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The Wind In Her Hair by afraid-to-fly The Wind In Her Hair :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 1 3
A Persuasive Letter
Captain Wentworth,
I no longer wish for you to look through my eyes. I know that I have little to no influence over you any more.
I want to be alone with you (if even for just a moment) but your fear is tangible - in every word that you utter is apprehension. You are afraid that, if you and I should meet alone, I could persuade you that she is not right for you, that you are settling for less than love.
I sense that you don't love her. You talk about her as if she were clinging onto your shirt-sleeve, a little girl constantly wanting attention. That was once what I was like, but you never talked of me that way, never patronised me. I was so young when we started, but you were young then too - we were smitten, a pair of cooing lovebirds, until one flew the nest.
I half fear and half hope that, if I chose to, I could convince you that I am your other half, the one you should hold onto for dear life.
Sometimes I hate you. Irrationally, of course, as I was the one to break your heart. But
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The Devil On My Shoulder
There is a girl inside my head.
Not the fantasy of teenage boys, nor the ghost of my mother.
This girl could be me. In appearance, we are identical, right down
To the scars that lace each wrist, symbols of a misspent youth.
Our behaviour is what separates us.
She is angst-ridden, forever scribbling,
Anxious and pushy. She pushes me onward,
In directions I would never dream of taking,
To places I may not want to go.
She is the devil on my shoulder, influencing me.
She inspires me to write from the heart,
But likes to twist the ideas, to reveal too much of myself.
She is not merely manifested in the mind.
When I drink, she takes over,
Intoxicated herself, with perpetual bed-hair, doe eyes,
And a cheeky smile for any attractive man looking her way.
By contrast, I am shy and adept at coy glances across the room,
Not brazen enough, just tongue-tied, content to watch.
We are two halves of a whole, both with our faults.
It is surprising I am the dominant side, the one in control,
While s
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When she was twenty, she cut off her hair
Saying "I was bored, feeling destructive!"
The pain she feels is more than she should bear,
While it controls her, she cannot truly live.
Her eyes are red, from the tears she has shed,
And yet her lips stay silent still. Her life is
An open book, but the words in her head
Make the pages seem empty, dull and gray.
The events of over two years ago
Have changed her forever but no one has
Realised she is no longer aglow,
But uncertain, not the girl she acts as.
One day, she will feel like herself again,
And refuse to be controlled by grief and pain.
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Gone For The Chop by afraid-to-fly Gone For The Chop :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 1 4 devMEET 011 - Horizon by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - Horizon :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 1 4 devMEET 011 - The Trail Mix by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - The Trail Mix :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 4 devMEET 011 - Lovebirds by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - Lovebirds :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 0 devMEET 011 - Lilianfels by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - Lilianfels :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 0 devMEET 011 - Executioner by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - Executioner :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 0 devMEET 011 - All Smiles by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - All Smiles :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 1 devMEET 011 - Her Close-Up by afraid-to-fly devMEET 011 - Her Close-Up :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 0 ID - scrunchy nose by afraid-to-fly ID - scrunchy nose :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 2 3
Saturday Chinese Class
Pretty little girl,
Dressed in red and black, sits,
Listens to Chinese
Her laoshi speaks of
Personality traits and
Teases about boys
She laughs and jokes back
"I like complicated boys!"
And of course, it's true
She daydreams about
Cupcakes, tea cups, high tea with
Her best friend, then blinks.
Her daydreams vanish,
Class has ended, laoshi winks
Knowing she wandered.
An embarassed smile,
She flees from the class, into
The cold winter air.
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Meerkat In The Sunshine by afraid-to-fly Meerkat In The Sunshine :iconafraid-to-fly:afraid-to-fly 0 10
Le jouet du temps
Time had halted her weary wanderings,
The moment Death took two people from life,
As she does for all, from paupers to kings.
Time's idea of mischief was causing strife.
Her new plaything, a grieving girl saddened
By the brief spark of life that had dimmed, died
With those two she held dear, love without end.
The girl knew she would lament them, she cried.
She knew loss, she knew pain, and so she shed
The bitterest tears, her heart was broken.
Alone, she would privately mourn the dead.
To others, her grief hidden, unspoken.
Time's plaything she remained, just a cheap thrill,
The world forgot the two, she never will.
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Yay! Lots and lots of pageviews for a page I hardly ever update!

That being said, I have a little piece to add up soonish - once it's been edited and fits my exacting standards. Now that I'm finished uni, I also might even have time to finish my portrait of Captain Wentworth...
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"That would be a good thing for them to cut on my tombstone: Wherever she went, including here, it was against her better judgment." - Dorothy Parker

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Dragon-Enthusiast Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010  Hobbyist
:D Thanks for the llama!
Dragon-Enthusiast Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2010  Hobbyist
:D Hey, there! Saw your random comment on a random page, so.... random llama for joo! :D
Lienola Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you so much for the fav! :+fav: beeteedubz; LOVE your little icon/deviant... thing ;P
afraid-to-fly Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2010
Thanks! :D
Lienola Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem :)
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thanks for the fav on my 500 days of summer wallpaper!
joshlama Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2010
Thanks for adding me.
It was great meeting you!
afraid-to-fly Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2010
No probs, great meeting you too. Always nice to see a new face!
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thanks for the favs!!
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thanks for faving my 500 days wallpaper :)
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