First of all - Thank you for all birthday wishes I didn't reply to. Sorry about that. I love you, peeps. Late Merry Christmas or whatever holidays you attend. I went through the weird time of my life... And now first journal in 2013. Feels wierd for me. Considering that I'm writing this thing at the end of this year and beginning of 2014 and thinking "Why the hell are you doing it when you're not active on dA anymore?". Interesting how it all goes. And how dA journal writing changed since that time. I may draw something. I may. Maybe one day I will. Blame it on Triyune (https://www.deviantart.com/triyune) Raven logging out.

 I'm kind of alive. Kind of. Not internet-alive like. So I'm dead. I had to quit few sites, do more things in reality. I don't even have time to scratch my butt. Not to mention doing laundry over all the pile of books I'm currently sitting in. This year is very important. I can be really screwed and now I'm trying not to be. This is especially to Kessira26 (https://www.deviantart.com/kessira26) waiting for her thing for forever. I know about it, I blame myself because of it. I'm trying to make it work, but I have to learn like shit. Know I feel really bad about it, especially when I know I get pissed when someone gets late at anything. Literally anything. It will be done

even more things happened than I thought I would do..? Art trades still in finishing process. What do I have to do: :bulletwhite: ladyStyx (https://www.deviantart.com/ladystyx) is helping me out with her art trade. - getting a slight depression over it, redoing again x99+ I feel like failing more. :bulletblue: Having to brainstorm ideas for Kessira (https://www.deviantart.com/kessira)'s drawing for points. - evolved into a sketch. :bulletblue: Also colouring a soft sketch for YumeNouveau (https://www.deviantart.com/yumenouveau)'s contest. - one thing done better than I thought. :bulletwhite: Holding up art trade with Zefiru (https://www.deviantart.com/zefiru). :bulletwhite: Trying to kick my ass to re-do a piece for my hubby. Failing. :pointr: Due to need of do th