Hello everyone, long time no updates, huh.
Well, for those of your that aren't following my tumblr
or checking the status posts I've been dropping here and there, I have some good and not-so-good news concerning happenings in my life.
First things first, I'm quitting my job.
This isn't some slap dash impulsive decision, though it may seem abrupt to those not in the know, but after five years, I've finally come to the conclusion that working retail, even with coworkers who are kind and understanding and really make the whole experience worthwhile, is much too stressful for me to continue. I have a lot of problems dealing with people on a day to day basis, and having to keep up the happy retail face has become especially draining in the last 6-8 months, which folks can probably tell due to the sudden and lengthy absence of artwork being uploaded by me ANYWHERE. I've always found working retail to be incredibly difficult and energy consuming, to the point where the strain of it all has exacerbated my insomnia and anxiety to unhealthy levels. There's simply been no energy left to draw or create, and that more than anything else has been incredibly depressing for me, and served as the final straw in my decision to depart from my retail position.
I officially submitted my letter of resignation on April 30th, and since then, knowing that there is an end in sight?
I find myself unburdened in a way that I haven't felt in a very long time, energized and motivated to where I find myself suddenly filling pages of my sketchbook with doodles where I was previous maybe jotting down a grocery list to erase later. I believe I'll upload some of them just to show that I am indeed drawing, no matter how messy they may all be.
With this positive, however, I'm struck with the unfortunate reality that I'm not going to be having a source of steady income for at least a month, and while I still have my delivery side job to fill in gaps, I need to look for something else to really help with paying rent and bills. I'm considering refreshing my commission page
and opening myself up to more general freelance work, as well as possibly looking into position at a local print shop or bakery, something creative and challenging that I feel would be far more fulfilling.
That being said, I do feel I have to ask: If I did put myself out there as available to commission, would folks be interested at all in my works? Without my retail position draining me of all motivation, I'm eager to put my renewed energy to use in more creative and expressive means, and commissions have always been challenging and enjoyable for me, even if they do tend to take a while for me to complete.
In any case, please feel free to leave comments and questions, and I hope to see you all more in the future.
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