Poem: BullyWhy Do Bullies Mess With Others?
While All They Can Do Is Mutter
People Wonder Why They Aren't Nice
When We All Know Their Hearts Are Like Ice
Most People Think They Want Attention
When All They Bring In The Room Is Tension
People Always Act Like Them
Even Though They Lose Friends
They leave Their Old Friends Out In The Cold
Out There All Alone
You May Think That You Rule
But All You Do Is Act Like A Mule
MeI'm sixteen, has a split personality, has Asperger's syndrome, is a tomboy, can be suicidal and I'm the weirdest girl you'll ever meet. But I'm fine with that. I am my own person and I'm proud of myself. Yeah I got my flaws and insecurities but I'm fine with that too. I'm Gwen and all that matters......More Like This
Is that I am me.
This one's for the DreamersSunken eyes and tired smilesMore Like This
Whispers that plead for sympathy
when none they have earned.
The only way out is leave,
Run far away
from the stares I loathe
the faces and names that fill me with regret and despair.
But to leave the bad means to leave the good as well.
And when I think of
the teachers who inspired me,
my parents who supported me
And the friends,
good and bad
Who I’ve loved and lost
I don’t think I can do that.
This town is a poison
that infects even the best of people.
But under the layers of shattered souls
and twisted minds-
It’s still my home.
And I’m not ready to leave it behind just yet.
and definitely unwise.
Because I’d rather be a dreamer in a small town
than a failure in a big one.
A Ruined DreamI once had a dreamMore Like This
You were there
Of the flowers and candles
The colors and music
That beautiful dress
It's gone now
And I'm gone too
Our love tainted
By your lover
By your lies
The GirlThere was a girl once who lovedMore Like This
oh how she did love
So much her heart could burst
So much her belly ached from that love
Where the thought of him melted her
Brought color to her cheeks
He was her summer time after a long hard winter who's winds wore at her edges
Nipped at her heels
Cracked her lips and chapped her skin
He was her hearts home
Her one and only
Where is that girl who had so much love in her heart
Now that Her love has been taken
Stolen from her
This new girl is empty, cold
Her eyes are full of tears
Her face once rosy now pale
Deep thinking of a broken heartI've been lying here awake at night.More Like This
I lay here staring at the ceiling
The baby coos in his sleep
Making me smile faintly
The tv flashes from some show
I can't hear it
I'm thinking about if I can stay strong
Can I deal with the distance
Can I trust
Can I still love after all this hurt
I'm thinking about how much love I have
The things I can give him
A happy life
I'm thinking about feelings
How I feel around him
How my body feels
How it rises to his touch
The heat and the fire
How my heart feels when we are apart
How it feels when we fight
I'm thinking about her
The woman who told me
All those horrible things
About the lies
Him saying they were lies
Can I play the fool again and risk my heart
How many nights will I lay here staring at the ceiling
Before he comes to me and makes me believe
I want to hope
I want to believe
But I'm thinking every night
I'm laying here thinking
When all I w
rant oneSome days I wonder if love between two people can ever be real.More Like This
It's always an up and down hysterical rollercoaster of feelings that are enough to drive a person up a wall.
One day your all they can think about and long for and the next they are distant, tired, bored of you.
Such highs and lows can be exhausting, hard to keep up with.
To judge a persons mood is a feat and a half.
Though you may always be the same towards him it isn't always soon the other side.
Trying to give space when needed yet still be loving or give all the attention you can when he wants you.
Such days are heaven when even super glue isn't the right example of your closeness but those other days when you could fit the titanic between you lengthwise are terrible one wrong word or look and everything blows up in your face.
The hardest is when they are so mercurial that you never know or rarely can read them.
That is when you are truly and for lack of better term you are truly without a doubt fucked.
Some days in th
I just wanted to say....I love you (Poem)You were here, just a few weeks had pastMore Like This
But still, everywhere where I look, it reminds me of you
I still haven't changed a few things when you were here the last time
I just want to say that I love you
I can clearly remember to hold your hands
Every night I think of us, cuddling and hugging in the bed
I often think of those feeling you gave me
And I still know that it gave me goosebumps
But I just wanted to say it again, I love you
To just think of those old days...
