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Ron Fortier + Wicked Awesome Tales

Journal Entry: Wed May 18, 2016, 8:08 AM


Hng so going to bed last night I was pretty strung up. I was stressed, wounded mentally and frustrated. I normally finish projects I start with other people, though sometimes I have issues finishing my own. OnO I have almost never abandoned a project I said I would help on. I never not finished my work. I might be slow sometimes, but if I say I will do it, I'll stay up until it is done. Well, I finally have a project I left incomplete. And never will. (Not Naor I promise)

Earlier events in the day had upset me, yet I went to my weekly meetings with people from Airship 27: Ron Fortier, Todd Jones and James U. If those names sound familiar, Ron is the author if the Green Hornet series, and all three work on Wicked Awesome Tales.

So I was dumb and was so upset I almost didn't go but I did. I have been known to not go when stressed and then I get messages if I'm ok. So I went trying to pretend I was ok. I failed and they asked and I just unloaded on them. In the middle of the Ft Collins Target, DVD section. Just boom, crying and meltdown. Good timing, good place, yes? Some people react poorly to people crying and venting on them. I was so embarrassed to be doing this in front of industry pros with big name titles they worked on. Ron Fortier... I was in front of him and doing this. xnx

I've been meeting with these guys since, uh November once a week every Tuesday and one Saturday every month. I met Ron at Ft Collins Comic Con in Colorado last October and he invited me to the Saturday meetings. Eventually I asked for the Tuesday meetings and they let me join them. They often look at my work and critique it and give me lots of great feedback and advice on comics. I really am lucky to have all three giving me amazing advice.

So after I unloaded, they all simply took turns giving me advice and offered hugs. I'm not a hug person, but those were amazing hugs. Ron even told me to just stay still and let it out, and I felt bad as my face was on his jacket. But it was some of the best moments and worst moments all in one.

I like to show off this strong side, we all do. But it's ok to let go sometimes. Months of stress from family, my 2x-rejected work visa, my lack of funds, lack of insurance, lack of sleep and eating right cause shit food is cheaper. In those moments they were all physically right there I felt so weak I couldn't hold it back anymore. Yet,despite that, they didn't turn their backs. They didn't tell me to toughen up, not in a rude way. They didn't look at me with contempt. They let me meltdown and talk it out. Then gave me hugs and advice.

It is easy to be upset with people who get dramatic. I wasn't trying to be. Forever I'd try to just ask advice. No waterworks. No whining. Just ask advice. This time yesterday was too much. Be patient with people and be kind. You never know who is on the other end. Even in person. You can see them and assume. Don't. Just be kind regardless, treat others as YOU wish to be treated.

So when I woke up this morning I saw Ron had tagged me in a post he made on my wall. (Yes we are friends on FB even):

Ron by Ahkward

(lol Naor tends to change to "Noir" due to Auto-correct but his heart is in the right place)



To have such words said about me from such a pro makes me so happy and came at the right time. Even after yesterday's drama. I feel in a way indebted with everything I'm learning.... for free kinda. His advice is worthwhile and I take it whole heartedly. Him and Todd and James. Both him and Todd are writers, and James is an editor, letterer and artist. So much advice from James about less common things you think about in comics. He gave me his phone number, Todd too! Such helpful awesome people.

Now on another side, I am pleased to announce that two weeks ago, Todd offered me a spot in the next Wicked Awesome Tales which feature stories from Ron and Todd illustrated by other artists. I'll be working on a script from Todd, but I can't say more than that. I'm excited to be offered this epic opportunity to have my name next to these three guys in one book. I'm lucky to know them and their kindness.

So think about the people who seem stressed. Why are they stressed? Do they need something?  Can you help or be there? Have they helped you?

Have you done something good today? I will! I have been tutoring a student close to Denver, CO for about a month or two now. We are going to the Zoo for some education in observation drawing and in animal anatomy. I'll likely be gone most of the day.

I'll update you guys when I get home. Hope your day goes well guys!

-Ahk

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BC-Rain Featured By Owner Edited May 18, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah... most people know me for being really happy or good at staying calm, and when I see people stressed out, I try stay with and help them let it out. It's unhealthy for someone to keep strong feelings internal... I also tend to get really depressed sometimes, but it's so random that I don't know when it'll come. I'll just have no choice but to sit in my room and stare at the wall because I just can't bring myself to do anything. I refuse to tell my parents because they'll laugh it off, and I avoid telling my friends because then I feel like a burden. But sometimes I do let it out, and while I feel bad because it feels like I'm bothering them, I can't help but get really happy when I see that they're still with me by the end of my rants. It's awesome having people to depend on. They really can make a huge difference in your life. 

Ahh, that's absolutely wonderful that you got that opportunity! I know that you'll make use of it to the best of your ability, because you always do with every situation you get into (as far as I can tell anyway. Don't get down from trying to live up to that image or something though, again, no one's perfect). Just like Ron said, you are amazingly talented, especially someone as young as you, and you will definitely become well known in the area in the future! Can't wait to see "NIOR" take off and become popular, and I hope you'll be able to keep your hopes up and keep pushing until that time arrives!
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Galvan1c-Miscr3ation Featured By Owner May 18, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
As a person with trust issues, I feel the "afraid to cry in front of people bc it bothers them" really hard.  I've had a lot of bad experiences because of letting my emotions show.  But sometimes people are really good about it, and then it's... I can't quite describe the feeling when people don't let you down.  

You continue to hold a great deal of my respect for your perseverance and strength, and it appears the same for others as well.  Keep doing what you do!!!
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Accenlia Featured By Owner May 18, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Aww Ahks! I'm so sorry to hear everything you're going through but at least there was a silver lining right? That's awesome that he promoted Naor for you and you get to work on Wicked Awesome Tales! Have fun at the zoo today and hope you feel better soon :heart:
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