"It's my job" The times when you just have to say it, cruelly and unemotionally my friends.
You think it's get sometimes doing what you do, being around death like it's welcoming in a strange way. Its what you do, it's your life style.
Today I had to respond to a message some one came and have us a message. My boss immediately jumps on the phone and tells us...."go over and find out if it's true!"
As told, I rush to grab my keys and drive out, it wasn't hard to find as I pulled nemi behind a cop car and walked to a scene of a dead family member. I get in contact with the head of the police department and medical crew and inform Them that I was only there for information for the immediate family. (she was my aunt)
Dealing with death, it's all apart of what I do. Though the first time I've ever been called to investigate for PROOF of death for a person before.
As I told the cops, I was only there for information to relay to the Admin. The words I use so easily. "I'm just doing my job, and that's it."
I'm a Tribal Resource Trainee, not a death investigator. But I dealt it as my job, cruelly and unemotionally. I was only there to do my job then I left just as I told them. it wasn't some joke she was dead. Everybody around you crying and I'm just there because it was "my job."
I returned and admitted "it wasn't a if it will happen, it's a when." honestly if it was drug overdose, heart attack, alcohol poisoning or all of the above she could of been killed by her man. I wasn't there for the details.
The sad part out of this whole story besides me being a complete and total careless asshole........is I had to prove it wasn't a joke. How fucked up is this world when I have to prove someone died.
Whelp it's all apart of my Job I guess.