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How Does A Moment Last Forever by adileibu2014 How Does A Moment Last Forever :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 3 0 NEW Kuroshitsuji OC Refrence - June Midford by adileibu2014 NEW Kuroshitsuji OC Refrence - June Midford :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 7 0 ima fluffy unicorn :D by adileibu2014 ima fluffy unicorn :D :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 1 4 Princess of the Night by adileibu2014 Princess of the Night :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 0 5 So tell me how deep is your love by adileibu2014 So tell me how deep is your love :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 1 2 My shy little Robin by adileibu2014 My shy little Robin :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 13 2 Old times... by adileibu2014 Old times... :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 3 4 Be carefull with who you messing with by adileibu2014 Be carefull with who you messing with :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 2 2 Miracsona in progress by adileibu2014 Miracsona in progress :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 5 2 Friday by adileibu2014 Friday :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 2 5 Selfportrait by adileibu2014 Selfportrait :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 1 8 Fairy Princess by adileibu2014 Fairy Princess :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 2 41 Me being AVATAR by adileibu2014 Me being AVATAR :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 3 5 You Give Me Purpose by adileibu2014 You Give Me Purpose :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 7 6 Black n' White Kiss by adileibu2014 Black n' White Kiss :iconadileibu2014:adileibu2014 2 0
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*Thooth-Fairy*
The truth is out- Snow is the chosen one. It's clearly to all. But how Snow conects to Mother Nature? why North told me to go to the queen and tell her about Snow? what kind of secret Katherine hides?
I had to figure it out. Not only because North told me, but also because I needed some answeres from the queen. I know her all my immortality- she would never hide a secret from me.....right?
I used one of North's snow-balls to get faster to Mother Nature's land. When I threw the ball, a portal started to open up. I flew fast right in the portal and in few seconds I was in Mother Nature's land. It's the most beautiful land you would ever see. Everything there is blossoming and looks so alive there...from my ponit of view I could see the nature people- some of them were with thier children playing, others were walking by the river and others were taking care of thier gardens. After flying around the land, I finally saw Mother Nature's palace- a palace so impressive and majes
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      I'M HOLDING ON

                                                                   PhotoGrid 1507897812434-1 by adileibu2014

        WHY IS EVERYTHING SO HEAVY?!


This is the cost of heart break, depression, life, self-struggle...name it how you want
this is me mostly on the inside, but yesterday I just could help myself…
It's been so long since I actually cried and yesterday the cracks were getting bigger until they couldn't hold themselves any longer.
Most of the time I have to put a mask so no one will worry about me and it makes me tired.
I wish I could just take it off and like "screw it! Yes I am sad, almost all the time! I know I have my friends who will always be by my side and will never ever judge me but it doesn't fucking matter!"
This is kind of a feeling in my chest that makes me think that I'll always be alone and unfree (literary heavy).
It's a thing that all of you out there should know about depression- it never EVER will be seen on the outside. It's something from the inside that eats you till the core of your soul.
It's not me sayin goodbye…I'm here to stay, no worry. It's just me taking out a little of the shit that is filling my heart every god damn time.
I've been through hell since I was 11 or 12, on the way I had my happy moments but the sad and the lonely thoughts were companioning me until this very moment. If there is something that I will forever hate is that I grew up too early and was always misunderstood
I wish there will be someone out there for me that will truly understand me and will help me to fix the cracks in my heart and soul.


    "You say that I'm paranoid

    But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me

    It's not like I make the choice

    To let my mind stay so fucking messy"


          I'm so tired of being called idiot, crazy, autistic (which I'm not), mentally ill and I can go on and on…
    Like WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO EVEN SAY THAT TO ME?!
    HOW DARE YOU TO CALL ME THAT WAY AND THEN ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED?!
    Why would you isolate me from the others just cause I'm not talkin' about the same things as you and the others??
    Why can't you take me seriously for god damn second?!
    Am I not good enough? Do you really have the proofs that I am an idiot or autistic? Probably not.
AM I FOREVER DOOMED TO BE THE TRUE BLACK SHEEP??
WILL I FOREVER BE UNWORTHY FOR ALL OF YOU??!
    It's just so god damn easy to say it, just as it easy to call someone "son of a bitch" or "motherfucker"
    Here. I just did it.
    I know it might look childish from me or maybe naïve but One day I'll be able to open up my angel wings, fix them and set free into the life that I WANT.
    One day it will happen…
I hope
.

                   


  • Listening to: Fame On Fire - Heavy (Linkin Park Cover)
  • Listening to: "Everdream" by Epic Soul Factory
  • Drinking: earl gray tea :D
(stolen from minqie uwu . well technically saw that on EggoYolk and thought why not to do it also lol, with a little change of course)

Dear person I hate:

BIG FUCK YOU, YOU ASSHOLE!
you managed to push me into dark corners but also built me up and in a horrible way i should thank you (not that i realy want to) cause im stronger now.

