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A Breakdown
Life saw right through me
I said I was strong
And I meant it
It found my weak spot
An unfair advantage
I was ruined.
Maybe just for tonight,
Or this hour.
Maybe for months
Here's hoping I can emerge
From the rubble again.
Cradled in dust.
My eyes are blurry,
Head is pounding; nose blocked.
It's alright to feel hopeless,
Let us just hope that I'm not.
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Mind Games
A full cup of tea
An empty page
Surrounded by noise
Swollen by silence
My minds echoes
Thoughts of fear
Of failure
Intimidated by greatness
Thirsty for power
A conundrum so clear
It is vague
And a solution so simple
It is impossible
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An epiphany
Is it normal to go about one's day
Not noticing the time
Not worrying about the future
Is this what freedom feels like?
Freedom from anxiety
From the demons that whisper
The shadows that taint my sight
The depths of one's own mind
Is this what contentment feels like?
Walking, not questioning where I go
Listening, not being afraid to learn
Exploring, not being afraid to grow
If this is what normality feels like,
I'm almost glad I wasn't normal
Because now, I can appreciate
I can be grateful for the life I have
Content with being content
Happy about being happy
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I can taste your flesh,
I let it linger on my tongue.
Not a true representation of your being,
 But a tangible one.
Your aroma has me lucid,
Pulls at every fibre of my lungs.
It will never capture your true essence,
 Only a glean of what's to come.
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What Do I Want?
What is it, exactly, that I want from life?
The weirdest part about that question, different from all the other times it has been asked, is the fact that I may be on the precipice of being able to answer.
It’s almost trivial how my life has played out so far. So many self-induced dilemmas I have faced that made me question a question that I’ve never yet answered.
Life is vastly complex in its simplicity.
Existing is never enough. We always want more; more meaning to wake up in the mornings. More reasons to want to.
Because somehow, along the path of life paved for centuries, just getting up became not good enough.
We’ve been blessed with life; with the ability to do whatever we can imagine. Such a gift, yet we’ve spent that time questioning it, and our right to.
We are undoubtedly a doubtful species.
What is our alternative though?
To accept the fact that as vivid and fulfilling life may be. It is, alas, as bleak as we had suspected?
That we live materialistic l
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Wounded Minds
Creativity readily comes from a dark place. The best inspiration is a wounded mind.
It takes a special kind of soul to make joyful artwork. I believe that to be the epitome of high roads.
Alas, I am a coward, and I will wallow in my dark.
I’ll drain this pit of inspiration until there’s nothing left of it and I’m fresh out of creative juice.
Because my head space isn’t capable of joy yet; I am well and truly stuck with a wounded mind.
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Nier-Beta Kiriban by 1618Tori Nier-Beta Kiriban :icon1618tori:1618Tori 0 0
Mature content
I'm Sorry :icon1618tori:1618Tori 1 0
... Ramblings
I'll rub it all off me,
Let it run down the drain,
A conceded horror,
With no one to blame.
You can run, you can scream,
Thrash and cry,
But it will surpass you,
Swallow you dry.
A little too late,
To place bets on success,
The past has passed,
And the test is the rest
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Cupcake Cupcake Mmmm.. by 1618Tori Cupcake Cupcake Mmmm.. :icon1618tori:1618Tori 5 0 One Day by 1618Tori One Day :icon1618tori:1618Tori 4 0
Procrastination: The death of me
Neither joy nor pain bring me satisfaction,
I drown in a pool of procrastination,
Every task an illustrious feat,
Unable to move; to breathe,
Stuck in a time when life was easy,
Whereas mere thoughts now make me queasy.
And so I sit,
Rhyming words,
When reality calls,
With chains and spurs.
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Alive, But Not Living
I run my hand,
Over the ink you etched,
In an attempt to understand,
To help, to catch
A glimpse of my mind,
So scattered and frail,
Yet no one can know,
What it is like
To be me, alive
But not living.
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Screen Shot This! by 1618Tori Screen Shot This! :icon1618tori:1618Tori 1 0 Yea, Just Ignore This... by 1618Tori Yea, Just Ignore This... :icon1618tori:1618Tori 1 3 Portal To Another World by 1618Tori Portal To Another World :icon1618tori:1618Tori 0 0


My mind
within the darkest reaches of my mind,
a place Where the whispers of forgotten voices wander.
