addictionMore Like This
have you ever been an addict. and im not talking
about the hey-i-like-to-do-this-alot type of addict.
im talking about the
type of addict. im an addict. ive never blown anyone
to get it. i dont think i would. but i havent been
given the opportunity to either. the reason i say 'i
dont think i would' is because i like to pretend that
i still have something thats mine. dignity, pride,
standards. but i know i would easily toss those away
just to get it. i know because i have. so all i
really have is it. for one hour. for two hours. for
fifteen minutes or however long it last. however long
i can afford it to last. ill be high for fifteen
minutes if thats all i can get.
im an addict. i dont get high just to get high. i
get high just to get my mind off getting high for a
few hours. after a fix im good for eight hours.
maybe. then the last of my previous highs memory
cells dry up and i want. need. how ca
Living With AspergersI was diagnosed with AspergersMore Like This
"Hey that is not an excuse!"
Hey man I hate to say it
but Aspies can drive you crazy
Want to tear your hair out
and pound your head against the wall
But I am here to say
You know nothing about me at all.
You say I am rude, stubborn, and naive
and that is G rated terms you said about me.
But I tell you you got it all opposite.
The people closest to me describe me friendly and passionate
and not to mention intelligent.
I might not stand out and be invisible to most
but those blind people don't matter
all they say is "She's retarded" "and a loser"
and assume i wanna start an arguement
but when the yelling and the accusations start i can't stand it.
All I can do is pray for help,
I don't dare say anything.
So before you get into an arguement
you will stop to think about the other person,
AspergersYou tease him.More Like This
Lie to him.
And he takes it all.
He doesn't understand. Or maybe he does and doesn't let on. He always has been one to want attention.
No. That was wrong. Not attention. He wants friends. He wants people who don't make fun of how he dresses or the things he likes. He wants people who don't egg him on for a laugh or call him names and make fun of his (often less than socially acceptable) mannerisms.
He doesn't see where he is wrong though! Oh, no. He can't tell when an appropriate time to make goofy faces is, or how Nazi jokes aren't very funny when in serious discussion. He doesn't know that words like "fag" and "retard" are not words he should be throwing around so casually, especially when they are the same words people call him.
I have tried to teach him these things. And I will continue to. People will make fun of me
Portrait of AutismMy head doesn't work like yoursMore Like This
What for you is black and white
Can be for me very grey
Sometimes I may not grasp right and wrong
I may not listen to yes or no
But it's not that I am horrible, evil
I just don't understand.
My body doesn't work like yours
Sometimes I just can't sit still
I have to move and run and jump
And sometimes I can stay unmoving
For hours, staring into space
Or rocking back and forth
It's a coping mechanism, a comfort
My emotions don't work like yours
I can be happy one minute
Then miserable the next
I analyse things too much
And replay words of pain
If I lean on you, don't push me away
I need the comfort the contact brings
My childhood doesn't work like yours
I am a child, yet not one
I don't know what to do with myself
And that upsets me terribly
I have to have my boundaries
Having the responsibility of setting them myself
Is too much I need you to help me grow every day
My adulthood won't be like yours
I'll always be different to the rest
It's not hopel