prayer of the androidsittng here alone
among the lost flowers
of my forgotten world
above the sky is like la mere
stars sailing across the sun
and hands full of moon dust
i close my eyes
i lost myself
i cannot sleep
my eyelids fallen
the center of my mind
when i open this gate
who will i find?
i see face staring back at me
face with sorrow and regret
painted on it
i lied – i don't want to know the truth
now just lie to me, like i did to you
just tell me that it's not my face
there, in the shadows
just don't ask me to fight
'cause my sword is broken
my magic flow away
and i have nothing, nothing left
so lie to me, sweetheart
lie to me
tell me, that you can build me
that i don't need oil
running in my veins
tell me that i run on the blade
that i don't need ubik
and that i don't dream
about electric sheep…
RosesIn this wasteland I call "home"More Like This
there are many roses, all trimmed and fake.
Made pretty for all, and thorns clipped away,
making it easy for anyone to grab.
But there is one,
still wild and true.
Wrapped up in thorns
untouched by unworthy hands.
This is the rose I want.
I'll reach every chance I get.
I'll let the thorns tear my skin away
until nothing but my heart is left.
If it proves that I truly love it,
I'll let its poison rot me away . . .
Bittersweet LoveThe purity justice brings, how bittersweet it can taste.More Like This
My love for her knows no bounds, yet she seems intangible.
Oh, justice, how cruel you can be, keeping me from my love.
How I wish, I crave, to taste her kiss.
I would do anything, and give up everything for her.
Even if it means forefitting my life's dreams . . .
EscapeI'm trying to escape,More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
Silent Killer.silent.More Like This
FlawedInsecurities.More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
Is It Love?If I hugged you,More Like This
would you never let go?
If I kissed you,
would you cherish that moment?
If I reached for your hand,
would you take mine gently?
If I needed a shoulder,
would you let me cry on yours?
If I needed to talk,
would you really listen?
If I needed to scream,
would you do it with me?
If I needed to go,
would you come with me?
If I fell for you,
would you catch me?
or just let me hit the pavement?
Im FineIt's okay im fine,More Like This
My heart has torn itself into pieces, even smaller than the last time,
Im alone all the time, sitting in this room avoiding everything,
This is my sad sanctuary, where i can feel how i want to feel,
But when i leave, i need to wear this facade,
Everyone has problems except for me,
I am the shoulder for others to cry on,
I am the friend who is always there for you,
Im there for you, not for me,
My feelings aren't important while you have problems,
I just wish you could read between the lines,
Know that 'im fine' dosen't mean 'im fine'
I bottle away this emotion,
One day im going to shake it all up,
Explode it onto you and then you'll know how fucked up inside i am,
I have my good days yeah,
Those days i forget i feel like a shell,
Hell i even smile once or twice,
Luagh at a joke,
Say one or two of my own not to cheer you up,
But because i feel like it,
Then the next day it comes back,
Haunts my restless nights,
But it's okay,
Ill bottle it up and save it
Trapped by PositivityI am trapped by hopeMore Like This
Desire for the happing ending all receive
I am bound to a path I don't even respect anymore
Just to achieve a desire I'm not even sure I want
Love is futile here
Fleeting and inaccurate clearly
Otherwise every person in "love"
Wouldn't wind up hurt or dead inside
And still I've become that which I despise
And someday I may learn
But as all things seem
Today is not that day
Today is not that day
Nor tomorrow or any day soon
I'm trapped and don't think I can run anymore
WelcomeWelcome to my lifeMore Like This
I hope you enjoy your visit
Though you won't stay long
No one ever does
Make sure you visit my heart
A place once full of life
Now blackened by time
Be sure to go see my mind
A demented place
Where the thoughts never stop
And rest is never given
Try to avoid my memory
It's full of nothing but misery and horror
Well I hope your stay is pleasant
For it will most likely be the last time
Welcome To My LifeDon't bore me with excuses,More Like This
Today is not the day,
To play with my emotions,
Or to get it your own way.
Retreating, and hiding,
Deep into my shell,
Welcome to my life,
A happy forever in hell.
Calloses and blisters,
Sown into my heart,
Stitches not desolving,
Words taste awefully tart.
A lonely disposition,
Of a heart-breaking decision,
Now alone for evermore,
A dark corner hogging whore.
My object in life,
Is just to make it through,
I doubt my soul is pure,
As forever shouts, "Yes! Her too!"
Caught in quicksand,
On the dege of a blade,
Struggling to stay alive,
Let alone in peaceful glade.
