In my new apartment now. Friend won't move in until late August. So I'm mostly alone. Can't wait to start my minimum wage library job tomorrow, because I'll at least be around other humans who are hopefully somewhat sane and amicable.
Over the past few days, moving in has entailed: getting epically screwed over by U-Haul, my apartment welcoming me with a gas leak, having to spend more money than I planned to in order to replace lots of things that mysteriously could not be retrieved from where I left them in a friend's basement, feeling lonely each time I make dinner and am reminded of how my boyfriend and I would cook together, and being sexually harassed nearly every time I go out to run errands.
I have a big painting commission which I was so excited about, but I just feel anxious and angry all the time, and not in a channel-the-angry-energy kind of way.
Fuck everything, I'm gonna fry a banana.
It's one of those nights... I'm not really much of a comfort eater, in fact usually when I'm upset I don't feel like eating. But I want something to keep me up a little bit more, and I haven't had many sweet things recently. Just to at least get started on a thumbnail for this painting.
If you're in St. Louis, and you're not a creeper who makes me fear for my safety in public, let's hang out and dispel the lonelies. :<