All was quiet at the Ord Cestus Medical Station. By nature, it was supposed to be. The Clone Wars were being fought far away. There were no clashing lightsabers, no hail of blaster fire, nor the sound of metal falling as droids were being scrapped. It was a place of peace and healing so the medical staff like to keep it quiet. That wasn’t to say it didn’t see any action. Recently there had been survivors from the second battle of Geonosis administered, and they were almost infected by brain-stealing parasitic worms, but that was standard hospital procedure really.Inside it was night cycle. Troopers changed shifts, many clambered down to the mess halls, droids began their orderly rounds. Halls were dark and patients were sleeping in their beds. Well trying to sleep.For Barriss Offee had recently discovered on of the truths of the galaxy. It was impossible to get a good night’s sleep in a hospital. She and her fellow Padawan, Ahsoka Tano, had been at the Ord Cestus Med Station was around 2 nights now, being admitted after stopping the infection of said station and possibly this entire sector of the Galactic Republic. Admittedly, Barriss was actually infected herself and was saved only by Ahsoka’s quick thinking at the last minute. It was quite an ordeal, not one that she could have ever been prepared for. Having something steal your mind and puppet you was horrifying, but incidentally wasn’t the most loathsome thing to happen to her in the past 48 hours.Her status as being infected meant that she had been subjected to every deep tissue scan, bone scan, bio-analysis, Bacta bath, Bacta shower, tissue scrapping and lastly repeated sterilisation shower known to man. She was starting to get rather sick of it, and tomorrow they were going to start psychiatric analysis. Fun. Barriss just wanted a good night’s sleep. She was given the all clear, gowned in a hospital robe that was too constricting for her and was moved back to her room with Ahsoka. The bed sheet seemed too strongly of disinfectant, the monitors and screens beside her cast neon blue shadows on the walls, respirators and machines automating the amounts of Bacta stim she was receiving via IV drip made droning hisses, beeps and clips. Then, every time she felt herself being drawn into the welcoming embrace of sleep. Med-droids were hover in wake her up, ask questions then leave before she could ask any of her own.It was like clockwork really. Barriss wanted some colour to return to her face, to convince them that she didn’t need constant check ins so that she could sleep for a little while. She didn’t want to just fake being asleep. Fed up with her situation, she opened her eyes, her brown bangs falling slightly. She looked at the bed next to her. The Togruta inside looked sound asleep. Barriss looked up at the ceiling, payback for her restless onboard the cruiser was tempting, very tempting, but she decided against it “Want to talk?” Ahsoka asked innocently, a smirk slowly crawling across her face. She was looking straight at Barriss.“I can’t sleep. It seems you can’t either.” Barriss sighed, “What’s keeping you up?”“Something’s troubling me. I can't stop thinking about what Master Skywalker said.” Ahsoka said.Barriss pushed her head upright with her pillow. She was exhausted, her focus was wanning with each passing moment.“Very well. It's a Padawan’s duty to help their friend. Tell me all about it.”Ahsoka breathed in and closed her eyes before speaking.“I spoke with my Master after we were brought in here. It was mostly about whether or not I made the right choice dealing with the worms the way I did. But then he mentioned about letting go of attachments.”“You’re having trouble letting go of attachments?” Barriss asked. She was surprised, Ahsoka didn't seem the type.Ahsoka shook her head slightly, “Not exactly. I mean I hadn't thought about it until he mentioned it, but now I think I’ve formed an attachment.”Barriss doubled down on her effort to keep focused on the conversation, this piqued her interest. She listened as best could as Ahsoka continued.“Let's say that I’ve met someone around my age. That they’re the first close friend I’ve made in a long time and we get along well. Now let’s say that me and this friend were put in some life and death situations. I protected them and they protect me, we have each other’s backs.” Ahsoka said.“You sound like very close comrades. Nothing out of the ordinary in war time honestly.” Barriss interjected.She felt slightly groggy as more pain medication was administered. Ahsoka’s voice was starting to become distant.“Now let’s say that recently, very recently, it didn’t look like this friend was going to survive. That there was choice between saving the friend and saving countless lives from something horrible. In the end I couldn’t make that choice, I spared my friend, but everyone survived. The day’s saved.” Ahsoka continued.Barriss blinked slowly. The world around her was starting to feel slower. She was hearing Ahsoka, she understood what she was saying, but it felt like she was missing something.“My Master said I did the right thing for everyone, that it was the right thing to do as a Jedi. But what if it was just a selfish choice? What if it was just my emotions clouding me from making the right decision? What if i was putting this friend before the lives of everyone? I just didn't want them to die there.” Ahsoka slumped further down into her bed.