Within the darkest reaches of my mind,
a place where I go, for life to ponder.
My mind is a place where I can always find me.
A place where love is plenty,
and purple is the color of the sea.
I Close my eyes to engage the wonder.
A place of fear and sanguine thunder,
misery carousel, musical hunger.
Echoes of insecurity.
Shadows of impurity.
Hung by the noose.
Nations of plunder.
Hung by the noose,
a mind from the darkest of places.
hung by the noose,
a mind from down under.
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My Fated Sentence
Nothingness awaits
As we descend into the depths
A barren wasteland
Of darkness and decay
A place where my rotting flesh
Seeks eternal rest
And yet the slumber I've yearned for
Is but a wishful thinking
For suffering
Is my fated sentence
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Types of Intimacy
He told me he sleeps in a t-shirt –
and only a t-shirt. The image
won’t leave my head; this body,
so familiar to me, yet barricaded
by layers of fabric – I have never seen
the joints of his elbows, the slope
of his spine, the terrain of his
stomach – but I have felt their presence
through wool and cotton, known
their warmth in brief moments
of contact. And there’s a strange
intrigue to modesty, knowing his
psychology but not his physique.
I have found strength in his words
and wisdom in his hands; I have plunged
these depths past fondness and into
familiarity and found, here, in the dark
of his ocean, that I can see better
than ever before.
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All That Glitters by cyndavalle All That Glitters :iconcyndavalle:cyndavalle 552 56
I am gay.
I'm not a disease, I'm not a problem
I'm not an affliction
I don't need treatment.
I don't need help
I'm not sick
I'm not confused
I'm not a sin.
I am gay.
I'm your daughter
Your sister
Your friend
Your co worker
Your classmate
Your acquaintance
A complete stranger
I am gay.
I need love, just like you
I need smiles
I need support
I need a hug
I need a friend
I need a family
I need acceptance
I need understanding
I need you
I am gay.
I know what love is
I know what pain is
I know what hate is
I know what life is
I am gay.
And I need you to love me
The same way you loved me before you knew
I am gay.
And I have experienced hate
From more people than just you
I am gay.
And I wont change.
I wont give up.
I wont back down.
I wont pretend.
I wont lie.
I wont deny.
I wont hide.
I wont hurt.
I am gay.
And that's okay.
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Reader | Writer by sobbing-jester Reader | Writer :iconsobbing-jester:sobbing-jester 101 26
Four months is so little
Next to what we've got ahead
For your love truly amazes
Even from such a distance
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Spring Responsibilities
Winter left me with    
spring responsibilities    
and summer duties
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The Monster I Am
Again I feel the anger
Growing from an ember
And again it tries to consume me
I do the best I can to resist
I do as much as I can to convince myself it's stupid
But Jonathan won't listen to reason
He only cares about hate
So I give in a little to him
And let him out to vent a little
Because I know if I tried to keep my anger caged
It'll only turn out worse in the end
And I'd become the monster I tried my best to hide from everyone
A monster of unreasoning hatred
A monster of unfeeling malice
And a monster of unrelenting death
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Mature content
I Quake For You :iconsilverwynd:SilverWynd 4 2
Aphrodite by jurithedreamer Aphrodite :iconjurithedreamer:jurithedreamer 446 16
Necro Phanatics
People always miss the dead
They regret taking them for granted
People only love the dead
That’s what I said.
Puts everything in perspective
There’s no room to be objective
People love you when you’re dead
It seems so very unexpected.
People only care for the dead,
That's what I said.
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No longer phased by passing days
I let my worries melt away
Like the ice left in my glass
Stress cannot forever last
Crashing down around my head
From pedestals to floor instead
All the things I placed so high
Worth nothing in the grand design
Spirits and wine
Bliss I find at my expense
I wont defend against critique
Not many write while drunk
Some can't even speak
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Old Fashion
I want to be relevant within the realm of art
Sadly, I can see that I'm standing worlds apart
Heart and soul fully in it
No matter what the case, there's no chance of ever quitting
Spinning in circles
My bearings can't be found
Torn in all directions
Tell me
What should I do now?
My talent feels so wasted
Poetry is sweet, but seldom is it tasted
It's out and of old fashion
Few are we that sew the seeds of flowered words with passion
Crafting lines with care
Emotion is my paint
Creating portraits of despair
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