Bring me tragedy,
A reason to be who I'm supposed to be,
That sorrow that I can't flee,
Something I must face inevitably,
That which lies deep inside of me,
So bring me tragedy,
Bring pain in all forms to me,
Change what's in the mirror that I see,
Bring out that which can be,
To change my reality,
So I beg bring me tragedy
Lost in the wind—
don’t we all fall at some point?—
a kite soars high, reliable to its flyer.
But follow the string down
to earth, and
at the end you will find a girl—
hardly young anymore—
tattered and broken.
Rather than holding it, she has the string
tied and knotted
tight
around her wrist. She looks
frail,
beaten and bruised with
eyes closed. She is alive,
but at first glance seems no more
than a stray corpse.
Her hair is tangled, and her cheeks
tear-stained. The white
dress she wears puddles around her—
torn and old—
in hopelessness.
A strong veil of wind tumbles over her
and the kite flutters
Ever present the shadow whispers.
Inside the mind is causes blisters.
Softly falls the light of day.
But It is not out here to play.
Profane the things It says at night.
Yet worse so still It says in light.
Constant seething maddening words.
Engulfed the brain like blackened herbs.
It has a name that I dare not speak.
But know That It keeps my life so bleak.
It stops the heart then makes It go.
As I toss about in unevened flow.
Stab the heart with all the pain.
Don't worry now It'll be back again.
A hidden place inside It dwells.
That Betrays the one It knows so well.
I try and cast this thing away.
But I cannot keep It back; at bay.
I Always Speak In Code by DagmarMakara, literature
Literature
I Always Speak In Code
I always speak in code, the westward trains are sometimes cold- sometimes grey and often shimmer the waves of heat do flicker and glimmer And at the end of the tracks the lingo of cinnamon, smoke and metal the screeching and sparks can make you unsettled- sometimes scorching and sometimes dead the spread can make you lose your thread And the dead, and the dead, how envied, some of the time. I always speak in code, since I am rubbermouthed, desserted and alone- a story spun for the convenience of tale and depression, my friend, you are my vale, alone, alone. And the dead, and the dead, how yearned for you are, most of the time, most of the time. I always speak in code- gagged and quiet that's how they make you alone. That's how you envy the dead.
I am just a little girl
In a complicated world.
Tortured by her own mind
And feeling pain all the time.
Every day is so unwanted.
Another battle to survive.
I don’t want to go through this
But I don’t seem to have a choice.
I feel so many things at once
Things I just can’t understand.
It’s hard to keep a lid on things
When I get so overwhelmed.
My mind is always spinning
I’m tormented by my fears.
They’re so intense that I can’t tell
If they’re real or in my head.
I’m vulnerable and I’m sensitive
To everything that comes my way.
Little things expose old wounds
Re opened, fresh an
Did wonder ever fill my eyes?
Did they ever shine back then?
When my heart was on my sleeve?
Before it was ripped to shreds?
I cried until my eyes felt raw,
You sat there, miles away.
I couldn't think it was my fault,
What else was I meant to say?
Can fear and excitement ever mix?
I felt both of them when I cried.
But my tears drove you to walk away,
At least one of us slept that night.
You fought all my battles for me,
But only to wage your own war.
As long as you had me to yourself,
Our happiness is all people saw.
You kept tabs on every part of my life
But it wasn't just facts you sought.
You detected my every weakness
And hated the v
Madman
Bonus Poem for Day 006 – 20150106
Madman they call me,
though peaceful I may be.
There is a story behind this,
one of depression’s life choices
Choose one please,
my depression pleads.
Madness or death,
this is your choice.
Constant companion,
faithful enslaver,
you treat me well
with these offered flavors.
I think them uneven,
with death being life ceasing,
while madness nurtures
continued life dementia.
I think I'll choose
madness, waking insanity,
as the lesser of evils,
my sincere oppressor.
Madness will fuel my thoughts,
invoke my appetites,
and color my world
with vibrant lunacy.
Insane I may be,
and alive I still
Emotions destroy, and emotions create.
It's up to you which path you'll take.
Not a lot of things are certain today.
There would be times when emotions break.
What's in between is where you are,
If what's straight ahead is beyond your par.
Unless you dip your toe in the pool,
You'll never know if it's warm or cool
You'll need to feel, one way or another.
It would be your choice if you smile or smother.
You take a deep breath and submerge your hand.
Dont dive in unless you want to drown bad.
You wait for your skin to adapt to the change.
Don't pull it out! The wind will faze!
You keep going, there's no turning back now
You keep going, wi
As the light fades
Darkness fills the void
A voice appears
Telling you everything is wrong
You can’t trust the voice
But you can’t quiet the voice
The voice speaks such horrible things
They are not your friends
They want to hurt you
You must get away before everyone hurts you
How do you stop the voice
How do you quiet the noise
Please tell me