Dear person I like:
i need to find that person cause right now the people i like are my best friends and they are like sisters to me lol

Dear ex boyfriend(s),
does kindergarten counts? cause if yes-you have my doll and i'd like you to give it back you idiot :D (Big Grin) 

Dear ex girlfriend(s),
still straight 

Dear ex best friend;
well....when i was kid, the norm in my school (and im talking about fifth and sixth grade) was that if you are a popular kid you cant be with the unpopular or you'll suffer, and in a way i still dont understand how- i became unpopular. you chose to be fake best friend to me although we've known each other since kindergarten. i'm not mad at you, only dissapointed. thought you were different but i guess you are the one who goes with the flow.
hope you have great life and i hope you manage to achive all your goals in life and maybe, just maybe, you've changed and became better

Dear best friend(s),

to the one i know for almost 10 years- HOLY SHIT!!!!! we know each other for almost 10 freakin' years!!!!
never thought i'll have a friend for so many years!!! when i met you back in the seventh grade i thought that it's only a matter of time and one day you'll leave me like all those kids i met before you. but not you honey....you stood by my side since day one. thank you for suffering me in every way possible and thank you for being another sister for me.
to the one i've met in the army- literally my soul mate! the second half of me. still remember how we met- i was so energetic and right away we became friends, people thought we've known each other from before but we haven't. so crazy how two years have passed since that day. my love to you is unconditionally and you are the only one that truly understand me with no judging at all! thank you for being my BFF and thank for the fate that made us to get to know each other. 

Dear Mom;
i know we don't get along at all, and we both have different ways to see the world but i can't ignore the fact that you are MY MOM, and always will be. i'll always treasure the moments we had when i was a little girl and the love you showed me before i grew up and had my own opinions on the world, was also before i saw your true nature. wish you could change and become a better mom with an open mind but i guess it will never happen. people tell that when i'll leave the house or when i'll get married our relationship will get better so i hope it will. i've tried so many times to fix it with you but it can't be one side...just cant...

Dear Dad;
thank you for being my best friend and the one i can truly trust in everything.
thank you for being my rock
thank you for loving me no matter what
i love you so much that i have no words that can describe my love to you.
thank you for being MY DAD. Heart  

Dear person I'm jealous of;

FUCK YOU :D (Big Grin) 

Dear future me;
i hope you'll be free from your prison the present time put you in and you'll be happy with your true love and not only with your true love but also happy with yourself. just be happy, but a true happiness cause you've been faking it for too long and you don't deserve that. 

Dear past me;
im sorry. im so so so sorry that you've suffered that way. you were too naive for that cruel world. too small. whenever i dream about that horrible moment, i see you from afar and everytime i can't help you. i want to, but my body won't let me. i wish to hug you and to tell you that its ok. its ok to be sad. its ok to tell mom and dad cause they'll help you, they said that they'll put you in different school but it will be too late cause you'll hear it when you'll be 16. im sorry. im sorry you had to hurt yourself cause you were scared and sad and felt alone but it will be ok cause you'll find amazing new friends that will love you the way you are and they will never hurt you or will judge you. they truly love you just the way you are, that i can promise you. 

Added this myself vvvvvvv

Dear friend(s);
thank you for suffering my craziness and my goofing moments. and also, thank you for accepting me the way i am and loving me for me. couldn't ask for better friendsHeart 
                                                                 

      I'M HOLDING ON

                                                                   PhotoGrid 1507897812434-1 by adileibu2014

        WHY IS EVERYTHING SO HEAVY?!


This is the cost of heart break, depression, life, self-struggle...name it how you want
this is me mostly on the inside, but yesterday I just could help myself…
It's been so long since I actually cried and yesterday the cracks were getting bigger until they couldn't hold themselves any longer.
Most of the time I have to put a mask so no one will worry about me and it makes me tired.
I wish I could just take it off and like "screw it! Yes I am sad, almost all the time! I know I have my friends who will always be by my side and will never ever judge me but it doesn't fucking matter!"
This is kind of a feeling in my chest that makes me think that I'll always be alone and unfree (literary heavy).
It's a thing that all of you out there should know about depression- it never EVER will be seen on the outside. It's something from the inside that eats you till the core of your soul.
It's not me sayin goodbye…I'm here to stay, no worry. It's just me taking out a little of the shit that is filling my heart every god damn time.
I've been through hell since I was 11 or 12, on the way I had my happy moments but the sad and the lonely thoughts were companioning me until this very moment. If there is something that I will forever hate is that I grew up too early and was always misunderstood
I wish there will be someone out there for me that will truly understand me and will help me to fix the cracks in my heart and soul.


