<b><u>If only you knew...</b></u>
<b><i>that my engulfed heart and soul has gone missing...</b></i>
Especially at night while I lay in bed trying to sleep, I find myself thinking of her...Why? I really don't know.
I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, things that we've went through would just zoom in my mind,
I would smile mostly, but at a time, even tear. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not really depressed right now, I'm
just debating with myself about this feeling i'm getting. I feel like a shell, the heart warming soul that I have
felt is gone, it just feels like something's missing. I find myself doing things that only me and her do together, without
even noticing beforehand. Even some as little as eating a sandwich/burger. We would eat the outer bun first,
and save the middle for the final bite, only because it seems so much tastier this way. Ah...if only you knew...if only
you knew that my heart is engulfed with pain and lonliness, my soul is no longer here.
Once again, this is a very emotional piece for me.
<b><u><i>The main shape</b></u></i> - Everything in the main shape was created by photos that I had
taken with my ex girlfriend. There was no renders in this at all, all photos of me and her. I intentionally did this because
the main shape is supposed to be my heart. My heart is filled with memories of me and her.
<b><u><i>Drips</b></u></i> - This symbolizes how my memory of us is melting together by the mixed feelings I get.
<b><u><i>Flames</b></u></i> - Like i said, my heart sometimes feel like it's burning..burning with pain and loneliness,
entangled with our memories, all in one.
<b><u><i>Person sitting alone</b></u></i> - This represents me, I did not manage to get the best stock, originally I wanted
to get someone who had their head down on their bent knee with their arms wrapped around, almost like a crying/depressed pose,
but unfortunately I was not able to find one :(
<b><u><i>Shape drifting away</b></u></i> - The main shape is drifting off of the person or coming out of him because it
represents how I feel like a shell now, my soul, my heart, my memories, everything seems to be drifting off and away now.
<b><u><i>Grundgy background</b></u></i> - The piece is very personal, therefore I added this rough texture and dark
environment to emphasize and put the viewer into the depths of my mind.
I still love you, So very much Sharon.
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