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If I could do this...
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Celto-American Crest
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Innocent Wonder
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Mother and Son
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Exultation
Happiness.  Life.  Joy. Flying off of my lips into the wind, Screaming from the top of my lungs, Deep from my core. Today was a good day. Loud music filling me up Sunlight suffusing my body The thudding of arrows into targets Hooves pounding the earth Feeling the world move beneath my feet Knowing I am a part of it. I feel so alive. I missed this. Friends near at hand The future stretching before me Seeing light in my dark corners. I’m learning to let go. I needed this. Tomorrow may darken again, I could feel the cold emptiness that I’ve lived in for so long. But for today, For just this moment, I blaze with light. I am hot and
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Crack, Burn, Crumble, Collapse
A kiss in a film Watching it Feeling it Living it Flays my soul alive. I feel my essence cry out And rend itself asunder Ripping open at my core Your name is all I feel I hate you I loved you You broke all that I am. How could you? Why did you? All I can do is scream. I feel myself break Get torn to shreds Then it begins. My eyes fill The dam breaks Tears begin to fall. I can barely see through All the pain in my eyes My body wracked with sobs. I’m flying away as fast as I can I need something new. All that I was Lies broken and bleeding Sliced apart By the force of your lies. I loved you. You lied to me. Now I have to stand up w
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Look Forward
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Presence
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Being
She missed me That’s what she says. Though I was only gone for a week. But her missing me means more than I can say. It makes me feel wanted.  Needed. It makes me feel like I matter, That I belong somewhere. She wants to be near me And stays as close as she can when I’m around, Asking for attention and love, For comfort. Asking for everything I need to give, And giving it all back a hundredfold. She is beautiful. Her strength, Her grace. The way she runs towards me, With the wind flowing in her hair… It’s entrancing. Her warmth, The gentle, implacable solidity of it Fills me with peace. Even when being close means hav
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Living
I am angry. I am sad. I am empty. I am alone. Sitting in this cold apartment. Keeping my word to you. Staying away. Staying silent. I hate it. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to hold you. But I can’t. This sounds like it’s all about me But it’s always been about you. And all of the words in all of the languages at my disposal Fall short when it comes to life with you. Or what it’s like living without you.
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If I could do this...
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Celto-American Crest
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Innocent Wonder
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Mother and Son
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Exultation
Happiness.  Life.  Joy. Flying off of my lips into the wind, Screaming from the top of my lungs, Deep from my core. Today was a good day. Loud music filling me up Sunlight suffusing my body The thudding of arrows into targets Hooves pounding the earth Feeling the world move beneath my feet Knowing I am a part of it. I feel so alive. I missed this. Friends near at hand The future stretching before me Seeing light in my dark corners. I’m learning to let go. I needed this. Tomorrow may darken again, I could feel the cold emptiness that I’ve lived in for so long. But for today, For just this moment, I blaze with light. I am hot and
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Crack, Burn, Crumble, Collapse
A kiss in a film Watching it Feeling it Living it Flays my soul alive. I feel my essence cry out And rend itself asunder Ripping open at my core Your name is all I feel I hate you I loved you You broke all that I am. How could you? Why did you? All I can do is scream. I feel myself break Get torn to shreds Then it begins. My eyes fill The dam breaks Tears begin to fall. I can barely see through All the pain in my eyes My body wracked with sobs. I’m flying away as fast as I can I need something new. All that I was Lies broken and bleeding Sliced apart By the force of your lies. I loved you. You lied to me. Now I have to stand up w
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Presence
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Being
She missed me That’s what she says. Though I was only gone for a week. But her missing me means more than I can say. It makes me feel wanted.  Needed. It makes me feel like I matter, That I belong somewhere. She wants to be near me And stays as close as she can when I’m around, Asking for attention and love, For comfort. Asking for everything I need to give, And giving it all back a hundredfold. She is beautiful. Her strength, Her grace. The way she runs towards me, With the wind flowing in her hair… It’s entrancing. Her warmth, The gentle, implacable solidity of it Fills me with peace. Even when being close means hav
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Waking Up
Waking up without you Not feeling your hair on my face It tears me apart. I dream of being around you, Of laughing and of peace Of the happiness we shared. It feels so real. I suppose it should... It was real once. But when I open my eyes and reach for you, Expecting the soft warmth and peace of your presence, Wanting to pull you closer, All I find are cold blankets, The shards of a shattered love, The emptiness of dead hope and dying dreams, And I know then that I am truly lost.
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If
If you miss me Talk to me. If you want me around Say so. If you love me, Don’t hide the truth from me. I have never hidden from you. All I wanted was openness. Transparency. Forget the math. And the preconceptions. If you wanted someone else, I wanted you to tell me. And now, all of this anguish… Caused by an assumption and a misunderstanding. I was not erasing you. I was not cancelling you out. And now, all you have done is destroyed me. Set fire to all we had. Instead of talking to me. Instead of asking me for what you needed. If you had… This could have all been different. If… But there is no point in wishing thi
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Padded gorget with chainmail
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Lunchtime at Hogwarts 1975
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i fear no evil
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Venetian Ghost
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Of Science and Magic
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Got you
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Sep 20
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Hopes and Horses
Reconnection is hard.  Particularly when it's with someone who has been through (and the cause of) more highs and lows in your life than any other single has.  But all we can do is hope we are doing the right thing.  Take a chance on a hope or a dream.  Hold on to it and don't let go till it's clear there is nothing left to hope for.  Do the thing you need to do, even if you aren't sure it's the right thing.  Reach out to those you can't go a day without thinking about.  A friend of mine told me that, if things really were getting as bad as I was feeling them to be, that I needed to act on my wants and desires.  Her reasoning was simple: how
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Realizations on my Relationships
Over these past few days something has been made abundantly clear to me, and it has become equally clear as to how it has impacted my life and my relationships.  The realization is simple: I am not the easy guy.  I am not the simple guy.  I am not the shallow guy or the uncomplicated guy.  I am not the guy who will let you believe your own bullshit or hide from certain truths, despite how painful or scary they are.  I am not the guy you can use and then cast aside.  I am not the guy that will sit idly by while you endanger yourself.  Things will not always be simple or carefree or thoughtless with me. But I AM the good guy.  I am one of the
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Musings on Life
The last few months have been interesting to say the least.  I've been heartbroken, studied ethical theory, and written a will.  As such, I've been thinking a lot about my mortality, what makes a person who they are, and what is important in life.  I've come to a few simple, yet in my mind profound, conclusions: who we are is dictated by what we do, not by what we say we will do, and if we want to change who we are the first step is to change how we act in the world; life is too short to hold on to people who don't want to hold on to you; and that open and honest communication is paramount in fulfilling relationships. The first realization (
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Sammylovesyoulots's avatar

Thank you so much for the favorite <3

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Of course! It's beautiful, and reminiscent of my experiences at the moment.
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Aigue-Marine|Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks a lot for the watch! :D I'm happy you like my work!!
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Thanks a lot for watching!
I hope you like my cosplay photos :)
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Epic-Leather|Professional Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the watch! It's a pleasure to meet you. ^_^
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Thanks for watching us, glad you like our works :ahoy:
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Skane-Smeden|Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you so very much for the watch! :)
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