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I had to put Stripey down today. I woke up at eleven to miserable weather and a phone call for my friend and I to have a nice day out and I found a note downstairs saying Stripey had a nosebleed.
I found him in my sister's room.
He had a nosebleed that had lasted at least four hours. I called my mother and she said she'd left at seven thirty or so. I called the vet immediately after that only to be told I had to wait until 1:45. We were still late to the appointment because we had to get my baby into the carrier.
I've never felt so low. I took him in and listened as the vet explained that the mass in his liver wasn't limited to just his liver, but had gotten into his bone marrow, killing the platelets or whatever you call them that aid in clotting. His blood wasn't clotting and he was so miserable before I got him into the carrier.
He peed in his carrier on accident. He was apologetic about it and all I could do was cry and hold him. I didn't make my vet's job any easier by bawling my broken heart out. I held him while they gave him the shot and as he left. The last things my baby heard was "I love you baby" blurted about fifty million times between sobs.  I held him until the vet came to take him.
I can't believe I woke up this morning thinking everything was okay again for a little while.
The rugs gone. I'm not putting it back on the floor just to get pulled out again.
My heart hurts.  It's gonna hurt for a while I think. I'm so tempted to just give up, I hurt so bad.
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K-Red Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2008
I'm lost for words. I'm so sorry to hear that...
I would say I know how you feel, but I know from experience that it isn't true. Every cat is unique, and he will be missed.
Time does not heal, it just lets us forget. We never forget, and as such are merely human...
I hope the best for you.
DrAw6BD Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2008
I'm sorry June. *Hugs* I don't know what to say, but I'm so sorry.
SirPointy Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2008
I'm so sorry Junie, it's horrable when we lose such loved family members. I hope you feel better though and take comfort in that he's not in any form of pain anymore :/ *hugs*
Joshernaut Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2008

My heart pours out to you Junie, I know how hard it is to lose an close animal companion. Please accept my condolences, my sympathy and my love. If there is anything I can do, please don't hesitate to ask. If, like the previous post implies, it would help to have me share my personal stories, I would gladly share.
bellanoche8709 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2008
I'm so sorry, June. I can't imagine holding my cat like that and having to say goodbye. I think it's really brave of you to do that, for real. You did everything you could for him and he had a good 13 years. You can always talk to me if you need to.

When my cat passed away, reading quotes and stories about other people's cats made me feel better.
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