As Christmas draws near and 2013 draws to a close, I've found myself thinking about my life. So far, the best way I can summarize it is that some parts of it suck, some parts are okay, and some parts are great.

My creative side is doing great- I have nothing to complain about there. I've got great friends,
The area of my life that is bothering me is my lack of a love life. I've tried in the past. It didn't work out so well- obviously. I meet a girl, I think she's interesting, and then something comes up that stops my attempt before it can even begin.
Like she's already taken, or thinks of me as a friend, or any number of other things.

Not helping is the fact that I don't socialize well. People, on average, irritate the ever living fuck out of me. They always have. I guess moving around a lot as a kid kinda fucks up your ability to socialize. Who knew?

I want to try to get a girl next year. A lot of people have given me advice on the subject, which I am thankful for. I just wonder if it is going to be worth the trouble, because the opposite gender has never really shown any interest in me whatsoever.

I don't know if it's my personality or what, but they've always preferred guys who are not me. My sneaking suspicion is that it's just me, and any attempts by me to overcome that are just going to be futile.

I really hope I'm wrong. I really do.

On a side note, when you're in a situation like mine and you work in a grocery store, it sucks hot, sweaty, donkey balls. Especially at Christmas time, where you have inoffensive holidy tripe blaring out over the PA about how great it is to be spending the holidays with their significant other on top of having guys who make you look good come through your line with a girl on thier arm.

Valentine's day is gonna fucking suck.
Sigh....