In Memoriam

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Hey everyone,

I'm normally not very open about my private life, keeping both sides, the art and life, separated fromt he public. But since I cherish this community for the immense support you've given me throughoutt the years, I feel the urge to keep you up to date with the things that have an impact on my life.

It's especially important to me to update you with this as to not leave you in the dark, wondering why things are moving so slowly.

On July 20th, I received the shocking phone call that my father had taken his own life. There were no immediate indications for his decision. He was a strong, healthy, successful man with joyful prospects and big plans in his life.

He was a great musician, well versed with the piano and acoustic guitar, and a wonderful singer. And he was a sports man, lifting heavy, running fast and cycling for miles, almost daily. The entire town knew and cherished his company.

Even the day before his decision, my siblings and he went out for a swim and ice cream, after removing right-wing-paroles from poles and buoys in the middle of a lake. Weeks before, he got himself a small dog whom he loved above everything, and his active lifestyle inspired a community of his own.

We both had many plans together. He would turn 65 on the 20th this month.

Last month, the 20th of August, my family and I held his funeral and celebrated the life he had and the life he shared with us; There's nothing but love.

In the past two months, I joined with my siblings and my father's wife in our home town, as well as spending as much time with family and friends as possible.

After all, what happened to us is probably something everyone of you can somewhat comprehend:

The year 2021 went by in such a hurry because every day has been the same. All of us were locked inside, and we got used to working ourselves to oblivion. And what happened to my father and my family, let me on a journey of searching for answers within myself and for everyone else. I know that this will take a very long time to process completely.

But speaking out about this is one step closer to healing. Seeing friends and family is another, and letting myself go with inspiration to try and understand mental health on a deeper level, then convert this understanding into art, will help not only to heal myself. I hope it will support others, too.

Times like these can be eye-openers. It was so for me. There is always so much more to learn, and so much more to give.

But it always takes time.

Of course, my work on Myre is never coming to a halt. If this is something you worry about;

The setback and my current life situation forced me to slow down my output and might eventually lead to a new personal deadline in the future. But my work continues, and Iโ€™m making more progress.

My Patreon currently hosts the first chapter of Myre Vol 2. It marks the end of the first chapter and the beginning of the continuation of Myre's story. Since Myre isn't intended to be a full online publication, I halted the posting of single pages there.

The full first chapter will be sent to my supporters via PDF very soon. The PDF is part of a reward, which supporters pledged on Indiegogo last year to help fund the making of Myre Vol 2. In the future, my Patreon rewards will include spoiler free snippets and high resolution artworks, including steps and WIPs... but more about it soon.

In memoriam to a wonderful person who also inspired me to become the person I am today.

Thank you for everything.

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lauraypablo's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss dear, really.

Send a big hug to you and your family.

comixqueen's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss

BeckyKidus's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss.

CidNeverwas's avatar

I'm sorry for your loss. The world is the lesser for his absence...

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Zmaj-dragon's avatar

My condolences. Thanks for sharing this with us. I wish you all the best. :)

Galidor-Dragon's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss, sending you all my love and support.

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TheKrakensMark's avatar

My deepest condolences over your loss. I can't imagine what it's like for you and your family.

Praying for you all through these dark times.

Unknown-Station's avatar

My condolences, I wish you and your family strength in this trying times.

My sincere condolences

Shinerai's avatar

My sincerest condolences to you and your family during this difficult time. These things can surprise us the most and break us out of the mundane that we didn't realize we were in. It sounds like you're making progress in processing it - I wish you all the best and thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us.

Cerulean452's avatar

I'm so sorry. If you ever need to talk, I'm a good listener. :hug:

DRamos97's avatar

My condolences. Truly sad to hear.

Joan-Grace's avatar

No rush for anything! Take as much time as you think you need. We'll always be here to support you. Praying for you and your family!! :heart:

silverdragon76's avatar

Many good thoughts and condolences. :hug:

stonealchemist's avatar

my sincerest condolences.

Sebbryver's avatar

Im so sorry for your loss of your father, my condolences to you, your family and the friends who loved him.

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PurpleTartan's avatar

My deepest condolences to you and your family. Such a tragedy to lose someone so special and talented. Take all the time you need, grieving cannot be rushed. Just know we will be thinking of you and awaiting your return :hug::heart:

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