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Talking Myself Through Separation Anxiety

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Published: April 17, 2018
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"My worst fear is being alone,
Terribly frightened when there's no one else home.
This is the time when my demons come out,
Inside my head they scream and they shout.
Overwhelming feelings, chaos and destruction.
I believe this is what they call an overproduction,
Of cortisol and hormones flooding my brain,
Absolutely panicking, feeling so insane.
As I'm shaking,
My whole world is quaking.
My heart races so fast.
Oh, please, let this pass.
I don't want to feel this way.
I want to get back to being okay.
So I write and I rhyme.
The same things over with different lines.
I feel bad, honestly,
To have these problems chronically.
Downward spiral, makes me feel worse.
This is my burden and my curse.
Separation anxiety is very real to me.
I wish it didn't affect me so greatly.
In my life, it causes so many problems,
How I wish I could just get to the bottom,
Of figuring out how to conquer it.
But I don't give up and I won't quit,
Trying to figure myself out,
And how to do it better the next bout.
Just one thing, before I go,
That when I'm honest and let my feelings show,
It always helps me to feel better.
Each and every word and letter.
My heart has slowed back down,
I just may have come back around.
Back to happy Alisa again,
Where the sun shines, and the rainbow never ends."
-Alisa Danielle
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i`m very anxious especially these days have had anxious depression, and fight with it when i write poetry and become easy sometimes 
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I'm sorry that you struggle in this way, I know it isn't easy.
Poetry has helped me through a lot of my hard times too :heart:
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take care dear, we go through it together Hug 
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You take care too, we certainly do :huggle:
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I'm listening to your songs on YT. I saw the links in
a comment below. I love it :love:
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AliDee33Hobbyist General Artist
Oh boy! Thank you!!
I was super nervous to post them, to be honest.
But I am so glad they are liked and enjoyed!! :love: :heart:
That really means a lot to me!! I hope to put more of my poems to tunes!!
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:aww:
You're welcome, dear :huggle:
That will be awesome if you can put more of your
lovely poems into song :la: :love:
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AliDee33Hobbyist General Artist
Total inspiration to keep trying!
Thank you !!! :love: :la: :dance:
:huggle:
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:dance:
My pleasure, Sweetie :glomp:
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the pace follows the anxiety really beautifully!
really well said! :nod:
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Thank you so kindly for taking the time to read my words 
and let me know your thoughts!
I appreciate the compliments, thank you! :)
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you're so very welcome :)
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That was so deep! I think you'd make a good songwriter. Do you sing, Alisa? :)
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AliDee33Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much, my dear! And I actually do play the ukulele and I do sing!
(I'm a smoker, so I'm more alto than soprano, and a little raspy ;))
I love putting my poetry to music- in fact, on my profile page in my activity log,
there are a couple of black-screened videos with just sound, and it's a couple of my songs. :)
If you're interested and can't find it, let me know and I'll send you the link to my you tube channel !
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Yeah, that'd be cool. :thumbsup: I'm a smoker too, but I cannot sing. LOL! 
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www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARinEX…

www.youtube.com/watch?v=KDmmP5…

There's 2 links to my videos, I am very novice! I only started playing ukulele in December! ;)
I hope you enjoy, and would love to hear your thoughts! :heart:
Thanks so much for being interested in my work and getting to know me! :rose:
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For a novice you're pretty good! I hope you make more songs. :) You're really good on the ukulele, no really. You are! The second song was pretty deep. I kind of relate. Need the remote control for my mind... :dizzy:
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AliDee33Hobbyist General Artist
Aw, thank you so much for taking the time, Summer! :)
And for such lovely feedback! :blush:
I hope I should be able to make some time in the future for it as well!
And relating to another is always a great feeling!
Thank you for sharing that with me,
And thank you again for supporting and showing encouragement in so many ways! :D
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You inspire me a lot. :thumbsup:
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Aw, thanks dear.. hearing you say that inspires me so much as well!! :thumbsup: :) :heart:
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I relate to this so much, fighting the demons I'm your own head can be tough and tiring. But you just keep on pushing and you get through.
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AliDee33Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for opening up and sharing that, it is encouraging to know others feel the same way.
I thank you also for your positivity and love that I can always work past it, thank you dearly!
I wish the same for you, that you keep pushing through too! :)
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my son gets this.. its a terrible thing .. sorry xxxHug Heart 
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AliDee33Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for letting me know you understand and that I am not alone :heart: :hug:
It can be a real struggle, it takes a lot of coping skills to work past, and it's hard for all involved!
This writing really helped me a lot to work through it to an extent.
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