Explore miscommunication

I've clawed and roared, frustration from points beyond desperation See my efforts, come back to me ------------------------------------- --------------------------- ------------------- "Heard" ---------- Through all troubles past and those forthcoming, My strength So warmly your shelter ---------------------------------------------- -------------------------------- --------------- "Heard" ---------- Do I have no value? Littered Was the only thing left to do for growth To discard? ---------------------- --------------- ------------------------------------ "Heard" ---------- Warmth I feel is blood of my own Can you hold this blade And call it Love? -------------------------- ------------------------------ --------------------------- "Heard" ---------- You can't claim empathy My pain is not your own For a smile cannot pierce You have no claim --------------------------- ---------------------------- -------------------------------- "Heard" ---------- Healing through

Adore: Tho regard with the utmost esteem, love, and respect; honor. We mis- and over-use words constantly, so this pain is entirely my fault. I've been aching for positive attention, for anything which might soften my self-hatred and doubt, if only momentarily. When you said that you adored me, it was as if I'd been jolted into life. You adored me? I mattered? And to you, of all people? My heart was singing. Then, I screwed up by replying that I adored you, too. I said it without caution, flying high on the joy of our shared emotion. Oh, Steven. When I realized how liberally you use "adore," I felt an inch tall; humiliated and ashamed. For you, it's equal to saying "like." I've never regretted my honesty more. I apologize for the silly, foolish, awkward , overly hopeful burden of all that I am. Please forgive me if I've made you uncomfortable. Thank you for being my friend. I still adore you, even if you simply like me.

I've clawed and roared, frustration from points beyond desperation See my efforts, come back to me "I see you with tears in your eyes And you're reaching out Begging for help I'm sorry." Through all troubles past and those forthcoming, My strength So warmly your shelter "You've held me through so many storms And brushed my tears away Loving me so I'm sorry." Do I have no value? Littered Was the only thing left to do for growth To discard? "Can't I give an inch And respond For the miles you've ran for me I'm sorry." Warmth I feel is blood of my own Can you hold this blade And call it Love? "The knife in your heart And the pain in your chest Grows deeper each day I'm sorry." You can't claim empathy My pain is not your own For a smile cannot pierce You have no claim "This poison is killing us And we're both suffering For the history that binds us I'm sorry." Healing through bloodletting This life snuffed All in or all out You have been long gone But blind eyes