“How do you know this friend?” Barriss asked, try to piece sentences and thoughts together.“They’re a Jedi. A learner like you. Ah. I mean. A learner like you and me. They’re a Padawan from the Temple.” Ahsoka replied, she seemed slightly nervous.“Ahsoka you are not a selfish person, maybe a little too reckless at times, but not selfish. What you are describing sound like a simple infatuation. Not entire unheard of in the Order. Have you acted on this?” Barriss said.“No. I know Jedi are forbidden to have attachments.” Ahsoka admitted.“It is also natural for you to form them while you are young. Padawan and Jedi go through them, happened all the time according to ancient literature. It is the mark of a true master when you know how to recognise them and let go.”“I like that oh-so-amazing-Barriss is acting like she’s mastered her emotions.”Barriss forced a laugh. It hurt to laugh.“Not at all. Master Luminara has prepared me for it for as long as I can remember, that I guess I wouldn’t know how it actually felt.”“What do you…What do you think about it?” Ahsoka shifted her gaze all around the room.“I think you should confront your friend at the Temple, talk to them about it. Take the headstrong approach. It’s one of your most admirable qualities. If they are a Jedi too, you must know what choice is the right one. If not, just let it pass, all things do with time. Acknowledge and move on. Master Luminara taught me that.”Ahsoka let out an irritated sigh at her answer and settled with just watching the ceiling.Barriss couldn’t tell what she had just said to upset her. It was best to let it pass. She breathed in deeply. Her throat was scratchy and sore. She guessed that was to be expected after having a parasitic worm nest there while squirming its way up through her nasal cavity to extend microscopic tendrils to reroute the synapses of her brain in order to steal her motor skills and higher cognitive functions…It was best she stopped thinking about that now or she’d never sleep again.“Ahsoka?”“Hmm?” Ahsoka looked at her again.“What happened to me onboard the ship?” Barriss asked.“One of the worms took control of your mind. You and I fought. Although it was no match for me even in your body, then coolant tanks ruptured. Worms died. You and I were safe, but now we're stuck in medical and rehab together.”“I meant what happened after the worms froze. I was in pain. I felt cold, like the life was rushing out of me. Then I felt warm.” Barriss tried to cling to scraps of memories from a few days ago.“Warm? Oh right. That was probably me” Ahsoka gave a quiet laugh. “You were asleep after the worm left and I didn’t want you to freeze to death, so I held you in my arms as you slept. Trust me, you were as snuggly as a Loth-kitten.”“Oh. I suppose that was the last decent sleep I got before being here.” Barriss smiled.The med machines continued to make noise. Beep Hiss Beep. Click.“Mind sleeping with me again if I need a good night’s rest?”Barriss froze solid. She didn’t know why she said that. Why did such a simple sentence sound so good in her head but come out so wrong?Both Ahsoka and herself turned away from each other within moments, pulling their bedsheets over their heads to avoid even the slightest exposure. Barriss turned the machines mounted to the med-room wall room in stone-faced silence. She could feel that Ahsoka was doing the same against the view port window. This conversation was over. Beep Hiss Beep click.The two Padawan laid in complete silence, the only noise was droning of the scanners and equipment around them. Barriss didn’t know why she even asked that. She chastised herself internally for her foolishness. They weren’t younglings anymore. They couldn’t just share a bed whenever they pleased. Ahsoka probably though she was an idiot or worse taunting her over her confession over her attachment. She began seriously contemplating suddenly opening her mouth and letting whatever noise came to her head flow out in a vain attempt to convince her fellow Padawan that she was hallucinating over an overdose of Bacta stim.“If it helps you sleep…I wouldn’t mind.” Ahsoka whispered loud enough for her friend to hear.As soon as she heard Ahsoka's words, her stomach felt like it had been hollowed out from the inside and a mysterious feeling was swelling within her gut. It made Barriss feel nervous but deep down there was a bit of excitement. She didn't know what to do with this feeling.Barriss merely buried herself further in an effort to create a protective cocoon of bedsheets and linen. Yes, bedsheets will keep everything out, bedsheets solve all, she thought.“Thanks for the advice Barriss. Who knows I might talk to my friend once we reach Coruscant. Anyway. Goodnight.” Ahsoka wriggled free of her bedsheets and rested her head on a merciful pillow.Beep Hiss Beep click.Barriss knew she wasn’t going to get any sleep, the med-droids were due to make their rounds soon. She hoped they wouldn’t notice her temperature. Colour had returned to her face as her cheeks burned. She knew she was never going to get sleep tonight, but she was going to fake it as long as possible.