What was my dream again? Yes, to have a hungarian in my kitchen
But that was not all, not at all
I wanted to embrace you again and even massage you, your back is so soft
And at the end, all what I thought was "I love you"
I can't forget the time when you were here
And I wish it would never end
I don't want to forget your scent, nor I want to forget your eyes and your purring
You showed me a bit of freedom and also you showed me a part of my future dreams
You showed me a bit more of the world, that's
Battle ScarsBattle Scars~More Like This
Why do you hate me?
I did nothing to you…
Why do you break me?
There is nothing else I can do…
These many scars,
That line my wrists,
My battle scars.
The many fists,
They hit my body,
Fists of hate, name calling, and pain.
My battle scars.
Now I sit, out in the rain,
Rain of tears and suffering.
Crying tears, never ending,
Why do they do this?
Here I am, razor in hand,
New Battle Scars.
Once you said ... (poem)You told me, we are the sameMore Like This
But also you told me that I am like someone you loved and lost
But are you really sure of it?
I feel like I would fake myself for you
I just want that someone loves and cares about me
You told me that you love me
But how can I be sure that you really mean it?
My whole life I was pushed from one side to the other
My life is a mess, so why do you want to share it with me?
No, I want to protect you from me
I don't want that you see me destiny
You told me you wouldn't care
You wouldn't care about my look and my disease
It always makes me cry when you say to me
"I won't let you die" "We are family"
I want to believe it, trust me, but I can't
We are nothing than god's fragments
His toys, which he can crush every moment
I always try to convience you to go on
But how long can you stand it?
You always tell me not to loose hope and believe in something
But how long can I stand it?
You never see my tears nor you can feel them
They are invisible for you
Also you will n
Strange Little HeartSilly little thing,More Like This
How it makes me laugh.
Strange little thing,
How you make me cry!
Awkward little thing,
How you make me angry.
Sad little thing,
How you torment me.
Queer little thing,
Just let me free.
Brave little heart,
How do you bear it?
My friend!My dear,More Like This
How dim your eyes are!
How sad you seem!
Why do your tears fall?
You must know
that a boy is not worth
your smile nor
So smile and laugh,
for there are many sires
to meet and swoon upon.
Keep Your Head DownLook not to the left nor rightMore Like This
and ignore those affectionate gazes.
Old Vanity could be grasping,
twisting your childish views
showing what was never there.
Your heart beats sullenly, but alas, it leaps!
For whom your mind knows not.
To save it however,
keep your gaze down
and your heart silent.
Lady of NoneRomeo is not my lover,More Like This
For I am Rosalie,
And Juliet is a mystery,
but I am no Ophelia.
Will I be Dorine,
Taunting and guiding Mariane?
Or should I be as Eponine,
brooding over Cosette?
Will I be the Phantom,
crying for Christine?
I am not Cinderella,
Will I sit on a stool with hay for gold?
A kiss will not revive me,
not a prince have I.
Catskin is how I am,
Without the dress of stars.
For I am a peasant,
with neither dowry
nor a beloved.
Wings Of IceMore Like This
Wings Of Ice
Lay down my enemies painfully
Release all the hatred heartlessly
Another layer of frost maimed
I've become one with this eternal winter
I've stopped the flow of time in this one frame
My past and future have been torn asunder
I've frozen the pain within my veins
Never again will I ever have to surrender
I am but a reflection
Of every aimless sin
A casualty of corruption
So let my thoughts of vengeance unhinge
I'll reveal the face-
That you forced me to create
I'll indulge in the screams-
Knowing it's not a dream
Tears will instantly become icicles-
Allowing the scum of the Earth to cry is hypocritical
You're the taint that fell from grace-
You don't even deserve these snowy graves
You were all too careless
Always hurting those around you
Now accept the consequences
For the damages you cannot undo
None have survived
The vortex of truth
Wings Of LightMore Like This
Wings Of Light
Upon me is the last dawn
Faded away has the last dusk
I leave behind all of the rights and wrongs
I don't deserve an afterlife that is also rough
Mesmerized in deep suspense
As I await the final arrival
My tears become so intense
These last moments of hope are vital
Allow me to break away
Accept the toll of my undying faith
I was careless as I fell
Mocking life itself
Every secret I held
Defined a broken side of myself
An inner slaughter I could not defend
A one-sided war that I could not fight against
My downfall is what I didn't want to prevent
I always lusted after the idea of my final descent
Because I knew that in the end I would ascend
All I can really do is live this divided life as best as I can
I realized that the only thing in perfection is being broken
And the only way to get rid of that is to wipe out my existence
