How can these eyes
grasp the gifted light that bounces
around the world? Nothing
I can see. I need a second
glance, or even a third and must look
with arms, and feet,
and gut, and chest,
and knees.
A look so worthy it knocks me down.
I’m reassembled.
I do.
There once was an old man who lived alone. He wrote and wrote and wrote all day until his hand would get stiff. Then, he would use his other hand until that one was stiff, too. At this point, he would give up and go to bed. This old man's one passion in life was writing. He used to love writing stories until one time he received a gift for his birthday. That gift was a book of poetry. He read and read and read until he reached the end of the book at which point his devotion to its content turned into emptiness. He decided that he wanted to write a poem. Not just any poem. He wanted to write the poem that would give his life meaning, make it reason to celebrate after his death. He would not stop until he made this perfect little poem. The old man slaved away, day and night. He would rarely leave his home and lived a poorly encased life, cut off from the rest of the world. This lifestyle would eventually lead to a serious illness. The doctors were sure he would soon meet his end if he
I look out today, I know what comes next
Another day, nothing else to expect
I see their faces, smile like everything's fine
Returning places, nothing out of line
I slept through the way, and I wake up feeling tired
I get so fucking bored, always repeating day
I get so fucking worn, no one else to blame
A time I can't afford, just add color to the gray
Choices leave me torn, when everythings stays the same
Do i want chaos? Do i want it all?
Get rid of the things i dont need?
Do i want order? Do i keep it all?
Or just let go just to feel freed?
Everybodys a lier, but feel no need to burden me
Everybodys tired, but never woken up from their
It’s mine,
the way I talk to myself,
the way I speak about pain.
I sit around the fire
only to find the smoke stinging my eyes.
Am I brave?
Never. Never.
Never, because sharp laughs are
incapable
Of piercing my withering heart.
And it’s mine:
my fault
I know who I am:
someone miserable and self-suffering
who is reduced to weeping in secret
before she sleeps,
hoping her roommates won’t notice.
Someone too afraid to speak up
for herself.
Speak at all.
Except to herself
in that voided room, where she whispers,
“You are not enough.”
It’s mine,
that struggling gaze,
the way I look upon my hands.
The fire s