Dreams have popped
Love is unknown
Depression now sits on its thrown
The game is lost
But at what cost
Anger building up
And relief in one cut
Puddles on the floor
But hatred grows all the more
Nothing to hide
But your shame inside
So I will say goodbye
close in when your breath
hitches, when all those
repressed emotions start to trigger
something bigger, a flicker in
your chest that
could hardly be a flame. the colors
right because they're
all tinted red; you're not sure
if your eyes are
playing tricks or if
someone finally dropped the match.
you want to scream, maybe -
cry, mostly -
and damn if you
don't end up doing both
after the clock falls
on it's head - time started running
backwards only after
how to stand.
you're taking after humpty
dumpty, you know, and i
can see the valleys
growing within your skin. you
keep on gluing
yourself back together, but you'll end
up a mess on the pavement
soon enough -
(it runs in your blood, but your blood's not running anymore)
You were remembered
You were loved
You always had someone to turn to
When the going go rough
They were always there for you
Until one day
You can't take it anymore.
Anger seeps into your everyday life,
Affecting those around you.
Alienating your friends.
And so finally you call it quits
And break it off
with the one who was always there
because they just couldn't
And now it's as though
fallen off the face of the planet,
forgotten by the person
that you thought was closest to you,
as though you had never existed.
That kind of heart-wrenching,
that you can't even show,
you brought this on yourself.
You think about talking to them,
think about taking back
what you said.
Dealing with their annoyance,
if only just to have somebody
who's always there again.
But then you remind yourself
of all the things that you endured
for that person,
but still, you were treated like dirt.
When you handed me your love,
I tried so hard to hold it carefully in my hand.
I tried my best to keep it pretty,
So that it would sparkle in the glow of moonlight,
And diamonds would dance on its surface in the sparkle of sunlight.
I tried so hard you know.
But it's difficult to balance all my insecurities,
All my thoughts that I couldn't ever tell you,
All my problems that I never actually told you about,
All the secrets I kept form you,
Everything that I had to keep balanced in one hand,
Whilst in the other I kept your heart.
It was inevitable that I would drop it eventually.
That person at the back of my mind was the last nudge,
Before everything fell apart.
He told me what I wanted to hear,
And he was the voice inside my head that convinced me,
That it was all over.
Your heart slipped between my fingers,
Glinting one last time as it flew,
Cascading to the floor, and shattered.
Looking down at the pieces I knew I had no option,