she doesn't want me
I've already decided
through my reflection in her eyes
I see disgust
I've already lost
nothing got done
I've already decided
this checklist is filled but one
He'll be disappointed
I've already lost
I won't win this race
I've already decided
the way the finish line
draws as far as I see fit
I'm already lost
I've already lost
I'm already lost
I've already tossed
all the chances I accost
what's the point of the pain
if I can't hate myself all over again
I can reach the threshold so high
but if I'm not quite there i'll sigh
and hold myself in contempt
deceive myself with a self-defeating
lament for
she doesn't want me
I've already decided
the look in her eyes
nothing but disgust
I've already lost
nothing got done
I've already decided
the look in his eyes
nothing but disappointment
I've already lost
I won't win this race
I've already decided
the way the finish line
drifts farther away
I'm already lost
I've already lost
I'm already lost
I've already tossed
all the chances I accost
what's the point of the pain
if there was nothing to gain
I can reach the threshold so high
but if I'm not quite there i'll sigh
and hold myself in contempt
deceive myself with a self-defeating
attitude I've grown content
I've already decided
I've already lo
Defeatism (Rewrite) by Somethingguy912, literature
Literature
Defeatism (Rewrite)
she doesn't like me I've already decided that look in her eyes of utter indifference I've already lost no work's been done I've already decided that look in his eyes of blatant ignorance I've already lost I can't win this race I've already decided that finish line draws farther as I see fit I've already lost I've already lost I'm already lost I've already tossed all chances off where was the point to strain if I can't be satisfied again I'll build a threshold too high that when I can't reach I'm dry of reason to not be held in contempt break myself by a self defeating attitude and continuously lament I've already decided that I've already lost she doesn't want me I've already decided that uncertain posture in approaching me I've already lost work is just too much I've already decided time is as shrunk by how much I truly have I've already lost I can't finish the race I've already decided these laps count more than I'd care to know I'm already lost I've already lost I'm
Psychological Masochism: Essential Readings by zoingeroni, literature
Literature
Psychological Masochism: Essential Readings
The AAM Spectrum: Abused Styles, Aggrieved Types, Masochistic Disorders (in Disorders of Personality, 2011, by Theodore Millon) Treatment of the Masochistic Personality: An Interactional-Object Relations Approach to Psychotherapy (Cheryl Glickauf-Hughes & Marolyn Wells, 1995) Psychological masochism: A systematic review of the literature on conflicts, defenses, and motives (Vera Bekes, John Christopher Perry, & Brian Max Robertson, 2016) Masochism: A Mixed-Method Analysis of Its Development, Psychological Function, and Conceptual Evolution (Vera Bekes, John Christopher Perry, & Brian Max Robertson, 2016) Harvard-Hosted Presentation (Nancy Williams, 2022) Conscious Masochism: Releasing Our Addiction to Suffering and Embracing Our Darkness for Healing (Rachel Leedom, 2020) Quick info (from the Millon Personality Group) Online Article (a former version of Theodore Millon's research) Online Test (IDR Labs)
Bendy And The Dark Revival Fighter Episode 4 by SkullKiller1199, literature
Literature
Bendy And The Dark Revival Fighter Episode 4
Wilson: "Speaker" And from the hallowed darkness, From the wretched abyss, A another saviors comes at last. Sz.L: What could he mean by that? Azrael: i don't know, But i don't like it. I then started to wake up while trying to get up. Azrael: Hey skull, How you feeling? Me: "In pain" What happen? Sz.L: You passed out while beating up that keeper. Azrael: We manage to start your heart again and toke the train to get away from it just incase it wakes up. Sz.L: Yeah. I started to sit up as az and l's help me up. Azrael: It's ok skull, Try rest a little more. Just then, The speaker comes on again. Wilson: "Speaker" Your friend should rest some more, He's still weak. But there's nothing to fear, You are safe for now. Azrael: Fuck you, My friend is not weak. The only person i say it's weak is you, The place will be done when we get our hands on you and the others! Wilson: "Speaker" Open your eyes and look around you! This place, A ancient studio that died out almost