are unlimited so comment here for send a message if interested :la: 
***See Widgets on my profile for Bust and Chibi Commissions***

-Half-body: $5.00
-Full-body: $8.00
-Background: +$5.00
-+$5.00 per additional character


-Half-body: $10.00
-Full body: $13.00
-Background: +$5.00
-+$5.00 per additional character
Flat Color

-$15.00 (same price for full or half-body)
-Background: +$5.00
-+$5.00 per additio
Icon, Bust, and Chibi Commissions


ICONS for $3.50 or 350 POINTS
BUSTS for $5.00 or 500 POINTS
CHIBIS for $8.00 or 800 POINTS
Unlimited slots available! Just comment here or check out the commissions widget at the top of my profile to get started! :la:

As always thank you guys so much for the support and encouragement you've given me over the years! :hug::heart:


Mon Oct 2, 2017, 4:27 PM…

Gonna be working on some Inktober stuff ^^

Job News

Fri Sep 22, 2017, 9:55 PM
Update on the status of my job applications. The 2nd interview I went to was for a receptionist job at a local newspaper. I received a no on that one, and it was the one I really really wanted. The 1st interview I went to was for a medical records technician at a nearby hospital. It's been 2 weeks since my interview and I haven't heard a thing. I was going to call but honestly after thinking about our conversation and some of the details of the job I've decided I don't want it anyway.

BUT! The good news is, I have been hired to work from home as a transcriptionist! I applied in July (I applied to several companies actually, but failed all their tests), but because of the high volume of applications they didn't get back in touch with me until just a week ago. Over the past week I've had to take a series of 5 assignments/tests to be hired, and luckily passed all 5 :D 

Basically, it's listening to audio files (most of which have video along with them) and correcting/editing the text on screen. You know the closed captioning on tv shows and channels and movies? It's basically that. Someone has to type all of that out lol. For example, tonight I did 30 second commercials for shows like "Gotham" and "Empire," and also some clips from ESPN of some football games. This company has software where the audio has already been written out, I just have to edit it and make sure it flows in time with the speech. Turns out there's a LOT of editing that has to happen though, so it's a bit of a slow process starting out and has a big learning curve. The pay is also kind of low starting out. I worked for an hour when I got home from my full time pharmacy tech job and only made about $7.00. But, with time and practice I should get faster at it and make a little more money. The average for people who work for them is $10-$12/hr, which is more than I make now, so hopefully I can get more experienced and earn more.

That's why I haven't quit my pharmacy job yet. I'm trying to get a feel for how much work is available, how fast I can work, and how much i'll be making. But as soon as I get comfortable, I'm handing in my 2 week notice. I cannot stand it there any longer. It's been a week since my boss retired and it's been chaos since she left. I do not work well with the lady filling in this week and next because she's rude and slow and will NOT help us techs. She stands there and expects us to do all the work. And while I was training a new girl on how to put the order up and process flu shots she kept interrupting saying "No that's not right, this is how you're SUPPOSED to do it." And I would say "well this is how we do it at our store" and she would just keep saying "Well you're SUPPOSED to do it this way." It's confusing the new girl and just irks me. That and I'm just done with these freaking customers. I'm tired of going above and beyond for people only to be yelled at for my effort. :stare:

So.... hopefully this transcription thing will work out. I'm going to give it a week or so to see what happens before I make a final decision. It would be so nice to stay at home to work. It would give me more family time, save gas, and more time to work on art. Plus I think my mental and emotional health would benefit from a change in environment.

Thanks for all the helpful and caring comments in the past few weeks. Honestly I've been struggling a lot with some personal issues but you guys have helped a ton and I appreciate it :heart: As a little thank you I'm going to do an art raffle when I reach 400 watchers (only 3 away, come on people! :XD: ) where you will have a chance to get a free commission from me. I don't know yet if it will be half-body or full body but I'll let you know when the time comes.

Thank you guys for your support! You rock :heart: 

Need a New Tablet...

Fri Sep 15, 2017, 7:28 PM
I have lost my tablet pen. Again. It usually happens a few times a year but it always turns up. But not this time. I've turned the house upside down looking for it, and can't find it anywhere. I've retraced my steps, cleaned out my room, looked under furniture... even in the vent beside my bed just in case it fell inside. But it's nowhere to be found. 

I'm looking online for a replacement, but apparently my model of tablet is so old that they don't make pens for them anymore :stare: This is the model I have-->…  There are plenty other pens to chose from, and I would assume any Wacom pen would work (I found one for $30 but my tablet is not listed as a compatible model), but I hate to spend $30 or more for it to not even work.

I've kinda been wanting a newer nicer tablet anyway, and since the one I have is so old I may end up just breaking down and buying one. 

Ugh this is the perfect ending to this crappy week. I've been looking forward to the weekend all week long so I could draw, and now I can't. But that sounds stupid because of course I can still draw traditionally, so I shouldn't complain. It's just been a very bad week for me and this tops it off.

So my question is... can anyone recommend a drawing tablet that isn't outrageously expensive? Or do you think I should take a risk and buy the $30 Wacom pen?

