So, now that I have had some time to think, I can finally sum up what just went down for me.
It started already when I woke up. Usually, I'm just tired and stuff, but today, I had a pretty unusual thought. I was realizing that one of my OCs, Kiara, was giving me more joy than most of my OCs. I didn't think too much about it, but as I mulled over it, it started dawning on me that there's likely more to this than I first thought. The joy isn't just happiness. It's something more. Something that affects me to my core. Not even Cyber does that... That's when I finally started thinking about it. Why this would be, and feelings just started snowballing.
There's a few things that should have been early signs:
- Close OCs of mine tend to turn out to be women, or Trans
- When I play games with character customization, I tend to play a female character
- I find games with a female protagonist to be more engaging
- I often daydream that I end up dying, and wake up as either Josh or