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Feelings of Joy, they move like waves, What does it mean anyway? Despite what you may think or may say... I don't care when I'm in this state The world is unfocused, my vision blurs, What do I mean anyway? These pointless ramblings must have some meaning... In this state it matters not I just don't know, I just don't care, Why don't I know, Why should I care? So yeah the pointlessness continues, The feeling of dread mingles with warmth, What began as sane is now insane, Once again, I don't care when I'm in this state.

A year has passed since that day, When you finally admitted defeat, Your pain no more and your suffering negated, You rested – in peace. I don't blame you or God or Satan, I don't blame phone masts or radiation, It's just one of those things that happens like that, But it doesn't mean I'll ever stop wanting you back. Little artefacts that remind me of you, Seem to be strategically placed in my view, To always remind me of the love you gave, To always remind me of you. So…how do I carry on with my life, when life won't let me be?

As I gaze into the gloom of this wet autumn night, I ponder my future and generally think about life, The sad memories that once gnawed at my heart, Seem shadows of their formerly unbearable selves when looked at in hindsight. The light falling from the sky grows gradually weaker, I move to the glow of my lamp – it's warm but fake, And the memories retreat into the shadows cast around my room, Forgotten, but not for long as tomorrow is another wet autumn day.