A Letter of Lies12092018
"You are no good, you scare everyone away,
The pattern has become predictable, cliche,
Your intense emotions are too much for anyone to handle,
For I do not build up, but I dismantle,
Anything good I might have had,
I'm destined to be eternally sad.
You're crazy, insane, to the point of not realizing,
That during anxious fits I am compromising,
All that I have and all that I need,
And don't forget to mention that your needs exceed,
That which anyone is capable of doing,
So I'll just go ahead and keep spewing,
All this negativity, all around me,
All alone, no one can see.
This is the letter of lies I tell myself,
No one agrees with me- not anyone else.
I wish I could have your perspective,
I can't tell what's real with my skewed perception."
You Were Never Worth My Time Anyway12032018/12062018
"It took my Mom and I days to scrub you out of these walls,
I packed all your things in some bags down the hall,
For you are not welcome, not now or not ever.
But you go ahead and still think you were clever.
How selfish are you that you would steal the attention,
Of my grieving emotions, don't forget to mention..
That my brother that just passed months ago,
Was supposed to marry us- now I'm glad this isn't so.
You broke each and every promise you ever made,
I've never felt my heart more betrayed.
There's more going on than what you say,
Do not even try to downplay..
Your addiction- your problem with drugs,
I found all your straws and empty jugs.
You lied our entire relationship,
I was blind to it all, I hate to admit,
But now I see, clear as day..
You were never worth my time anyway."
My Love Just Up and Left Me12012018
"I can't, I don't want to write this poem..
I don't want to tell you of how I'm so lonesome.
You see, my love just up and left me, while I was fast asleep.
He must have had a plan, he didn't make a peep.
How could I have been so blind?
To the fact that you could just leave me behind?
I thought our love was something real,
But I suppose I am mistaken, and now I have to deal,
With the pain of all this, our broken engagement,
For our time has come and it has went.
And I guess this is just how life goes,
But I'm glad you chose,
To let your true feelings show.
Saves me from a future pain of divorce,
Don't ask to be welcome back, of course,
You are not welcome here, not now or ever.
You will regret your actions to sever,
What we had- you were not kind or fair.
You were downright mean, you do not care,
Or you would be here working things out,
That is what a relationship is about.
I'll be better off without you, trust me,
You'll never get another chance to break my heart for all of et
I Will Hold On11282018
"The morning sky is so pretty,
But it's hidden by the tall buildings of the city.
I look out my window every morning at 6 o'clock,
I can never sleep, I waited since 3 A.M. on the dot.
And as the sunlight passes over the curve of the earth,
Colors dance in the sky, like a spiritual re-birth.
I wake up, I am alive, I rise with the sun,
A new day is here, a fresh start has begun.
Each day I try to do my best at this race,
Set my own goals, keep my own pace.
This was a lot easier with you by my side,
God, I wish that you were still alive.
I promise that I will do my very best,
To be grateful for life and remember I am blessed,
To wake up this morning, even though you're gone.
I won't follow you, I can't, I will hold on,
To the precious life here on this earth,
Do my best to realize my self-worth,
Like I know you would want me to,
For you, it's the least I can do."