Shine down and shine true
I will no longer be powerless
You don't know how long I've been waiting for you
Wings Of DarknessMore Like This
Wings Of Darkness
Bind me within your embrace
Bestow me with your grace
I seek your help to obtain the unseen
I need you to blind me from the light
Never let me see my weakness again
Blanket my fears so I won't cry
Cease the false hope from shining in vain
Ward away the lies that hide behind my eyes
Morph this disaster into a calm night
Burn the dying sun out
Darken the nightmarish sky
Let the ominous clouds melt
Lock away this cursed gift of sight
I no longer desire it
Shut out the world from you and I
I yearn for the abyss
Rip away my self-hatred
Bring back my innocence
Obliterate the life I created
And color this reality obsidian
Let the void consume
Paint my essence black
Devour what was once called truth
My faith is in your hands
I profess it all unto you
I am under your command
Cover up my exiled heart
Wrap my soul i
Wings Of FireMore Like This
Wings Of Fire
Send me off to the fiery abyss
Free me from life's grip
Morals have been tortured
Strengths have been reversed
Desires have been submersed
I plead for you to pass the torch
Hand over the destiny I've been waiting for
Let me finish off this unbearable dirge
Weep not for singed sins
Leave behind the memories
Mourn not for scarred skin
Forgive every tragedy
Set ablaze that darkness within
Grasp onto serenity
Fuel the flame for the ending
Cling onto clarity
There's peace after pain
Calm can engulf chaos
There's love behind hate
Freedom masks weakness
I've abandoned every promise
I couldn't complete what was said
My hope cannot rise from the ashes
Please, do not follow my footprints of flame
They only lead down a path where infernos cascade
There is no honorable life or even death for what I became
Consume this cruel reality
UntitledThere are times where...More Like This
you just can't breathe,
where everything become a nightmare,
where the world crumble's into you.
You can't tell if your suffocating,
or just to much frustration.
But stop that. stop it now.
put some headphones on.
listen to the lyrics from music that can make you smile.
happiness isn't only found in love.
there are such a variety of lovely feelings that make you feel like your in a diferent world
without even talking one step out of earth.
close your eyes.
you don't have to adjust yourself for people to like you.
be yourself, and one day, one person will like who you are.
patience is what will guide you to what is happiness.
don't be lazy, work hard for no reason,
trust me.. if you did work hard with the effort and passion put into it..
it will be worth it one day.
don't make fake smiles
don't hide yourself in lies,
don't feel ashamed to cry.
because those smiles will eventually never be noticed,
lies become a sickness of your own,
Nonesense to the extent of madnessI don't believe in loveMore Like This
yet...what I feel
has become so dificult to understand that,
as a dark mask,
I wouldn't be able to cover my severly fallen face...
As desperate as it seems to write such nonesense,
I cannot control my own feelings itself
and as I write, my thoughts will slowly dissapear.
I will not remember this letter,
therefor you will be reading what my true felings will be saying.
and so, I'm scared to admit this weakness
back and forth I come to doubt myself in a way,
that you,yourself won't seem to find happy.
But when I look into your simply gestured eyes...
I can't seem to contain myself and smile like a fool,
I can't believe such person managed to make me so happy,
I feel that everything from before has become completelly un-important.
Pardon my obsoured speaking,
but all I've seem to become is insane.
As never before,
not in a sad, frustrated or terrified way;
it's the happiness I always awaited to arrive.
or am I overexagerating?
I am over
blah and blah all i can describe to thisi can moveMore Like This
i can breath
i can love
i can be me.
im afraid to look at the person,
that has brought me happiness
because i don't wish to see you gone,
i dont want you to see me crying at your bests.
i can't believe that what ive been looking for
is finally here
ive come to love even more than before
please don't leave dear.
i can't think of anything really,
with a smirk on my face
i miss you dearly.
trying to survive the day.
i wondered what was i in this world?
i don't want to know that anymore,
to this story what was my moral?
but i just know only you i can adore.
it has become dificult to hide my feelings
thanks to you.
i feel like i have meaning,
to that i think your cool.
might make me lose myself.
because even if im alive,
i won't move,
because you are the only person i want claime mine,
even if you dont have a clue
if what im saying is true.
i am crazy,
and i just whent insane
since that first kiss, everything was amazing,
and everything became lame,
what i think..I can believe to dream,More Like This
in such submissive eyes,
where i can be free,
Is where my creativity seems to hide.