Livestreaming on Youtube

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 21, 2017, 5:43 PM…

Since I got to watch the eclipse today it inspired me to make a little something...
Any of my watchers familiar with Avatar the Last Airbender? Because if so then today would have been called "The Day of the Black Sun," aka the day to attack the Fire Nation since they can't fire bend because of the eclipse. Sooo that got me to thinking about my fave characters from the show and... well I can't help but picture Marin as Zuko and Azula as Fane :XD: 

So! I'm gonna try to at least make a sketch (that I will finish later) as a celebration of the Day of the Black Sun :D…

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Journal Entry: Sun Aug 20, 2017, 6:52 PM
Saw a lot of other people doing this, so I joined the bandwagon and created a profile on ArtStation

It at least looks a little more professional than dA so I only uploaded what I consider some of my best works. Although compared to the other artists there my stuff looks like child scribbles, so it's a little intimidating to me, but I figured it wouldn't hurt.

Do any of you have a profile there? I need some people to follow :la:

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Where to Find Me

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 9, 2017, 10:48 AM

Hello everyone! :wave: I want to bump that last depressing journal entry out of the way, and since I'm bored because I injured my back at work yesterday and am bedridden til Friday I thought I would make an informational post about where to find me on the different social media sites I'm on.


Duh, you are here right now :XD: This is my #1 main account where I am the most active and post the most artwork, and also all my fanfics. I rarely post wips here though, usually only finished pieces.

ArtStation: Amber Lee S 
This is an art site similar to dA, but feels a bit more professional so I only upload my best works here.


This is another place to read all of my fanfics. I like this site because it has my stories organized neatly in one place.

Facebook: I have two pages here.

ALS123: GMD Art: This is my main FB page, but I only post GMD stuff here. I mainly use it to show sneak peaks or wips of what I'm working on, and will randomly share interesting little things I find when browsing online.

Amber's Art: This is where I post everything else non-GMD related.

Instagram: als123_art

I post the most wips of everything here, GMD and other fandoms included.

Patreon: ALS123

Here you can support my art by pledging as little as $1 a month and get access to exclusive content not posted anywhere else! I am also in the beginning stages of planning a possible comic/graphic novel, and this is where I'll post most of that once I get some followers and get the project started.

Ko-fi: AmberLS123
Here you can donate $3 (about the equivalent of a cup of coffee) 

Those are my main sites. These others are not as active but still there for anyone who is interested.

Fur Affinity: amberls123

I rarely post here as the site seems to be mostly popular with more mature nsfw themes, but I will upload occasionally.

Livestream: AmberLS123

I don't get to do it as often as I used to, but every once in a while I get the opportunity to stream while I'm drawing so you can watch me and see the process that goes into my art. I will always announce when I'm about to stream on my deviantART account, Facebook, or Instagram (or all 3).


I haven't posted here in a very long time, but you can find a couple of outdated tutorials/time lapse videos of some of my old pieces here. I will try to make more videos in the future. You can also view my playlists of all the music I like to listen to when working on my artwork or stories. I am also going to try to start streaming on here as well because sometimes Livestream doesn't work for me.


I rarely post here either, but it's the same as Facebook and Instagram, I will occasionally post wips/sneak peaks along with completed pieces. You will also see a lot of re-blogs from me showing my obsessions with different fandoms (like Pirates, Yu-Gi-Oh, and of course Sherlock)

Pinterest: amberls123art

This is the main place besides deviantART that I like to use to find good references, whether it be clothing, weapons, poses, tutorials... pretty much anything. Lots of inspiration on this site. I post my art occasionally but I mainly use this account to find references. You can follow my boards to see where I get a lot of inspiration in drawing and writing.

Google+: AmberLee
I'm not as active here either, but I'm planning to make a few blog posts about myself and my art processes and such. I only have 3 blog posts so far but plan to make more in the future.

And there you have it! Thanks for stopping by!

EDIT: Forgot to mention I am also on Discord as AmberLS123. I just joined it a few days ago so I haven't posted much of anything, I just joined it to be a part of the Great Mouse Detective group :XD: 

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Anxiety and New Art Goals

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 26, 2017, 8:20 PM
Warning, some ranting ahead. I know some people don't like to hear about personal stuff and complaining or whining so that's why I haven't talked about my personal life in a while. So feel free to ignore this if you want to. I don't even know why I'm writing this to be honest; I guess I'm hoping talking about it will help. 

So here goes.

Last weekend I pretty much had a breakdown that lasted 3 days. I tried to type out some of the details and it looks so sad and pathetic when I see it in words that I'm too embarrassed to post it here and have deleted and rewritten everything 3 times. So I won't go into details, but basically what I think has happened is that all the stress combined from my job, family issues, worrying about moving out, and just worrying over everything in general has just built up so much over time that it finally exploded. I don't like to talk about my own personal issues mostly because it's embarrassing and I feel like a freak. I have never felt more like a freak than I did those 3 days over this last weekend. The feelings are a little less intense now and I've been able to go to work (although the feelings are sometimes worse at work), but still there. 

Basically I've come to the conclusion that I am a whiny, useless, screwed up freak who worries over nothing. And I don't know how to change it.

