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Memorial for the Fallen by AdarkerNEMISIS Memorial for the Fallen by AdarkerNEMISIS
Again, I am getting attached to the blue, I didn't think I would, but as stated before the color reminds me of my father. I decided to place the flowers that were from my fathers memorial with the wolf, honor the old and the fallen. There is no grave for my father and never will be, he will just ashes in the wind. I doubt I will be able to participate in that due to the damage I have.

I wish my fathers memorial went better than planned, I wish I mourned but I'm just so filled with darkness. in the end I get yelled at and given that disappointed look. yeah I'm disappointed too, I hated living in the shadows but honestly I'm just home, where I belong. I was once so happy then this shit happens and for the past 5 months I have been living in the shadows in my own damn pain. while everybody gets appraised by their accomplishments I get made fun of. as my step dad told once told me before he disappeared, you really don't matter after all you only got shot once.

I like it here in the darkness though, because stars are only visible in darkness, more chances of seeing my father again.

Well hell, anyways, I got this blue wolf because it was one of the only true blue wolves I have seen. I have seen a few but most I just see as black wolves with a lot of grey. I wanted to make a headdress out of it after I fix it up abit and sell it. I may still do that, however I'm kind of getting attached.
This wolf may have died by human hands, but the hands were kinder than what his brothers had in for him. He himself is a very old wolf, and the scaring on his back indicates he survived a losing battle, he has abit of discoloring on his throat what seems to be where he was once bit and stained and a healled over gash in his back were he kept pulling the fur. he could of substained back problems by the fact he kept licking and pulling at the healed over wound. the chances are for him, he would of died by infection to his back or died by the next winter by slowly staving to death if he wasn't killed by another wolf.
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MonolithHyena Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014
Sorry for your loss. Beautiful pelt.
FancyFoxTaxidermy Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Student Artisan Crafter
I am sorry that you have been treated like you have.   You are an amazing taxidermist.  Its not your fault that you only got shot once. Why does it matter how many times you got shot?.    Don't take what your step dad said to heart ... thats mean and family shouldn't treat you like that.    You are still here, walking the earth or more so driving.  Live life and enjoy.  Darkness isn't all that bad.  It's the darkness we are afraid of ... but its not realy that bad. Its only as bad you make it. 

After years of growing up in the darkness, I've started to ignore it .. its not easy.  Its wasnt easy for me to slowly watch my family fall apart.  Its still falling.  An endless battle between my parents. My mum ruining my life.  Tearing me apart inside and out.   And soon i wll never see her again ... soon i wont see my dad again. And it breaks me in half.   Enough of my story and back to yours. My point being that we fall and we get up again.   
WhiteCrow-Art Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
There will be times when the dark closes in and tries to smother you but remember that you are not alone in that dark. There are others there, searching, reaching out and beyond it there are those with torches and light trying to find you. Fight it, love. I know it's hard I've been there, but when you grab onto a hand reaching in for you, cling to it. The wolf is strength, it is endurance, it is will and power. Use that my friend. 
TyrantLyzardQueen Featured By Owner Edited Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
He is stunning and so beautiful, if you feel strongly about him I say you keep him. This is a lovely photo. You are strong and I absolutely believe that 100%. He watches down over you no matter what and loves you, take comfort in that.

InNaturesImage Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
This wolf is beautiful. The wolf and the roses remind me of a photo of Magpie of Wold Central. (… ) I bet he has a beautiful soul.

I hope you are alright and light shines down on you again. He will always love you and keep a watchful eye on you, you know that better than anyone. Stay strong and always take care of yourself. :hug: :heart:
Zombie-Kumos Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp: you already know how i feel about the situation. Ive been worried about you on and off but I know youre strong. 

I want to finish something for you >w< Ill try and at least show you a wip soon...
ShadiSin Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014
I think you should keep him, if I were you I'd feel upset once parting if he reminds you of someone so special to you..

He truly is lovely, and I adore the coloration. I cannot wait to see how he turns out.

And, if you ever need me-- even if I am boring and suck at comforting.. I am here if you need me, you know. I haven't been social as of the past year or so either, so.. >.<
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July 14, 2014
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Canon PowerShot ELPH 130 IS
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1/125 second
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5 mm
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Jul 13, 2014, 8:13:26 PM
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