In such a daze,
revealing my self,
i become amazed,
of what stories i can share.
The melody reminds me of you.
how i feel when your prescence is here,
makes my insides bloom,
wich makes my smile smirk at it's fear.
What can i expect from the future?
will i be what i want?
i want my heart to be creative and pure.
as it is, so i can have passion and be blunt.
May such words affect my dear self conscious,
that your words already make me noxious
so ill just smile.
The delightness of my hearing,
to forever kneel.
against the hidden foresaken melody at last.
The story im about to tell,
was a dream,that i wished to not come true
even if i yelled, from the lack of sense.
it was really something that I've been longing for.
im not looking for it,
i used to care for such thing, but I've grown tired of waiting,
and found someone who did.
She Runs with BeastsShe runs with beasts that humans hide from,More Like This
Lives in shadows that all life fear.
All to keep from coming undone,
To keep her heart unclear.
Why do people shun what is unknown?
Treat all like it is worthless?
Life can be grand, unless you're alone.
Then it is so joyless...
So day by day she opens her eyes,
To wish they were still shut.
Hour by hour she thinks through goodbyes,
Her broken heart still cut.
No angels can save he who burns,
He who cannot see the light.
No devils can face she who wont turn,
She who refuses to fight...
But beasts dont judge,
They treat you like one of their own.
Even if your feet wont budge,
They will keep their love for you shown.
So to the souls bleeding in darkness,
Wander to the riverbanks end.
They will creep up in silence,
The beasts will be your only true friends...
I See...More Like This
I see shadows lurking in the corners,
I see demons hiding under the bed.
In the mirror, I see a torn girl,
Her mind alive, her soul dead.
I can see her bleeding,
Staying in the darkness.
I know she is believing,
That her whole life is worthless.
Her face looks like a dolls,
Her eyes look like the seas.
Ignored, she walks down the halls,
Not knowing what she needs.
She used to have a feeling,
A spark that shone so bright.
Someone who made her want to sing,
For whom she would stand and fight.
She thought their bond was everlasting,
Nothing could tear them apart.
The demons, and phantoms all knowing,
No darkness could touch her heart.
Years they stayed united,
No matter how bad the fight.
But then the girl was blind-sided,
And the gruesome end was in sight.
The girl only wants to feel loved,
To feel needed,
To know hope,
To feel joy again.
So now the poor girl wanders,
Looking at the world with tear-rimmed eyes.
Nothing to do but to ponder,
Why her love had to die
Yes, I see
Questionable SanityMore Like This
A friend that holds me down...
Or is it my enemy?
I don't Understand.
That is my only conclusion.
A sweet Solitude.
All I have ever loved.
These are the things I see.
What is red?
A crimson liquid,
a twinge of feelings.
Restarting my Heart, at least for a moment.
I have lost all sence of it.
I remember it from long ago...
When joy was the only thing I knew.
Ha. There is no point for it.
The lines are blurred.
Allowing such Deathly friends.
A face in the mirror that isn't mine.
Do I even have a Reflection?
No... That girl isn't me.
All I see is a shell.
Why is it?,
That even Surrounded, Suffocating,
I still feel so Alone?
Is this why my eyes
You Mean The World To MeMore Like This
To the one I Lost,
I felt so unseen
My broken heart sewn on my sleeve,
Didn't show you anything but a hopeless gleam.
Yet still your smile bring me to tears,
Though I have seen it for so many years.
I know you feel empty, lost and abused,
On top of it all, hurt and confused.
I loved you Evil Angel.
Your molten brown eyes do enchant.
Though your tears make me angry and rant,
It hurts me to see you going through hell.
You're special to me,
That much is plain to see.
You made me hurt since the day,
You chose to walk away
The fights are more than I can take,
But I hold on for sanities sake.
Because I can't call you lover like I did back then,
But I can still call you my perfect best friend...
Or At least I thought I could