I think the biggest thing that would help would be if I could get another job. Y'all have probably seen me talk about it here before, but for those who don't know I am a pharmacy technician, and the lead tech at my store. Not a pharmacist, they go to school for it and get paid way more than I do lol. But I'm basically the pharmacist helper. I see my job as being trying to not only help the customer but also take as much stress off the pharmacist as I can. I've been a tech for 5 years now, and have worked for 2 different companies. But the job itself and the customers especially, and now here lately even corporate people breathing down our necks, has made my job almost unbearable. I honestly can't take much more of it. I hate it. I dread going to work every single day. My own boss is sick of it and is getting ready to retire in a month or so. 

So of course the easiest solution to that is get another job, right? If only it were that easy. Where I live the only jobs available are nursing, working in a plant, doing electrical/plumbing work (mostly family owned businesses), or minimum wage stuff like grocery clerks, waitressing, or fast food. All the other jobs available require a Bachelor's degree or higher (I only have an Associate's) and 2 years or more experience in that field. So I'm stuck. I could go back to school, but that would require money and I do not want to be one of those horror stories I hear about people spending the rest of their lives paying off college debt. Besides there's nothing that appeals to me that I would be interested in studying, except art. And art jobs are non-existent here.

So I could move. I do have a good bit of money set aside for a down-payment on a house, and I have been looking around here. I would love an apartment, but the cheapest ones here are $800-$900 a month. Anything less that I can actually afford on my pitiful salary are in horrible neighborhoods were people are getting shot or run by drug gangs. I would love to buy a house, and have been talking with my mom about how to go about doing that, but it's the same problem. They're too expensive for me to afford right now. And in order to get more money, I need a better paying job. Which apparently doesn't exist.

Maybe I'm making it too hard. I should just suck it up. But I've been sucking it up for a year now and I'm exhausted. My feet, legs, and back hurt so bad that by the time I get home I don't feel like doing anything but sit. I'm on my feet for 8 hours a day or more with one 30-minute break to eat. We have a couple chairs in the pharmacy but we're too busy to sit down for even 5 minutes. It's constant chaos. And I'm sick of it. 

Sorry to complain. I'm just tired. And I'm just stuck apparently.

So that leads back to my journal posted earlier today. About 3 months ago I started taking on commissions for the first time ever. And I'm pleasantly surprised with what I've made from that. I also made a Patreon page, which so far is a dud lol. I've been wondering why I can't seem to get any new watchers or likes on Facebook or Instagram, and I think the reason why is because I draw the same thing all the time. And it's embarrassing that all I know how to draw is anthro mice. I have been getting practice with canine anthros thanks to some recent commissions, so that's a slight improvement. Still. I guess it makes sense that people get tired of seeing the same thing all the time. 

So as far as my art goes I have made a few goals. One is that I want to learn how to draw humans and develop my own style of drawing them. Two, I want to make fanart for things other than GMD (don't get me wrong, GMD will ALWAYS be my main fandom, so not going anywhere :heart: ). Three, I want to learn how to make better backgrounds. Four, and this one is my biggest goal I think: I want to develop Fane's story more. Like I want his story to be my main project. I know I have plenty other OCs but Fane is my most popular one, and my personal favorite. He's become a part of me, and as corny as this sounds, he will always hold a special place inside my heart. I don't even know how to explain it, it just... yeah :XD:

But I see these amazing artists with these awesome projects... like :iconthe-ez:'s Valiard Mansion, :iconoomizuao:'s Spike, :iconmimmimeart:'s Life in the Shadows... And I think how awesome it would be if I could do something like that? I have my doubts honestly. I have little confidence in myself, always have. But it's a thing that's been lurking in the back of my mind for a long time now. I would love to do more original stuff, mainly dealing with Fane. The only problem with Fane is that his story eventually intertwines with the GMD fandom, so apart from fanfiction and fanart that would lead into copyright issues. 

So my idea is to turn his origin story into a comic/graphic novel type of thing. 

I probably know what most of you are thinking... "But what about all those other comics you started and never finished?" Yeah, I remember those. Honestly, they failed. And I'm terrified that if I tried this with Fane's story, that it would fail too. But I'm almost to the point where I figure what would it hurt to give it a try? 

I know it won't replace my income. Definitely not. But I make so little at my job now, it would be nice to make a little extra on the side.

What I'm thinking of doing is maybe make it a Patreon-only type of thing. But I'm afraid that won't stick either. Why would anyone pay to see anything of mine anyway? See that's the anxiety thing kicking in telling me I can't do it and there's no way it will work. So I usually end up backing out of things. But this... for some reason I can't get the thought out of my head to make Fane's origin story my main project.

So who knows what will happen? Maybe I'll go for it, maybe not. What I might do to start out with is doodle some ideas for pages, some concepts, some scenes, etc. I don't know. And I will work on learning how to draw humans and backgrounds too. I don't know. Just a thought I guess. 

Anyway, for anyone who read this through to the end, thank you. Sorry for rambling, but it does help sometimes to get it off my chest. As always thanks for the support, I don't know what I'd do without you guys :heart: 


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