    "You say that I'm paranoid

    But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me

    It's not like I make the choice

    To let my mind stay so fucking messy"


          I'm so tired of being called idiot, crazy, autistic (which I'm not), mentally ill and I can go on and on…
    Like WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO EVEN SAY THAT TO ME?!
    HOW DARE YOU TO CALL ME THAT WAY AND THEN ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED?!
    Why would you isolate me from the others just cause I'm not talkin' about the same things as you and the others??
    Why can't you take me seriously for god damn second?!
    Am I not good enough? Do you really have the proofs that I am an idiot or autistic? Probably not.
AM I FOREVER DOOMED TO BE THE TRUE BLACK SHEEP??
WILL I FOREVER BE UNWORTHY FOR ALL OF YOU??!
    It's just so god damn easy to say it, just as it easy to call someone "son of a bitch" or "motherfucker"
    Here. I just did it.
    I know it might look childish from me or maybe naïve but One day I'll be able to open up my angel wings, fix them and set free into the life that I WANT.
    One day it will happen…
I hope
.

                   


  • Listening to: Fame On Fire - Heavy (Linkin Park Cover)

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American English language level EXPERT by TheFlagandAnthemGuy
Romanian language level NATIVE by TheFlagandAnthemGuy
++ Hebrew Language: Native by O-Reeeo

animes \ shows \ cartoons that i like:
Yu-Gi-Oh English Stamp by DAS-Stamp Legend of Korra Water Stamp by StarlaNorthstar Miraculous ladybug stamp by Snarrly-ii Ouran Highschool Host Club Stamp by DogFreak108 Inuyasha Stamp by Howie62 SpongeBob Stamp by badtrane Dragon Ball Opening, Stamp by HarukotheHedgehog Ranma Animated Stamp 015 by hanakt TMNT 1987 Opening 1 Stamp by 6t76t Catdog stamp by Kaisuke1 Rocko Stamp by Netaro You are Stupid... Stamp by aliceapproved Bravo. by LunaxLlama Once Upon a Time Stamp by TwilightProwler The Big Bang Theory stamp gif by Angelvila Grey's Anatomy 2 by Roojii :thumb518783490:

singers \ bands:
Ariana Grande stamp by spitz Judas by XLove-Christina-AX Red (Band) Stamp by Metalhead-777 Breaking Benjamin Stamp by EbonyKitE Queen Classic Rock Stamp 3 by dA--bogeyman Justin Bieber Stamp by Argentievetri I Love Bowie by Giggle-Monster Sia by UsagiGami : Beautiful Beyonce : by Queen-Vegeta69 The Hills by loupdenuit

movies:
Stamp: Civil War - The Teams by TMNT-Raph-fan Captain America stamp by ChaosNDisaster Iron Man Stamp by mrTwisby The Avengers Stamp by QueenJulien Deadpool Stamp: Turned On by TMNT-Raph-fan Stamp: Disney's Hercules by Tee-J Disney Aladdin + Jasmine Stamp by TwilightProwler Disney Mulan + Sword Stamp by TwilightProwler Disney Alice + Unbirthday Cake Stamp by TwilightProwler Studio Ghibli Stamp 21 by Flusjaa SSotC: Racing the Eagle Stamp by randomkiwibirds Dreamworks Jack + Head Tilt Stamp by TwilightProwler Hunchback of Notre Dame Disney by Maleficent84 GotG Stamp: Rocket and Groot 2 by TMNT-Raph-fan Dreamworks Older Hiccup Stamp by TwilightProwler Disney Jim + Fall Stamp by TwilightProwler Tulio and Miguel - handshake by Strange-little-cat Studio Ghibli Stamp 26 by Flusjaa Howl's Castle Stamp 48 by Flusjaa Disney Pocahontas + Hair Stamp by TwilightProwler Disney Kida Stamp by TwilightProwler Disney Kuzco Groove Stamp by TwilightProwler Elsa and Anna hug ~ Stamp by disneynumber1fan Disney Lion King Stamp by TwilightProwler Disney Elvis Stitch Stamp by TwilightProwler Labyrinth Stamp : David Bowie by dA--bogeyman Nightmare Before Christmas Dis by Maleficent84 Anastasia Movie Title Stamp by Nyxity Disney Stamp by Hikolol35 Disney Stamp by Citron--Vert Disney Stamp - TLM 012 by hanakt
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Sephiroth508 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2018
Happy late Birthday! Hope it was a good one! :D
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adileibu2014 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2018
aww thank you!! ^_^
wasn't the best but it's ok...
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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2018
You're welcome! :D At least it wasn't bad right?
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adileibu2014 Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2018
yeah ;)
im cool dont worry :D (Big Grin) 
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chocoanillaberry Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2018
Happy late b-day! Thank you for the watch! <3
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adileibu2014 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2018
haha thank you and with pleasure!! love your artstyle <3
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chocoanillaberry Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2018
Thank you so much QuQ!! :hug:
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Jasperinity Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2018
Happy birthday! :D
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adileibu2014 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2018
aww thank you! <3
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