So welcome to my life,
Watch out or you won't see,
You'll fall into the same hell,
In which my life had trapped me.
eternal pactwe don\'t need a labelMore Like This
cuz we aren\'t certain what we are
but our friendship is one thing that stays stable
we are going to be there for each other
through thick and thin
you\'ll be the guy who treated me right
i\'ll be the girl to trust and confide in
and we both have eachothers back
this way we both win,
it\'s our eternal pact.
our love doesn\'t need to be defined
\"cuz maybe we\'re just blind\"
i care for you and you for me
that we can\'t deny
though you may seem crazy
and i maybe be a bitch
in a friendship like ours
that is just a small glitch.
..\"up in this\"
mostly we\'ll just make each other laugh
and keep eachother on the right path
cuz we are each others back
and that\'s a fact
it\'s all part of our eternal pact.
i wishI wish you weren't so distant and busyMore Like This
and when i saw you after being away a couple of days
you were happy cuz you had missed me
I wish we could laugh, cuddle and play
and you still always knew the right thing to say
I wish you were more sensitive
and asked me more how i am
I wish you were gentle and sweet
that once in awhile you would kiss me
or fix me something to eat
I wish i wasn't invisible and unseen
and thru my expressions you know what i really mean
I wish you thought i was beautiful
and you would often tell me
I wish you weren't disgusted by me
and would occasionally rub my belly
I wish you could feel my discomfort
or at least try to understand
i Wish i could tell you my feelings
b'cuz Im stressed, lonely and scared
most of all, i love you
and i wish you cared
unhappily ever after"you're in there but just barely"More Like This
My fairy tale started out perfect
every girls dream
I was the damsel in distress
you were prince charming
oh so mysterious
loving, patient adoring and sweet
working overtime to repair my broken wings
giving me strength and confidence to get back up and stand on my feet
Oh how the roles have reversed
you try to tear me down
and crush my dreams
negative, bitter, angry and mean
It took a long time to figure you out
but i can now clearly see
I am beauty you are the beast
sextwo people completely connectedMore Like This
feeling incredible senses
everything else leaves their minds
for that short momemt in time
all you feel is this incredible pleasure
all you want is for this feeling to remain
and it is so hard to contain
so you moan and scream
nothing in the world feels as good
it seems like a dream
as it gets harder and faster
you get to feeling like you are in completely ecstasy
you begin to hear a beat, a melody
you may slow it down and change positions
but all of it is so delicious
bodies become sweaty and moist all over
and dirty wetness is so wonderful
the intensity becomes stronger
it won't last much longer
so you climax
take a deep breath, go outside
smoke a stoge and relax
Negativ ist PositivGeschaffen aus Hass und Aggression um die Wahrheit zu überbringen dochMore Like This
um wärme und liebe zu bekommen müsste ich ein neues Leben beginnen und diesem hier ein Ende setzen .
Doch dieses kostbare Leben was mein einsigstes ist werde ich niemals beenden ,
ich werde Leben bis mein letzter Atemzug vom Winde in die untiefen der Welt geweht wurde und werde jedem versuchen die Realität an sein Leben zu binden
und ihn vergessen lassen was Lügen sind .
Meine Kälte werde ich wie einen Virus auf meine Zuhörer übertragen und ihnen beweisen das die Welt bersten wird wenn man zu viel empfindet.
HerrschaftDie Macht über etwas zu besitzen ist wahrhaftig eine KostbarkeitMore Like This
und diese Macht ausnutzen zu wollen wäre eigendlich scharmlos
und unverschämt, doch wer Macht hat kann vieles zu seinem Nutze
schaffen und die Welt neu formen .
Ohne sich Gedanken darüber zu machen wie weit man gehen sollte übertrifft man irgendwann seine eigenen Grenzen , doch man lebt sich langsam ein und gewinnt wieder mehr Vertrauen zu sich selbst und spürt welche Kraft man entwickelt hat und man merkt das aus jedem eine Führungspersönlickeit werden kann , doch genau ab dem Moment wo man dies spürt will man es verhindern das andere genau solch eine Macht bekommen oder besitzen und will ihre Völker und Länder in ihre Einzelteile brechen und sie wieder so formen um einen Zweck für sich selbst zu finden und wenn man irgendwann alles besitzt was man haben will , kommt bei jedem der Moment an dem man was unüberlegtes tut und meistens eine Massenzerstörun
Das ErwachenMore Like This
All die Jahre, all die Zeiten die ich hier verweile sind eine pure Verschwendung, ich sollte etwas tun, mich bewegen, frische Luft atmen, doch in dieser Welt ist dies nicht mehr möglich. All die Verräter, die ihre eigene Heimat in Brand stecken und ihr gelächter beim Anblick der Zerstörung.
Das ewige planen von Rachezügen, die unendlichen Reden von Heuchlern, die Falschaussagungen der Menschen die versuchen ihre Ehre durch ihre Lügen wiederherzustellen, doch nach ihnen greifen schon die Krallen der Berstenden.
Ihre einzigste Hoffnung ist die Flucht vor der Realität und ihr armseliges, krankes und unbedeutendes Leben ist nur da um den anderen die Chance auf eine bessere Zukunft zu vernichten.
Die SeeleDeine Seele lenkt dich und bringt dir Freude aber auch TrauerMore Like This
in dein Leben. Die Seele ist eine Einbildung die sich langsam
als wäre sie real in deinen Körper frisst und dich anfängt zu steuern
und du verlierst deine Selbstbeherrschung.
Merke doch, dass du Herr über deinen Körper bist , merke dass du für dich selbst regeln kannst und kein Gewissen brauchst, sondern nur Verstand und Logik.
Oft heisst es, *Meine Seele ist krank*, doch in Wirklichkeit
ist es der, der es behauptet und nach Jahren merken Alle in welchem sinnlosen Leben sie umherwandelten und sich meist das Leben nehmen...doch dies ist der Fehler, den sie alle begehen und damit nur schwäche zeigen.
True LoveI didn't know love until I met you.More Like This
Nothing in my life had ever felt so true.
You were the reason I went day to day,
Washing all of my depression away.
I wish I could make everything all right,
Every second I think of that night.
The way you broke my heart with only few words.
Did more to me than being stabbed by a thousand swords.
I didn't know pain until I met you.
Even know, nothing has ever felt so true.
You used to be the reason I went day to day,
But now your make me wish I could fade away.
Just YesterdayMore Like This
Just yesterday you were holding my hand,
Just yesterday you gave me a wedding band,
Just yesterday you said I do and,
Just yesterday you said you loved me too.
Just yesterday you told me you cared,
Just yesterday you told me about the love we shared,
Just yesterday you said you'd never leave and,
Just yesterday that was all I needed to believe.
Just yesterday you were near,
Just yesterday they told me something I did'nt want to hear,
Just yesterday they buried you deep and,
Just yesterday thoughts of you kept me from sleep.
Just yesterday I finally came to see you,
Just yesterday I missed you more than I usually do and,
Just yesterday I remembered again how much I need you.
Just yesterday has come and gone and,
Just yesterday is just a memory of all that went wrong.
Let Me DieLet me dieMore Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
The KnowingThe KnowingMore Like This
by jsenn (Joy Senn)
not quite the same
not quite the same as before
before the papered golden ring
before the child from swaddling grew
before the hand of unheard aches
touched us here and here and here
we never knew
I swear to you, we never knew
(we live forever. don't we? nope.)
(does it get better? yup.)
falling leaves . spring renews . summer's sweat
I do digress
now is more
more than before
now we know the knowing
and the power in the word
knowing some mountains won't be climbed
knowing some oceans won't be crossed
knowing the awful wait does end
that patience is not the heavy load
knowing even this
...the rose's scent before the sniff
and this...oh, this, of greater import now
knowing the slightest grin
the unseen move
the imperceptible glint of eye
the elegant, the elegant
there you have it, boiled down
hopes and dreams, love and life
contained by the beginning
smooth assurance, abiding time
the forest's shadow huntersIn the night a piercing sound,More Like This
Dares us not to come around,
As we hunt with knives and guns,
Those that cry hunt not for fun,
Soon the woods fill with cries,
As the deer begin to die,
For they hunt in numbers great,
Because their size is of debate,
Those that lived here long ago,
Respected those that come and go,
Feared they are by hunters white,
For they were thought to be a blight,
Now a day they are as strangers,
For their lives are sure endangered,
Those on two remain still blind,
While others bring them peace of mind,
As their numbers seem to grow,
Never more do the crows,
Sit idly in the trees,
Swaying in the highway breeze,
As they run through forests black,
While their noses follow tracks,
The pack then senses wafts of fear,
Then they know their prey is deer,
The Moon at night hears them cry,
For their prey to come on by,
As the sun begins to rise,
We find to no surprise,
The shadows are gone,
For in the light of dawn,
Hunters on two dare come along,
The shadows lives are soon
No True InnocenceAn extreme pain,More Like This
A heart in vain,
Who is to blame?
A falling tear,
No mercy for those dear,
No innocence is found,
As the heart begins to pound,
The blame is on me,
The broken law in shame,
Tears fall from the face in pain,
Their heart found no gain,
No legal law apart,
Of this crime so great of heart,
This world has no guilt,
Though a tower of crimes each have built,
Hearts of sin left in darkness,
Find in their bloodiness,
No innocence to them have been given,
Or to the madman wildly driven,
True innocence exists no longer,
For our hearts are left to ponder,
The guilt that is forever felt,
By the hand the devil dealt,
I am to blame,
For the broken heart a flame,
Now my soul feels the pain,
As my heart regrets in vain.
willow's cry of fearAs I stand alone and weep,More Like This
My sorrow here I dare to keep,
While from deep my tears do swell,
And my heart tolls the mourning bell,
Soon my tears begin to flow,
As a puddle forms below,
Nothing does it make so bold,
For soon it forms a pond of old,
Forever I stand and suffer here,
While I do give life for deer,
I am older than the wind,
As my limbs do sway and bend,
My friends of old have watched me weep,
While friends anew find the sadness deep,
Soon on me grows the mold,
As I start to look so sad and old,
My sadness is a token,
From the men who left me broken,
My land no more by hands that break,
Has left my heart alone to ache,
Why oh men do you make me weep?
By your sins that dwell the deeps,
You have broken my land,
With your own bare hands,
A willow am I,
Whose head once held high,
Now wallows in fear,
Of the men who shed no tears,
For my brethren I now do weep,
Now the weapons in your keep,
I stand alone now and say,
I will cry until the end of days.
insanity of boredomI make you insane,More Like This
Your mind is in pain,
Oh the shame,
Who is to blame?
Boredom be I,
So you try to get high,
But alas it doesn't work,
Now your mind is full of quirks,
The bane of all humanity,
In an asylum you now belong,
But soon your heart does sing a song,
Alas my cruelty broken,
By randomness so boldly spoken,
My mortal rival does surprise,
My old power's glorious rise,
Jump with joy one with heart,
For soon you will lose another part,
You have won this battle,
But soon again I'll be in the saddle,
And once again I will rise,
And there will be no compromise,
Soon your arms and legs will be in binds,
And your life will be duly mine,
Your life is done,
Your will is gone,
I have won,
Never again shall you see the sun,
Your eyes will close,
Your body never again to pose,
As your heart begins to slow,
While your blood ceases to flow.
VersionYou can't stand meMore Like This
because you don't know who you are
but I know myself.
You have failed, but I have won
everything you ever wanted.
You can't stand me
because I am the bright darkness
the hiding seek-er
the sunny night
You can't stand me-
I am the doubt, the warning, the instinct.
I am the dream you have forgotten
but cannot let go.
I am all the music, everywhere.
You can't stand me
because I talk like you, walk like you-
I look like you, but I am not you.
I am the version of yourself
you didn't have the courage
And you can't stand me
because you can't stand yourself.
ShadesHow can I be happy today?More Like This
How can I enjoy today?
It has been given to me
painted in shades of disappointment
and I cannot see the true colors beneath them.
It is all my fault, and there can be no consolation.
For you, for me, for everyone,
I have failed.
And no matter how many know it or not
the world is less because of it today.
I cannot fix this, I cannot set it right.
Time has wronged me, torn me away
from a few seconds that I desperately need.
What could I have done?
What could I have said?
So many answers to questions
we will never know.
This has happened before, I know
but I cannot remember the steps to take
the thoughts to think
the things to do
in order to bring the sun out again.
I just want to hide in a corner
and wait for the light to appear all on it's own.
Come back to me.
I am more lost than I have ever been
and if there was ever a time I needed you,
it is now.
Missing YouYou're fading in my mindMore Like This
like a picture from a dream
and the longer I try to hold on
the harder I try
to hold on
you slip away.
I now recognize you only
in the turn of a head,
the flick of a hand,
gestures that are you
but always belong to someone else.
I run after them, calling for you,
but the face that turns
the gaze that catches me
"Can I help you?"
Wrong. All wrong.
Wrong puzzled expression.
Wrong uncertain stance.
"Yes" I want to say,
To say so would be a lie
and I can't lie in that moment,
with you so fresh in my mind.
You hated it when
I walk on.
I wait for you.
I listen for you.
I watch for you.
So many times I am mistaken
so many false alarms
so many you's out there
that are not you.
But I have to keep trying.
I have to keep watching
because somehow, I know-
instinctively, I know-
that when I am no longer watching
when I no longer see
I'll lose you.
You'll pass me in the crowd
and I am oblivious
or you'll fade
AbsolutelyThere is no here or there,More Like This
no this or that,
no then or now.
There is no hot or cold,
no black or white,
no life or death.
There is only the grey area,
only a combination of things
that should destroy each other,
A combination of things
that cannot exist in the same space
Because there is no can,
there is no can't.
And when you understand this,
you will be able to understand
that there is no understanding.
There is only this.
There is only now.
This moment is all you have,
and all you will ever be given.
Make it what it needs to be.