...so ...you must’ve heard by now, if not , Dav-Ink
had died from his lungs shutting down, and having lung cancer...he didnt tell anyone online about it...but i think I know why he didnt...kinda ..seems like something he would do.
it was very sudden...very..
he was 16 and he loved me very dearly, some say it was me who had kept him going..he didnt think he would of died. He really believed he was going to be okay, he believed he was going to work hard and move to come to me.. that was our dream ...
he was always working on, he made this far from knowing me and giving me new life. Last year CandyPout
had died ...i guess they are together now...that’s very sad to think about it. Both far to young to me taken away ...too soon..
this year had most downs but it had ups. Jas Dav-Ink
had helped me so much, and loved me ...coming to the point of him saying, i was the one person he had fell in love with then it being the other way around... he had taken lot of hearts with out really wanting them to start with....
but i very happy that i was that one person, he had fell in love with give him more life this passed year.
cant even start with what had happen this whole year, so much but i was happy with him...
...there are days ...i cant see myself moving on...days i want to start over ....bad thoughts...and to be with him ...i really love him so much Dav-Ink
and wish that i got to met you ...that we could of had our life’s together...our dream ...
but i know you would be sad if i tired to got to you.....guess shouldnt pull a “Romeo and Juliet “ ...damn that’s sad..
i need to be able to keep loving you Dav-Ink
i knew him best
i knew him
and i love you so very much jas, i would say that so much more “i love you”
it hurts so much how to able to run to you and you run to me. Like I’m hitting wall, trying and trying to get to you ... but now ...I’m alone ...i feel you around me...but i feel that you’ll always be around me...i know you would never of leave me ...that sound like something you too do....i guess in away your closest to me now then before ....// weak smile
litte bit of comfort in that
Now the dav-inks characters
We had talked about ..me and jas, if anything was to happen to us..we would’ve take in our characters and have ownership over them..
we had talked about this from him being in the hospital and nearly dying then...so just in safely we just talk about it ...hoping it never needed to come to be ...sadly it did.
this is his last gift to me...that’s very sad but it’s true ..
to sum it up
i know anything what jas had
no idea about Toby tho>>
I also want to say this, i have Dav-Ink deviantART account,
why this is from his friend in real life where able to get into his account and give me his passwords. Jas had lot what he was working on, and we had lot what we wanted to do as well....as his girlfriend...ill be trying to take those to do and take care of hoax and the others..
All I’m going to be doing on his account is setting his page as “ in loving memory of” that way when his membership runs out it just wont look ...bare .. and i will add on hoaxs bio this journal so people will know in general of who will ownership will go to...
might be woudering why I’m saying this all.
Well...i dont want to keep coming back onto DA then i need too.. I’m still hurting very much so... right now I’m just trying to get myself more relaxed and try to deal with him passing on ..i dont want to be making lot of journals about this
I love you Jasper...always