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Dread
I'm forcibly distressing my own mental health, by allowing myself to be rather apprehensive and freely sucked in. It is my realization that I am pressuring my own dread, and everlasting torment influencing my headway to serenity drastically. I've become so corrupted that when I am provided with a blessing I can do nothing less than be muddled.
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Depression
Withheld by my thoughts suppressing me from my capability of remaining at peace. I can feel a great energy detaching me from my state of mind. suffering in the agony I call my point of view. I can no longer understand how it feels to be generally lively.
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When will I stop relying on Drugs to piece back together this monstrosity I call a life. continuously hitting the bong expecting to find an answers I've been so anxious for when in reality I'm only just minorly numbing my loatheing for the conditions of where I have lead my self to be so distraught.
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numb
My body feels fake.
My head won't stop hurting.
I feel as if I were dead,
but I could only wish I was.
I just want to be okay.
I just want it all to go away.
Searching for relief in a drug that minorly smoothes my dread only to find more problems I'm causing myself. Stucked in its addictive trance of false claims of satisfaction, and nirvana. I have no command over my own composure. I only wish I had the self control to overcome my urge for yet another line of what I want to believe makes me "feel better". I sicken my self
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Helpless
As I lay in bed drifting off to sleep, I can't prevail the impulse to think.. was it all worth it? Am I really happy solitary? Constantly reaching out for aid and comfort, but i keep getting haled down deeper and deeper until I'm completely submerge in dark thoughts and feelings I couldn't even bare to enter upon explaining. My screams for help are left unacknowledged as I slowly feel my body decaying from the inside out, then abruptly I am induced with a agonizingly numb pain that I only wish I never asked for. As if it wasn't agony enough, I'm  left with my thoughts slowly immolating what's left of my remnants of fondness
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Anxiety
I find it difficult to interact with people because I'm overwhelmed by a invariably anxious feeling whether what I'm saying is moronic or if I should even be speaking regardless. This causes me to refrain from talking or doing things as simple as eating and/or drinking in front of crowds of people without thinking i'm being judged or judging my self. I'm constantly nervous and doubtful which also affects not only social relation, but it causes me to be distraught and have excessive depression over things in my everyday life. Even when things aren't as grim as it proclaims to be. I always feel as if I'm continually falling short to standards that don't even exist except in my own opinion. ultimately the depression and anxiousness generates insomnia. Thus I don't sleep for hours, yet when I at long last rest I find my self sleeping for several hours I persist the compulsion to awake the next day.
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Anxiety
Uhh
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I don't seeking for fucking  attention and I sure as hell don't want your insensitive pity
All I want is to get some fucking help.

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VentralHound Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for watching me^_^
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Nessie905 Featured By Owner May 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav of 'Social Anxiety' :)
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6Beelzebub6 Featured By Owner May 19, 2015
No problem its my pleasure!
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madstalfos Featured By Owner May 15, 2015
Thanks for the watch!
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6Beelzebub6 Featured By Owner May 15, 2015
It's my pleasure!
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Disse86 Featured By Owner May 11, 2015
Thanks for watching! :)
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6Beelzebub6 Featured By Owner May 11, 2015
No thank you, your art is astonishing! It's my pleasure.
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