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Ok , I have a few different inspirations for creating this , so bear with me for this bit of babble.
1st and foremost , I have wanted to do a phoenix for awhile now, but couldn't quite figure out how I should do it. I've had this facination with them since my sister Alicia was killed and 2 days later my daughter was born. The whole mysterious nature of the phoenix bursting into flames when it is time to die , and is then re-born from the ashes seemed to apply directly to me at that time of my life.
2nd,for the group :iconmarvelousManips:'s "Fire of Vengence" contest.
3rd , because I wanted to do another emotional piece based on the following song. I :heart: 3 Doors Down :headbang:
and 4th , for my 100 theme challenge # 89 "Through the fire"

:music: "Changes" by # Doors Down [link] :music:

<b><blockquote>"I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feels like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm blind and shakin'
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it

But I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
And I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes "</b>


credits:
model - [link] by :iconmjranum-stock: www.mjranum.com
background - [link] by :icongrace-stock: and [link] by :icondesideriasp-stock:
wings- [link] by :iconlinzstock:
fire- [link] by :iconlucy-eth-stock:
material to cover naked parts - [link] by :iconstoo-stock:
brushes - [link] by :iconwingsofahero: [link] by :iconchupacabras: and [link] by :iconbaringa-of-the-wind: